Beyond Fate

Omega

The walk from my house to the pack house wasn’t far but as always I’m met with glares from anyone that crosses my path normally it’s just the teens or twenty somethings, others just pretend I don’t exist or cross the street to avoid me. Silver moon pack is one of the first wolf packs to ever exist and at one time it was the largest before our kind began following humans across the Atlantic to the new world. Nowadays our pack was considered fairly small. We only had about 300 members in silver moon. My parents had told me from their travels that some pack sizes reached into the thousands and had even intergraded themselves into the human world through various business dealings.

I guess that’s what happens when you don’t embrace modern society you get left behind. Alpha Felix never seemed bothered by that fact though, he was very traditional he didn’t even like us having mobile phones. He felt they were a distraction how I’d managed to convince him to allow Luna Jamie to have one I’ll never understand.

Despite our old fashioned ways our pack was truly beautiful surrounded by nature in every direction there was a feeling of freedom, our wolves could run free and be one with nature. The territory itself was huge, miles of lush green forest rich with wildlife undisturbed by pollution or human developments with our small town sitting right in the centre of it the only way in and out by road was a small dirt path the cars could barely squeeze down.

The closest town is an hour away but we generally don’t leave, being one of the oldest packs in existence has its positives but one drawback is we have a lot of old traditions the pack alphas like to uphold one of which being that we don’t associate with humans accept from the obvious human suppliers that provide food and various other supplies for the pack. It was insane really how alpha felix could be so hypocritical to uphold that tradition when our very survival depended on the humans.

Though it was funny how the townies thought we were a cult like the ones in America where they all follow one man to a far away land cut off from the world work non stop while he picks a wife for the day to then practice group suicide or believe they are going to be the chosen few in an apocalyptic event or alien invasion it was hilarious what people believed.

I reach the steps of the pack house taking a moment like I always do readying myself for the onslaught.

once inside I kept my head down making my way upstairs hoping to go undetected how wrong I was “ MUTT” I heard someone shout just as I was shoved forwards from behind losing my footing falling onto the hardwood floor smacking my head against the banister on the stairs hearing laughs from every direction. Every damn day was the same I ended up on my arse in heap.

“ Alright Darren that’s enough the omega has work to do she’s late for” my breath caught in my throat the voice I knew all too well sent chills down my spine. why him, why of all people did it have to be him. I kept my head down not letting myself look up to see his handsome face, it only made it harder.

“ the mutt came in the front door sir” f*****g arsehole, I wasn’t a slave. I was allowed to use any door to the pack house, they just didn’t like me using it because it lead into the main living room so everyone would have to acknowledge my existence, they liked it better when I was invisible.

“ omega you’ve been told before to use the doors at the back of the house no one wishes to see a reject omega.... your unwanted” that last part was like a slice through my sole what he’d meant was I was unwanted by him.... my mate. Beta Nathan Richards.

“ y…y…yes Beta it won’t happen again” I stutter not wanting to look up at him i keep my head down in submission.

“ Be sure it doesn’t now get out of my sight” I scurried away up the stairs taking two steps at a time ignoring the throbbing pain in my shins from how I’d landed. My head hurt too but I was proud of myself for not being tempted to look up into his beautiful blue eyes.

I got to the first floor landing finally safely away from everyone. I let out the breath I’d been holding taking a few welcomed steady breaths trying to calm myself I couldn’t help glancing back over the balcony to see the packs Beta Nathan still stood at the bottom talking to the arsehole Darren who’d shoved me, they bumped fists and Darren went back to the sofa throwing his arm around one of the girls sat there.

Darren wasn’t any kind of rank in the pack he just made it his business to become friends with people who did have rank. Typical arse kisser lording it over everyone because of the power his friend’s had.

He picked on me the most because I’d resisted his advances last year, most females fell all over him because of his huge body builder image but he was thick as s**t and an asshole on a good day. He’d cornered me on New Year’s Eve last year telling me he had a gift for me. For a moment I’d actually thought he was being genuinely nice until he’d unzipped his trousers and whipped his c**k out telling me to polish it. I chuckled at the memory of that night remembering the look of shock on his face when I’d said no to him, the dipshit had actually expected me to drop to my knees obediently like the other omegas did.

