- HAZEL - Looking for another word for d**k? I'll gladly recommend Killian. How he pretends like I'm non-existent shocks me to an incredible amount. I clenched my fists on my thighs, narrowing my gaze at him while fighting the urge to kick his feet from underneath the table. Did watching them kill me slowly? Yes, I felt my heart rip again into a million pieces. Did I stop looking? No. Do I have a choice? No, not really, unless I want to give myself out. I'd hate it if Kate thought I didn't get along with her fiancé when it's exactly the opposite. Very much far from the opposite. We got along quite too well. Ugh! f**k my mind! It's not meant to be against me! I rolled my eyes and exhaled. It'll crush Kate to know the truth. Now I don't know which is worse. Lying and pretendin

