Waiting for nothing, Listening to the sounds of the wall clock and staring at the loss... difinetely the very boring things to do but look at me now I'm starting to get crazy if felix only allow me to go outside alone... I sigh.
I came down to see what I could do so that I'm still useful in the world even I'm just at home.
"Carol where's Betty?" I ask.
Betty is the young maid here and she was the one who helped me when I was fainting.
"He went with Sir Felix outside to buy your belongings" carol answered.
"I'm not doing anything. Why don't he just choose me instead" my complaint.
I went outside the house to chill my mood I wonder if Bella received my message and tell it to Reagan. Nothing has changed since what I saw yesterday and what I see today the only beautiful thing here is the garden.
He has a big garden beside the pool the flowers are perfectly bloom and the leaves are so green as if not neglected.
"Ms. Astrid I hope I can help you but Sir felix is a good man" carol said.
I looked away. "Yes he is, but I have my own life Carol my supposed fiancè is waiting for me and.."
"..I do not know how to confront him after pretending to be a recepionist and not as Astrid" I said.
"You'll learn to love him and be happy to be with him" carol said.
I really thank felix for helping me out of my need but he wants to he wanted something different with all helps he gave. and that is to marry him and I can't give that to him the only love that I can offer is for friendship.
"I told him from the very beginning, yes he help me but marrying someone who don't have the same feeling as yours is not right"
She just want me to be comfortable with felix and but for me I am like a prisoner here even if you just peek outside I can't, because everywhere in the corner of this house there is a body guard.
"Still I need to do something carol my life won't stucked in here" I walk out and went to the room.
I'm bored as af! How could I do plans without anything here but the closed curtains empty closet and very dark room... instead of complaining I opened the curtains and examined the view.
"Not bad" I whispered to myself.
This wasn't the overall view of the seoul but the houses are really amazing it is properly constructed and well designed. you can't really imagine what the poor house looks like here because almost every home is beautiful and looks rich.
"Astrid please make a plan now" I said to myself.
I look at the calendar to find out what day and date it is now.
Its exactly September 30 I only left two weeks and and five days before my birthday and I want before that day will come I'm already in the philippines.
"1 hour different time" I just said suddenly.
Luckily I have a little knowledge about this country and maybe I'll convince felix to let me out and go to the places where will I run after escaping him certainly the airport or any transporation to bring me home.
For a few hours I thought of what to do with the sudden knock on the door and It opened and I saw felix carrying shopping bags and Betty is behind his back carrying a shopping bag too.
"Just put it here Betty" felix pointed the side part of the room.
Betty left and I just watch his face that is staring at me.
"what are those?" I know he knows what I'm talking about.
"those are for you" he said.
"Don't you have the intention to bring me back to the Philippines?" with indignation in my voice.
My mood suddenly change when felix did not answer me and for buying all of that stuff for me.
Thick jackets, shoes, clothes both for home and if we need to go outside and everything that girls needs. I'm find for what things I have now even though I wore my clothes over and over again that is okay for me as long as I was sure that he would return me to the Philippines if not now maybe tomorrow.
"I can't do that" he simply said.
"I don't need that" I said and turn myself to him.
I looked at the loss I didn't know how he was looking at me or if he was still behind me. The only thing I can do is too feel free, and be like a fish out of water to be comfortable in everything that keeping me uncomfortable here inside this house.
"Why don't you accept the fact that Reagan already forget you even you try to escape me" felix suddenly said.
My forehead suddenly twitched.
"That's not true felix" I defense.
He's trying to ruin reagans' image to me because he knows how I trusted reagan and especially now that I know he's my supposed husband.
"Then see this photos I'll let you judge it" I saw him put the brown envelope on top of table beside the bed.
He left the room and I was just looking at the brown envelope and wondering what was there. I suddenly realized what I was going to know there is a side for me not to open it and there is a side that I just open it to finish what is running on my mind.
I slowly walk to come closer to the table I took the envelope and slowly opened it and I see what is inside there's a random pictures of Reagan and Addison. Holding hands, kissing, engagement party and there's a photo of Addison showing her ring.
"Are they engaged? Since when?"
My feelings were filled with anger and pain... i've been longing his love since felix kidn*pped me but all of that was fade away and the pain stay still in my heart.
I badly want to know the truth I do not want to believe the pictures that felix provided but the clarity and trace on their lips how happy they are.
"That's right astrid don't conclude it yet"
Reminding my own self helps me stay calms whether that is true or not I'll stick to the plan.
"Betty can you go with me?"
