The Wolf That Has a Choice

Chapter 6 Courtney

All of this is so unreal I have a hard time believing she is really telling the truth. Did she not only believe me but gave me a choice not a rejection?

"Your mates is amazing, and caring she is truly an Alpha and she wants us choice her! PLEASE!!!!" Iris is yelling at me.

I looked up to see her eyes as she patiently looking at me as if we have all the time in the world knowing we only had a day to save her pack. A pack. Could they accept me? Can I live and love a pack again? Can I love and lose that love again? Honestly I am not sure but going back is something I do not want to do and moving forward is scary but it with my mate now if I choose it......but as I am thinking I realize something she is willing to accept me without knowing my past, so therefore to truly choice I need to explain my past to be sure that your bond will still be there without fear of rejection.

"My love.." Alex says.

"Alex, the fact that you would accept me without knowing me or my past says a lot about the Alpha you are, but for my own fears I need to tell you my past. I choose you but to be safe you have to know my past so I know you choose me with knowing my past. Okay?".. I say

"Of course love, the beta is already planning on a defense for the upcoming attack so we have time." she says to me

I nod and take a deep breath to collect my thoughts on where I need to start and how to say everything. When she just takes my hand and gives it a squeeze and that gives me the strength to start.

"When I was little I had a loving family. I was daughter to the beta of the Red Moon pack my farther was a great warrior and fun loving farther he always made time for us. My mom was the best and pushed us to be better in the since of helping the lower pack members. We were wiped out when I was 12 by the former King of Rouges. I had watched my whole family die in front of me. My farther hid me right before they took him out. If you remember the pack legacies it was said some of our wolfs were decedent's of witches and werewolf offspring and they have gifts tying them to the land as magic is made out of the elements of the earth. That is true in the case of me that is why you do not connect my scent as rouge. Its kind of life my scent with blend with the elements to where it seems I am new to pack or a rouge but not a threat. It is what kept me safe and has helped me survive. When the old King was alive I hid in the shadows passing through land. I had my fare share of beating s***h killing other rouges to survive, men like trying to claim the women and I never really am one to follow a man. When James took down the former King he took a liking to me and honestly I took with it. He never pushed for more than a kiss really and the beatings stopped. But rouge core belief is take and that is the same for James he was the 2nd son of an Alpha and the blood of Alpha makes him crave more, but he took over or brought down 5 more territory before coming for you and make no mistake I planned most of them. Yes I planned them in a way to hopefully spare most lives but to also win. That makes me no better than him. So there is my past and I am no better than James so I choose you but can you still choose me knowing I have killed?" i say holding my breathe waiting for her to respond.

She looking straight at me reading my soul and I find my self praying she will say yes.