Feelings Deleting

Crowded

** Somehow, his honesty makes me feel stuffy and hard to breathe ** 

Aris POV 

Here I am, accompanying him always. Ever since she was little, I was always near her until she grew into a beautiful brown haired girl. Her long, loose hair danced to the right and left following her quick steps. And her brown eyes that complement his cold face. Her sharp eyes were beautiful but, blank. His emptiness was clearly seen for those who saw his brown eyes even at a glance. 

Even since she was little, I have treated this cold girl well. Now, she is mine. I don't know why I confess my feelings to the girl who understands her feelings. How can he accept and say "yes" when he doesn't know what love is ?

 I do not know the reason why I chose it, the reason I share the sadness, the reason why I care about all this, the reason why I am interested in a mass story. I was just a paid bodyguard who had to erase what compassion was, I was paid very expensive just to treat, protect, and teach it schoolwork. We live in a suburb of New York with a magnificent Mansion complete with dozens of helpers in it. We lived there for several years. Until finally we are here now, in the most elite school. A very magnificent school for developing countries like, Indonesia. Indonesia does have many surprises behind the shadows of "Developing Countries".

 "We've arrived", he said flatly as he stopped. "Aris, do you remember how Mr. Robby looked?" He asked without turning around or his face.

 "Yes, of course I remember Ms. Lowren." The girl turned and looked at me strangely now. Did I just say the wrong thing?

 "What's wrong?" I asked curtly. He who was five feet away from me walked slowly and approached me while staring intently. I did not budge from my position and I looked at him in surprise. He who moved shorter than me was up to look at me. "What did you say? Ms. Lowren?" "Yes, is something wrong?" "Why do you call me that? Aren't we dating? That's not how you call your lover." she said, who began to move away from my face and turned to continue his steps. I was shocked by his sudden statement. He sounds so sweet as if he needs more love and attention. I hurried after him, and pulled his hand to stop his rapid footsteps. 

"Wait!".  

I pulled her until turned and crashed into my chest. she was shocked because of my sudden treatment. I looked at his empty brown eyes, and he looked up at me. "Then, how should I call you?" I asked, still holding his wrist. she just silent, then looked down. I lifted her chin to look at me again but, she still remained silent. The silence happened for a few seconds, I don't know if she was ashamed to say it or vice versa? Until finally she opened her tiny lips slowly.

 "I ... I don't know. I haven't read it yet." She again did not want to look at me. I frowned confused.

 "What do you mean, Anastasya?" I asked in surprise.

 "According to the book I read, you shouldn't call your girlfriend with the word Ms. Then, I don't know what name is appropriate to call a partner of the opposite s*x. I haven't read it, that's because-" 

"Stop it, Anastasya. You don't need to continue." I looked down to hear the explanation given by the girl. I think he understood what a relationship was regardless of the nickname to be given. But, apparently I was wrong. She is still the innocent little Anastasya Lowren. Innocent little children who don't know anything especially feelings. I still feel that Anastasya is still looking at me confused. While I keep looking down, I curse at Myself who thinks Anastasya has or knows a little about what feelings are, what love is. This is the reason why not only him in my life. Maybe this feeling is not love, but compassion because of all the problems. I kept thinking about how innocent the girl honestly said all based on the book, I kept silent with Anastasya who was still staring at me. For some reason, his honesty made me feel stuffy and hard to breathe. I exhaled my breath roughly. Until someone came to us, and broke the silence. Then, forget about the shortness of breath that attacked me suddenly. 

"Anastasya, he is Mr. Robby." Anastasya looks at me briefly. Then looked at the figure in front of him with his hands still hanging. 

"Ahh ... Looks like you really are Anastasya Lowren who was told. Everything is according to the information I got from Mr. Lerman. Cold, long hair, with sharp eyes with brown lenses. " He said with a slight smile with his hand put into a pants pocket. 

"Yes. He is very capable of managing a company that just fell into his hands a few years ago." 

"It's incredible. It's all in him. Wealth, charisma, cold and sharp eyes, also a hypnotizing look." 

"Yes... That's right. Has the others arrived?" 

"Gian and Sain?" I nodded slowly."Gian was there from morning, he resolved the virus and several cyber crimes which harmed the country. He was a genius boy, in just 2 hours he was able to detect about 60% of viruses and suspected cyber crimes." 

"Then what about Sain?" 

"He's in server room 2-" 

"Wait a minute, did you separate them?" I asked in surprise. 

"Sorry, but that was a request from Sain. He didn't want to be with that genius boy. He said he had to crack the secret code." He explained with a slightly apologetic face. I frowned. Not because I don't understand what Mr. Robby But, I feel something is missing. Anastasya! Gosh, how can I forget about it and even enjoy talking with Him?