Fireflies

Chapter Four

“Let me go you freak!”I yelled as I kicked the air hoping to find some salvation

“Sweetheart you wanted this remember plus I helped you yesterday, don’t you think it’s only fair I get something in return,” he said throwing me on the bed

“I was f*****g drunk, why would you believe I would want to be with a stranger at that mome….”I weakly stated as darkness slowly interrupted my flare

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I woke up back at my house!

“Wait, how am I home…?”I said in confusion and fear, a pang of severe headache hit me as the events of the last week replayed in my head but I wanted to forget them and then I suddenly remembered I was trying to free myself from that stranger’s grip…and a different level of fear hit me as I realized I had no memory other than that

I stood up from my bed and went to get a glass of water to drink, I picked up the glass filled it with water and as I was about to sit it dropped from my hands. I started crying again as I cleaned up the mess I had made.

My phone rang pulling me away from my massive tantrum. It was Macy. Macy was like the closest thing I had to a friend, she is my business partner and also assisted me when I needed help. I didn't feel like calling or talking to her but I couldn’t ignore her either

“Hey girl,” she said in her usual bubbly voice. “How was New York?” a question I was afraid she would ask

“Hey Macy, New York was fine” I lied hastily.”Macy, I’m kind of busy at the moment I’ll call you later, Bye girl” I dismissed her leaving myself with some type of guilt

I turned on the television and started watching Vivo one of my favorite TV shows and slept off shortly after. I woke up again but this time it was because of the familiar alarm I dreaded, the gunshot.

I put it off and we to get a glass of water then went to my bed but couldn't sleep. I lay awake till it was morning. I stared at the mirror, I was already looking tired and pale.

I got dressed and went to Marcus's place again because for some reason I felt I still needed closure. It continued for a week, I would go to Marcus’ house and cry and scream but he wouldn't open the door, I also kept getting calls and texts from Macy but I didn't feel like picking up.

I hadn't been to work since I came back from new York and I didn't feel like it. I wasn't eating properly nor sleeping well.I was determined to see Marcus. I went to his place again but this time I went in the evening, I got to his place and rang the bell, he opened the door and when he saw me his expression hardened

“What are you doing here Penelope?what is wrong with you? I keep getting complaints from my neighbors, do you want to get me kicked out?”he yelled at me

“No, I just wanted to see you Marcus, please don't do this to me, don't leave me, please, I can't, I can't bear it again Marcus, please come back please” I begged tor some reason

“Penelope I told you it's over”he said with no emotions in his eyes

“stop calling me that stop calling me Penelope I said while shouting, I'm am Pen to you!PEN!!”I yelled with tears in my eyes and with that I tried to let myself in but he didn't allow me.

“What the hell is wrong with you? do you want me to call the police for stalking?! Penelope get the f**k out of my house”I yelled yet again

“WHY?! I shouted, why should I leave, Marcus you told me you loved me, you told me you cared for me,why Marcus? you left me all alone with a random stranger you left for new Jersey without me and now you changed the locks and now you're telling me you love someone else”I said with my throat burning with so much emotions

“Go home Penelope”he said and with that he closed the door but this time I didn’t try to stop him

I turned as I slowly walked back home with tears in my eyes…”now I’m alone again”I thought to myself

“There would be no one to cheer me on when I work,no one to celebrate me when I win,no one to encourage me when I go weak,who exactly was I living for?I asked myself I wanted to kill myself, I wanted to end the pain i was feeling, I got into my bathroom and filled my tub with water, I was going to drown myself to death

“Goodbye Pain,Goodbye painful memories,Goodbye World” I thought as I slowly closed my eyes waiting for the unknown to take me alone but just then I heard a thudding knock on my door,I wasn’t going to get it but it got louder and I was frustrated so I left my suicide mission

I tied my towel and turned to look at my unrecognizable self in the mirror as I sighed turning again for the front door

I opened the door and found no one but a package in front of my door,I stepped out of the house as I looked around to at least catch up with whoever might have dropped it but I found absolutely no one

I carried the huge box into my house as I called Macy to ask if she had sent anything to me,I had even forgotten to apologize to her about my recent attitude.But it wasn’t her,she had not sent this package to me just then my phone rang

“Hey there Princess”a very deep voice said

“Who…who are you please?”I stuttered

“I’m the Karma you admire Princess”he said as he laughed sinisterly

“Oh God”I said to myself in fear

“Did you get the package I sent,it’s only a get well soon gift for my baby,please do not die on me”he said in a mock tone as he ended the call

I shivered as I turned to unbox what the creep had sent.

“What…The….Actual…Fuck?!!”I screamed staring at what was in front of me