I Gradually Realized Where I Was
With time panic and terror disappeared. It was still very painful to walk after the tortures. But I had no fear. I had no feelings. Did not want anything. I was stressed out, embarrassed and ashamed, did not want anything. The soul and body were so exhausted that they begged for one thing only — to leave them alone, but no peace came, even when the inquisitors from the RF Federal Security Service provided such an opportunity. Time stopped. There was hardly any movement.
The unbearable sensation as if I had been thrown out of life. Staying absolutely isolated. The Lefortovo detention center seemed to be covered with a noise suppressing dome. There is nobody and nothing except you, your inmate and security guard’s steps.
In this acoustic vacuum you start t
