Narrated by Laura
I believe a mother only fears two things in the whole world when she becomes a mother. First, she fears losing a child, and then she fears dying and leaving her child alone.
Years ago, the overwhelming pain I felt seeing the dead baby beside me, who could have been my child, was immense. Then I felt an even greater pain at having to leave my child. The only thing that consoled me was knowing that I left him to live, and even if I died, he would remain alive.
Now I feel the same fear again. When Formiga brought me to the hospital with Raissa, I feared she would need surgery. I don't know what my daughter went through in that hole; I never even knew that hole existed inside that house.
I couldn't talk to my daughter, couldn't ask what happened to her, what they did to
