The Mate Fate Almost Didn't Give Me

Chapter 10: Then Don't But Don't Reject Me

Chapter 10

Then Don’t But Don’t Reject Me

Damian’s P.O.V.

While Azara is in the bathroom I get dressed and take a seat in the chair. I want to talk to her about her file when she gets out.

As she walks out of the bathroom I feel like I have a hard time thinking. She is just so beautiful.

She takes a seat on the couch across from me. Part of me wishes she were still in my arms.

She takes a deep breath and starts to speak, “I am okay with not having the counselling or mediation done.”

I stare at her in surprise. (I wasn’t going to do any of that either way but I am surprised she is so okay with it.) Not that I tell her the second part. Instead I simply say, “I wouldn’t have done it either way.”

“I know. Which is why I am telling you that instead I want to go over everything in private.” She responds. (What is there to go over? She is coming home with me, I won’t live separately.)

 “what is there to talk about? You are coming home with me.”

“I know.” (She knows?) “You are an Alpha. Your first duty is to your pack it has to be. So there is no use in fighting about which pack we are moving to because it will have to be yours and your an Alpha which mean that we can’t live separately because travel would be difficult for you and your pack will need a Luna. Which, I am assuming, is why you came to the Meeting of the Mates to begin with.” (She does know. She understands me so well already. She is amazing.)

She continues. “However, that being said, I am warrior and I wish to remain so. I have no interest in being one of those Lunas who sits around in the house and looks pretty. I want to train and I want to fight. Furthermore, if all you want is a Luna, I will have you know I will not ever look the other way for you to have indiscretions. I am not going to be treated like a breeding tool.” (Wait what?)

Demon growls at what her speech suggests but all I can focus on is her wanting to continue to be a warrior. (I can’t let her do this. There is no way she can be a warrior.She could die.) 

Demon whimpers before remembering, “she insinuated that we would use her and cheat on her.” He whimpers. 

(How dare she even think those things.)

All i can do is growl at the thought, “First of all if all I want is a Luna then I certainly have no interest in breeding with you. Second you don’t make the rules, and lastly you will not fight ever.” 

“I am not a prisoner,” She snaps. 

“No,” I snap. “You will be a Luna and Lunas don’t fight. (There is a reason why Lunas aren’t warriors.)

“I am a warrior. How can you ask me to sit back and look pretty.” She growls. 

(I want you alive.) “I AM NOT ASKING,” I yell. 

“NEITHER AM I.” She yells back.

She takes me by surprise. Nobody dares to yell at me. “I AM YOUR ALPHA. YOU WILL DO AS I SAY.” 

“I DON’T CARE WHAT YOU ARE. YOU WILL NOT ORDER ME AROUND.” She screams back.

All I can do is yell, “NO”. (I don’t know what else to do. She has to listen to me. She can’t fight!!!)

“I AM NOT ASKING. I AM TELLING YOU THAT IF YOU WANT A WEAK LUNA IT WON’T BE ME.” She screams. 

I freeze. (She will be my Luna and I won’t lose her because she doesn’t want to look weak.)

The only thing I can think of is to use my Alpha commands on her,  “YOU WILL COME WITH ME, AND YOU WILL DO WHAT I SAY BECAUSE I AM YOU ALPHA. YOU DON’T GET A CHOICE.” 

She just stares at me after that. I can’t read her now because she has become expressionless. The all the sudden she runs into the bathroom and locks herself in there. Within seconds I can hear her sobbing.

“She is crying,” Demon whimpers. 

“I know she is I can hear here but what else could I do Demon she can’t fight. I don’t think I could survive her dying.”

“I know but she’s hurting.” he responds.

As we listen to her cry. I feel weak for the first time in a long time. 

(I don’t think I can handle having a mate but I don’t think I can handle losing her either. I need to keep her close and alive so that I can stay strong but I also need to keep my distance. I need to not allow her into my head and heart. I need to keep my distance from now on)

“I don’t think that will work” my wolf says. 

“I know.” I whisper back to him.

For awhile I just stare at the wall unsure of what to do about the situation.

When I hear the bathroom door unlock. As she walks closer to me I can smell her scent becoming stronger, it calms me.

Until she is standing before me and says “I, Azara Silver, Re…”

My wolf howls 

(NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.NO)

(I can’t let her do this.)

Before she can finish her sentence I do the only thing I can think of to stop her. I kiss her. Sparks explode on my skin from the kiss. I growl at her “NO.” (she can’t reject me. I can’t lose her)

At my word, she breaks down and begins to cry. This is so much worse than hearing her cry in the bathroom. I watch as the tears roll down her face knowing I caused her this pain is tearing me to pieces.

Finally she speaks, “I will not live in a world where I am forced into submission.”

My wolf whimpers. 

She looks so broken. I realize ( if I let her become a warrior, I might lose but I don’t she will reject me)

“At least she will be alive,” Demon whispers.

“No, if she rejects me she will go back to being a warrior in her old pack and she could still die. I won’t even be able to protect her.” I tell him. 

Demon growls at the thought of not being able to protect his mate. “So what do we do.”

I think for a moment. “We allow her to be a warrior. She is strong and she can fight and this way we will be there to protect her.”

I look down at my mate. (please don’t leave me). I tell her, “Then don’t but don’t reject me.” (Just please don’t reject me)