Journey to Me

Shattered Dreams

Jessica's POV:

I woke up to the stinging smell of disinfectant hitting my nostrils and a bright light binding my sight. It was an unfamiliar atmosphere. White walls, blue curtains and an annoying beeping sound in the background. Where the hell am I? There's a throbbing pain in every inch of my body. Gosh! It hurts really bad, like someone's ripping off every part of my body. This pain is so unbearable. My eyelids are heavy and vision blurry. I try hard to open my eyes but this drowsness seems to come back every time I try.

Using every last ounce of energy in me I shot my eyes open. My vision starts getting more clear now. Wait, What the hell? I'm in a hospital! There's an oxygen mask around my face, the beeping sound must be of the heart rate monitor. By the sound of the heart rate monitor my heart seems to be alright and still beating fine. I tried to move my hand but then noticed it was attached to drips. I look around hoping to find someone but nevertheless I was all alone here.But, why the f**k am I even here?

My head starts spinning, I close my eyes being tried and hoping to recall what happened that made me end up in a hospital. I stress my mind for few minutes to reach the memory of the last thing that I remember before ending up here. There was shivers down my spine as I jerked my eyes open when the realisation of that incident dawned on me like ice cold water splashing in the midst of a freezing winter night.

Shit! s**t! s**t! No, please God this shouldn't be what I think it is, I can't live with this pain. Please, I beg you. But deep down in my heart I knew that what I thought was correct eventhough I shivered with the mere thought of it. Tears started rolling down by the sides of my eyes uncontrollably. The pain in my body was long forgotten as my heartached even more. How can God ever be kind to an ill-fated girl? The thing that I dreaded the most had happened and I could do nothing about it.

I started sobbing really hard. Tears were blurting my vision, still I could clearly see my dreams being shattered once again. I lost my last hope of a happy and a better life. He was gone leaving in the middle of nowhere to fight with this cruel world all alone. I was lonely once more with no dreams, no hopes, nothing to hold on to. Wasn't he supposed to be with me forever? Wasn't he supposed to stand by me, love and support me? Wasn't he a blessing in this nightmare life of mine? Wasn't he supposed to bring in light and hope to the hell I live in? Then why? Why did he have to leave me all alone to rot in this hell? Why did God snatch my only happiness from me?

No, it isn't really his fault but mine. I'm so sorry I couldn't stop him from killing you. I couldn't hold you closer even when I could feel you slipping away from me. It's all my fault. I'm a terrible person with the worst fate who couldn't protect you, stop you from leaving me. Your gone now. I know you hate me but I'm really sorry. I truly loved you with all my heart but I was helpless. You were my world and you'll always be. I'm so sorry.

My heart was aching immensely. I wish I could stop you from leaving. I wish I was not as helpless as I was. I wish I was strong enough to fight for you. I wish it was me instead of tou. Fate has always betrayed me. It feels like fate always has some cruel plan set for me right when happiness finds my address. Everything is ruined right infront my eyes even before I could live that moment. The Shattered Dreams is all I'm left with at the end.

An excruciating pain passes through my body, like I'm going to die. My head starts hurting terribly. It feels like my heads gonna burst open at any moment. Aaahh! I can't bare this pain anymore. I started wailing loudly as I heard distinct footsteps like someone's running towards me. I close my eyes with darkness engulfing me as I drift to unconsciousness.

Precap: The Beginning of THE END