In Every Universe

Don't push me away

I was sitting on the chair when Ritu stood up and gone away, I wanted to stop her but I also wanted to give her time because it's new for her..this feeling is new for her. I saw tears in her eyes when I said I'm that boy..she ran away that means she know me she still have our memories but we were not together. I missed you Ritu all these years..yes I know I didn't come back to you but there were many reasons..please don't push me away, no matter how many times u push me away I will come to u anyhow. I was busy in my thoughts when a waiter came to me..I just put money there and said keep the change and when I came out of the restaurant..Ritu was nowhere... I get into my car sit there for 5 minutes then drive toward her house. I didn't saw her anywhere. when i was going to the hotel, I saw her sitting on the bench near the park. I saw her from the car she was sitting alone, looking sad and I don't know what she was muttering continuously..I saw her lips she was saying the same thing.

I went to stand front of her..she didn't look up at me..she didn't pay attention to me but I could definitely hear her what she was muttering...she was continuously convincing herself..Ritu he is not that boy.he can't..he can't, he can't..I wanted to hug her but I don't want her to leave me that's why I didn't hug her. She looked at me..her eyes where clear and were shining like a diamond..she has tears in her eyes. she didn't move for sometimes but then she stood up and was going away. I held her hand. she didn't put force to free her from my grip. She was standing still..then I said..

Atlas: I'm not here to go away from you Ritu. Take your time....than I gave her time to process the meaning of my words and then spoke again.. If you want me to wait for you for entire life..I can Ritu. I can but please don't push me away. I free her from my grip she was still standing as her feet ware glued on the ground. She didn't turn around to see me ..when I look at her she was crying...She was sobbing..I didn't know what I should do. I didn't know how to comfort her but before I could do something she spoke with a low voice..I could feel the pain in her eyes but I don't know why she is crying..why she is sad this much..why she is just like that five year old Ritu..she still looks alone, why??...she spoke....Please go back..please go to America.. I can't give u what you are here for, I'm sorry. she didn't give me time to process and run away.

I was still there..processing the meaning of her words but nothing making a sense. why is she like this? her words still perching me..I want to know everything..I went to the car drive it to the hotel where I was staying for all these 15 days of my holiday.

Next day early morning I went to her school but she didn't come to school. At the time when the school's dismissal bell ring I was waiting for her..loking for her from the car. but I didn't see her again. I went to her house, waiting for her if she would come out but she didn't come. when I was about to leave I saw her on her house roof. she was sitting on the ledge, looking at the sky..she didn't see me because she was busy looking up at the sky. she had a book in her hands. I was guessing about her as she likes music..she loves to read books..she love nature but why she always looks sad. she was not in pony tail..her hair was dancing with wind but then she look down in the street I was busy looking up to her, poking my head out from the window. when she looked at me she panicked and stood up straight on the ledge..then I run out from the car and shout as loud as I could..Don't panic I'm leaving..Don't plzz.. I came back inside the car and drove away but not so far. I could see her still standing there in the ledge she was looking relieved.

she get down from the ledge when I heard a voice of maybe a middle aged women. she was shouting..Do u want to die? Can't you see how hardwork your father is doing Lilly and stop reading these romance novels. Go study in your room.

I didn't hear any voice after this and went to the hotel still confused what is happening with her. I try to text her many times but I stopped myself. but now I want to..I took my phone from the table and text her

Atlas: Are you okay Ritu?

she saw my text right away but didn't respond me.but then I saw three dots she was typing and it's feeling good. she is texting me back.

Ritu: Are you that Atlas Corrigan, American Singer.

I didn't take much time to text her back.

Atlas: Yes I am, for the entire world but for you I'm still that 10 year old boy who was curious to know you, Ritu.

She looked at my reply but didn't react but then after 10 minutes she text me back.

Ritu: You should focus on your career, I'm still no one to anyone. you will meet someone who will care for your heart. Go back. Please.

I looked at her text which was hurting me like nothing can hurt me more than these words of her. I text her back...

Atlas: You are not noone, you are special for me..you were and you will be always. let me hold you..let me carry your heart Ritu..I want to meet only you. please I want to know more about you.

She took a minute and text me back..

Ritu: I can't Atlas.

she didn't say more then that

I text her one more..

Atlas: Let me be your friend then, for 10 days Ritu then I will go to America. I know u still remember me..please say that you want to be my friend at least. we will not talk about those childhood memories. I want to get a chance to make you smile so that if I will go back to America..I will be able to spend my days with your memories which we will make here in Tokyo. I will wait for you at the same place where we had met before. Please give me your 10 days.

I waited for my reply but she didn't reply me but I was happy because she atleast read my text.