I don't have to cry all the day over that pictures I still need to find assurance and clarity in his own mouth.
"You're not allowed to go outside Ms. Astrid" betty said.
"I'm not a prisoner, if you're worried about felix... leave it to me" I said.
From the inside of the kitchen I saw him looking far away and drinking something this view is better that the view infront of the house. There's a pool too here and its bigger than the pool infront.
"Done examining the pictures?" he asked without looking at me.
His instinct was so strong that he felt me immediately behind him.
"Ah- i-i actually still doesn't belived it felix... to see is to believed" I answered him
"What do you want me to do for you to believed in me Astrid?" His voice remain calms.
"You aren't that possessive over me right?" I asked.
"If needed" he replied simply.
I sighed deeply. "I do not know what did I do to you to make me suffer like this" I said.
"Are you suffering?" He asked worriedly.
"Yes, I can't even go outside, I don't have phone, you don't even allow me to talk to them and..."
"I'm sorry I just don't want others to get your attention I am so inlove with you Astrid" felix said.
"If you do love me felix this isn't the right way to show your love... you are confined to your possessiveness and because of that you are not giving me your love you give me pain and hatred"
Instead of trying to convince him to allow me to go out no longer followedf because of our heart to heart talk.
"Betty I'll try to talk to him later" I said to betty when I saw her cleaning the kitchen stove.
And immediately went upstairs and decide to locked my door inside my room. I'm very fortunate to have a matured attitude like this.. i mean I'm not critisizing those who have immatured mind they're difference.
I was able to think the way it should be if I act hard headed to felix he might do something that makes me regret.
I checked some of the things that he bought for me but the purpl eco bag attracts my eyes when I open it my eye widened when I saw... Iphone11 pro max!! The latest phone!!
"AHHHHH!" I sudden scream hardly.
"Oh my gosh! Is this for real?"
When I open the door to go down and look after felix when I open the door we bumped to each other.
"Ouch!" I said and squezing the part of my forehead.
"That's hurt felix!"
"I'm sorry you were shouting and in my panic I didn't bother to knock" he said.
I smiled. "Is this for me?" I asked and show him the the box of Iphone.
He just nodded.
"Oh my god!" I shouted and hugged him.
If you think I'm a materialistic well I'm not... i badly want to have like this for school, taking a photos because it has good quality camera but sadly I can't afford to buy this so much expensive gadget.
"That means you are allowing me now to go outside."
Its not a question.
"No"
What??
"Felix!"
I walked after him downstairs and until we get outside the house.
"How will I used this?" I complaint while looking at the phone.
"Find! I'll talk to betty to accompany you everytime you'll go outside" he said.
"Yes! Thank you" I said.
I may looked like a crazy but that's find. I went inside the kitchen and called betty we need to go somewhere or explore the whole Seoul korea.
"Do you know how to speak korean?" I asked betty.
"No" she said.
The first place is on my list is Bukchon Hanok Village from Gangnam gu we don't have to ride a subway from here to there because felix provide us a driver and a car.
"Don't you know gangnam district is where rich people in korea live?" I asked betty.
"No... i'm just new here Ms Astrid just like you that is why I'm so greatful that you choose me to accompany you here" betty said.
"Its my pleasure, lets explore together here Betty"
Bukchon Hanok Village is a great place for you to experience the Korean village environment and see the old houses in Korea. There is no doubt that visiting Bukchon Hanok Village is one of the top place to visit.
When we arrived we need to look for korean outfit for more realistic I choose color pink hanbok.
"Ms this is so wonderful!" Betty scream that make people's attention be on us.
"Tone down Betty" I said.
We just laughed together and the most awaited part is to of course taking photos and feel the momwnt as if you really are in a korean dramas.
"Betty let's take a picture"
Betty was really mesmerized the whole place I captire where she is that's perfect she look like innocent here.
We take and take ang take photos until I was about to take a photo to betty when someone familiar catured my attention.
"Reagan?" I whispered.
"Ms? Are you okay?" Betty asked.
He was hidding somewhere down there.
"Betty let's meet on the shop okay? I'll be back promis" I said.
I run down and examined every corner of the house.
"Reagan please if its you please show up" tears started to fall.
I didn't gave up looking for him there are some people bumping on me but I just ignored it. I'm the edge of the Bukchon Hanol village when someone grab my arm and bumped into a hard chest my eyes closed as if it will help to prevent me from hitting somewhere.
I open my eyes and saw the man I really missed he was smiling at me.
"R-Reagan?" My voice broke.