Mending a broken spirit

Chapter 14

Shawn's POV......

After Axel left I went to change into some comfy cloths and wait for breakfast to get here. Not too long after it arrived and I sat on the couch to watch some tv. I knew if it was a confirmed structure fire he was going to be a while. I just was scared be would get hurt and I was not there. I was not sure what he would do since he hurt his knee. Too many what if's running through my head. Then I started to think of how sexy he would look with his bunker pants on and no shirt and his tattoos and his huge biceps. Goodness I need to get my mind out of the gutter or I will work myself up. I get up and take my plat and utensils to the sink and wash them up. I go into our room it feels weird to live with a man but I will get used to it. I get my laptop out and start working on my final. At some point I fall asleep on the bed with my laptop and books. When I wake up Axel is back and cuddeling me in my mess on the bed. He has me pulled to his chest and he smells like a house fire. Its the best smell in the world. I just am staring at him in his sleeping form and admire how handsome he is. He cathces me staring at him because he never moves our opens his eyes and says " Take a picture it lasts longer. Do you know its rude to stare at your sleeping boyfriend?" I quickly try and get up and take my stuff to the table. Axel grabs me in my fit of trying to get away and say " Where do you think your going?" I said " Well I'm sorry I was staring at you I thought I was making you uncofortable, so I was going to finish my school work in the kitchen." He just chuckles and says " No baby I was teasing you and your more than welcome to stare at me as long as your mine." I say " Oh I thought you were mad at me." I look down at the bed confused by what he is saying and meaning. I guess I need to work better on my social interactions because I thought I was doing ok. Big misrake there. He says lifting my chin so our eyes can meet " Baby girl dont ever feel as if I am mad at you I will tell you if I was mad. We have to be able to comunicate our feeling towards one another ok baby co'mear" he pulls me closer to him and we cuddle for a little while. I want to fall back to sleep but I have work that needs to fet done. I say " Axel I need to get up I have work to finish dor school and I need to sleep for work later." He says " Ok baby but you will have a prospect at work with you watching over you to protect you got it." I just look at gim funny and furrow my brows and look down at the bed and say " Yes master." Oh no s**t did I just say that out loud thats what my dad made me say. Is Axel going to be mad at me. I make a quick dash for the bathroom and lock the door pua get up and starts to freak out. Both pua and Axel are at the bathroom door and Pua is going nuts trying to get to me. I am crying and freakong out I made Axel mad with my comment. What do I do he wont want me now.

Axel's POV......

What did she mean by " Yes Master." The f**k did they make her do. I feel horrible I'm not mad at her at all dose she think that damn this dog is going nuts. I knock on the door and say " Baby what wrong I'm not mad at what you said I know that they made you say that its ok love come out." I said in the most soothing calm voice I could muster. I said " Baby I'm going to back away from the door and go to the living room take all the time you need to collect yourself. I will be in the living room if you need me holler or come get me ok baby." I hope she responds to me I feel horrible that she feels like she did something wrong. She will have to over come this and it will take time I just need to be patient with her at this point. She says "Ok" and then I say " Baby I love you still trama and all scars and all and damage and all your mine and I am yours ok. I'm headed to watch some tv let pua in to confort you ok." And I back away so she can let the dog in. It dose bot take too long for me to hear the bathroom door open and pus scurry in. I could tell by puas nails on the tiles and the fact that Shawn started to sob harder. I knew she has to deal with her emotions and feelinfs and trama fron her abuse. I need to get her into counsiling or therapy. We have a therapist who can help she cone to the club once a week to help is with bad calls we have. It's free as long as we donate money to her charity for troubled youth in her honor. We also hold an open house for the kids she helps and they come to the club. We have fire trucks here and the ambulance and our bikes and we make it a whole day. Water ballons pizza hot dogs hamburgers all the stuff kids want bounce houses everything. These kids deserve the world and we try and give that too them for one day if we can help it more. I am broken out of my thoughts when she coms out and scurries over to me and jumps into my lap. For how tiny she is and how big I am it feels just right. She cuddles into my neck and wraps her arms arounf to torso as best as she can. She says " I'm sorry I said that I was scared you would be mad at me for saying that stuff." I kiss her head and say " Baby girl I could never be mad at you for your past you were forced to say that stuff. I was just shcoked is all ok." Then I warp my arms around her waste and hold her closer. Then I say " Baby we have a theroist who comes here once a week who is free doing privet sessions all day if needed why dont you see her. Shd will be here tomorrow." I hope that she is not mad at me for offering for her to get free help. I hope I said and dis the right things.