Never give up

I hate this feel (Bianca PFV )

I hate this feeling ,I hate her for doing this to me it means she does not want my son, it means she only wanted to sleep with me, it been three days since I saw her or talk ,she doesn't even come to the gym,I asked my uncle James he told me she is not feeling well,I think she is avoiding me, the first day I was like I hate her, I won't talk to her forever ,day two I miss her so much and I hope that she miss me too and day three how dare you i***t to spend two days without talking to me, loving her is like a rollercoaster ride of emotions, I wish it didn't have to end like this, I love her even when I don't show it I'm so shy I cannot even start a kiss but I always respond to her kiss and her kiss oh god it make me feel more alive and it worm me all the way to my toes and it makes me feel things I don't know I never dated anyone maybe it's normal

I'm pissed off ,she is an asshole, she do this after my heart is already in the palm of her hand, I'm so heartbroken even after meeting her family, she looks more like her dad blonde hair, gray eyes and he is in he's 50s but he does not show and her mom has blonde hair ,blue eyes same as her sister, I like them they are rich but they don't look down on other people, she is doing this because I'm out of her league, she's beautiful, smart rich and has a body and strength like no one I'd ever known, wait a minute why I'm I degrading myself, she is the one who doesn't deserve me ,I'm smart, beautiful, killer body and I am going to make my own money.

"mom what's wrong ? are you OK ?"Bruce asked

" nothing, I'm OK ,did you finish your homework? "I asked

" yes mom"Bruce said

"do you want a little night snack" I asked

"yes please mom" he said excitedly

"OK come" we eat a snack before going to sleep, for a while I forgot about the blonde haired beauty that has been plaguing my mind

"mom can I sleep with you tonight" Bruce asked

"off course baby you can" I said ,I love this little men ,I kiss him goodnight, I cannot help but look at him he look like her blonde hair and gray eyes how am I going to forget her?

I was waken up by my phone alarm, I reach out to grab my phone only to receive a massage I saw 15 missed call and 5 massage,I open the first massage it was from her

text one, hi baby I missed you

text two, can I come and see you?

text three, I love you

how dare she, I didn't even reply to her massage,i didn't finish reading the massage, I wake my son to help to get ready for school ,today is Thursday and I have my class to go to, through out the day I received massages, I know it was her I ignore her, my classes are over now I am on my way to the gym.

I'm at the gate of my school when I saw group of people surrounding something or someone, I heard her voice among the group of people, I was annoyed by the sound of her ,seriously, just pretend you never saw her and walk past, I told myself, I felt arm wraps around my waist,the touch gives me a tingling sensation all over my body, I was about to move

"baby wait come here , come here" mia said

"don't baby me mia" I said

I was wearing skinny black jeans, her eyes darkened, and lingered on my body really?, she wets her lips, she doesn't say anything

"I love how you say my name, I couldn't go another day without seeing you, that's why I'm here" mia said

"is that all you are going to say?,and you better say something that make sense" I asked

"baby look am sorry, I know even though I was sick is no excuse for not calling you, I lost my phone that night in my car,I was sick for three days and I'm still sick

I could see it in her desperate eyes hear it in her pleading voice,but was it enough

" I know what this is you don't like my son and you are back because you want to sleep with me"I said

the look on her face is enough to break my heart, she let go of my waist and turn around and go to her car and I went home