The Alphas Dilemma

Chapter Forty Five

Chapter Forty Five

Emory's pov

Dinner wasn't as it used to be. The atmosphere was tense with so many uncertainties and that alone made my scalp itch. Fifty six minutes later, almost everyone had gone to their various rooms and I was left alone with Ruby and Jamal. We all looked surprised at first when we heard my identity as Rayne had been known by alpha Gilbert. Then our expressions were that of confusion and we looked downcast. I felt alone like I was drowning in my thoughts even though Jamal and Ruby were both there beside me to give me comfort. The last person I had ever wanted to know my real identity was Alpha Gilbert because I knew he wouldn't just sit back and let me live on like he didn't just know a secret of mine, I knew he was going to do something about it and it wasn't going to be good.

I groaned and placed my face in my palms and I bent over where I sat. Ruby began to gently rub my back to help me calm down but it wasn't helping, I couldn't just let myself know Alpha Gilbert knew my real identity and still stay calm about it, I couldn't stay calm because I knew he could do something. He never thought with his head all the time I spent with him so I suspected he would probably do something drastic and he had to be stopped. Someone had to stop him.

"He can't know about me, he's not supposed to know" I kept on saying repeatedly to no one in particular as I kept on palming my face. I still had no idea how he found out I was the Rayne that once lived in his pack years ago. I hated remembering those years because of the hardship, hatred, and verbal abuse I went through. I was even hit sometimes. I hated revisiting that part of my past because it only ruined my mood and reminded me of how much hatred I had harbored for those over the years. They were even the reason I changed and hid my real identity and now Gilbert found out. It was like one of my worst nightmares; having Gilbert know I was Rayne. It was slowly breaking me down as I thought of numerous things he was capable of doing. He could even come up with a lie to say and make me look like a bad person. People were going to believe him because changing my identity would be proof of his lies. I was confused, I didn't know what to do and I was sure Gilbert was going to be laughing his ass off wherever he was right now, thinking he had won. I couldn't let him win and have me under him like he did those years ago when he made me feel like trash, like someone that had no importance and no one was ever going to love. He made me think of death like it was a normal option and made me even wish I died with my parents when our pack was attacked. My mind and its thoughts were all tangled and I couldn't come up with any reasonable solution to the problem on the ground because it literally seemed like there was nothing I could do. I couldn't wipe his memory and make him forget what he found out about me. I wished I could though, if it was an option, I wouldn't think twice before doing it. I wanted to make him pay for all he made me go through but now that he knew my top secret, it felt like he was gaining the upper hand in all of these and I couldn't let that happen for my sake and the people around me because they were going to get affected too. I had to do something.

"What do we do Emory? We have to come up with a solution to quickly get rid of this situation before it gets out of hand. What do you suggest we do?" Ruby asked me and I raised my head up to look at her. My head was blank, I was clueless

"I have no idea Ruby, I don't know what to do" I told her

"I know, hun! You must be confused, I really don't understand how you are still this collected after knowing the plan you lived three years of your life hatching is being trampled upon, effortlessly." She pecked the middle of my head and continued. It is going to be fine, don't you worry. We'll definitely come up with something together" Ruby added, trying to make me feel better but it still wasn't helping. I groaned and stood up, pacing to and fro but I was still uneasy.

"Gilbert doesn't think, he just jumps into action and this could be bad for me, for us. Hell, he could do something drastic by using this secret to his advantage. Not like I'm scared of him or anything. The fact that I don't know what his next move with this piece of information is, is what disturbs me. I can't form a strategy if I don't know what to expect and knowing how Gilbert does his things, I should probably expect the worse" I told Ruby and Jamal who still sat immobile on the couch opposite me, watching me as I ramble on

"You need to calm down Emory, you're obviously smarter than him. We just need to think about this tactically and we'll come up with a solution. I know him and his he works. Ruby does too and so do you, perhaps but to a high percentage but if we put heads together we should be able to pull up some stuff. There's no need to panic, Rayne" Jamal chipped in and I snapped at him

"I can't calm down Jamal, it's hard to after knowing that the man you loath so much and have spent the last three years of your life, planning your revenge on him and the last eight months, getting grounds on your revenge plan only for it to be shattered. After everything I've done and said he finally knows my true identity… you think that is not something to be riled up about?" I asked, my chest heaving rashly as I take in heavy breathing to calm myself. "it's hard to calm down since I can't come up with a solution and I know he could do something unbelievable to tarnish my image" I spat at him and he held his hands up in defense

"Was just saying" he said but I just ignored him and kept on pacing to and fro. "I really don't get why you are this pissed and tense, but it is cool. Do what you wish I'll be on the sidelines waiting in case you'd need my help" Jamal said and stood up and left for the kitchen and I felt bad for yelling at him that way. I made up my mind to apologize once he was out of the kitchen. It was just my wolf Goldie that got all worked up more than I was because she knew and could remember too… all we went through at the blood moob pack; the hell they put me through, the names they called me, and the accusations which were all false. I tried to calm my wolf down and she whimpered in my head, still panicky over Gilbert knowing I was the Rayne he never searched for after I ran away. He never cared, he had always been a pound of flesh with a good-looking face but no heart because a person with a heart wouldn't do all that he did to me. Jamal came out of the kitchen with a glass of water and handed it to me as I opened my mouth to apologize to him

"Take it, you'll need it for your nerves," he said with a straight face and went to sit. He was mad at me but still cared. I took the water and mumbled a thank you before gulping it all down and honestly I felt better.

"I'm sorry" I finally apologized and he smiled

"Apology accepted," he said and sat me down opposite him. Then he sat down too and leaned forward in his chair

"We'll try and come up with suggestions to make solve this Gilbert problem. So long as you have us, you don't have to worry, okay?" Jamal asked.

"Okay" I replied nodding my head

"We would come up with varieties of plans and strategies and just like before, choose whichever we think would work best. What do you think?" Jamal offered and I nodded

"I'd like that, thank you Jamal" I accepted his offer and we began to brainstorm… Hopefully, this works. Ruby stood up from where she sat and sat beside me then took my hand to calm me down. I felt better this time as we discussed what to do to avoid a worse situation with Gilbert. Jamal brought up an idea that we strike a deal with him but I knew it wasn't going to work. Gilbert could be a scumbag and I knew he was probably going to ask for my body in exchange for making a deal with me and heaven help me if I didn't give him a punch if he tried asking for my body in exchange.

I was very poor in managing my anger at some points so I knew I was capable of hitting him if we approached him with making a deal. I rejected the idea and Ruby brought another idea, that I invite him for dinner either here at my house or at a restaurant for my security then unknown to his knowledge I would record our conversation and bring out the truth he knows about my identity. I was going to let him make a crude statement to me about my past when I was in his pack after I was demoted to an omega and then if he tried to use my secret against me, I was going to show him the recorded conversation and let him know that I wasn't going to be the only one going down because I was going to take him down with me and that would stop him from doing anything unthinkable. It was a really good idea and I liked it but we decided to think up more ideas before we would finally decide which was best.

Alpha or not, Gilbert wasn't going to get the best of me anymore because the past should be left in the past and I wasn't going to let Gilbert take advantage of me anymore. I was a strong woman who could fight for herself now and I was going to fight and protect myself to the end.