Like I said , tradition was everything in an old pack like ours and some traditions were not just backdated they were flat out barbaric. It was no secret why omegas stayed in the pack house unmated males in particular had enormous s****l appetites if they went more than a few days without s****l release they became frustrated and started fighting amongst themselves unmated omega females were expected to service them whenever they needed the only rule was that it had to be consensual.

The Alpha didn’t condone such brutality which was more than some packs did wolves could be quite brutal beings and some packs were more in touch with their animal side than most. We might have had some backward and very sexist traditions but our pack was one of the safe ones. I always reminded myself that on the days the bullying became too much there were worse fates than being pushed around on a daily basis.

When I’d first been given my rank of omega I’d had to move out of my parents house and had lived here. I’d roomed with another omega Astrid; she was a few years older than I had been at the time. Astrid had strange sleeping habits. She would always sleep naked I’d found it weird because I’d never been comfortable sleeping naked myself. I had asked her why and she had just smiled at me as if I was the most amusing thing in the world now I think about it I can see why. I had been so young and innocent back then, after our first night together I understood why Astrid slept naked it was because there was no point in her getting dressed in between male callers.

Astrid was a favoured omega and had at least three male visitors a night. I’d been terrified every time someone came to the door that it would be my turn. All the s*x in the pack house had to be concented but something about deflowering a virgin awoke the animal inside unmated males, the need to posses something that was pure and untouched drove their wolf wild. Thankfully Astrid had given me masking spray. It was normally used when a female was going into heat to hide their scent but Astrid had assured me it would still work and it had but it had still been a terrifying night.

Thankfully morning had come without me being violated though a few days later I’d found out Nathan was my fated mate. He may have made it clear he had no intention of accepting me but that hadn’t meant he’d wanted anyone else to have me either. Nathan had moved me to my own room locking me in for the night but it hadn’t been for my protection. It had been so he could keep me for himself.

I felt eyes on me. I looked back to the stairs to see HIM staring at me, his eyes never filled with love or care like one should look at their mate; he only ever regarded me with disgust, anger or lust.

He was so handsome though I couldn’t deny that my breath always hitched at the sight of him he was 6.2” short blonde hair angelic boyish good looks he was clean shaven today so he had that flawless boy next door look about him you could easily see his dimples but when he had some stubble the boyish look went to sexy rugged man there was no way he could look bad. Nathan was every girl's dream guy perfectly sculpted by the moon goddess to taunt me.

This is what you could have won... if you weren’t such a massive c**k up. My wolf taunted inside my head.

Who’s side are you on b***h. I shouted back at her in my head.

Sorry Alisha he’s just… mate. She whined. Argh she made me so angry some times he focuses on us for all of two seconds and she’s panting on all fours like a she wolf in heat.

Well get a grip have you forgotten what he’s done to us. She whimpered at the thought of our mate being with another woman and all the times he’s not only stood by and let the wolves of this pack bully us but also joined in.

Your right moment of weakness sorry I’m good. She said that but I could feel her resistance, I hated how she could just forget all the awful things Nathan had done to us so easily.

Never forget Nathan is an asshole just like the rest of them just because we are biologically programmed to want him doesn’t mean he isn’t just as awful as the rest of them. I said sternly to her she needed to get a grip.

Ok ok I said sorry..... it’s just I can feel his wolf he still wants us.

Of course he did. Wanting us was never a problem for Nathan; he just didn’t want to acknowledge that he wanted us, not to anyone, not even to himself.

Well Nathan doesn’t want us, remember that he betrays us everyday.

It was true Nathan may be our mate but he’s never acknowledged it, no one but his lover knows I’m his mate, he abandoned me to the pack and the girl that ruined my life.

He hurt me in the worst possible way. if someone ever told you that being rejected is the worst thing to happen to a wolf..... those people lied.

To those people I say f**k you.

I looked back down, focusing on Nathan who was still staring at me now his eyes were turning back with lust and I knew what would happen I felt an unwanted shiver flow down my spine my wolf practically purred in anticipation, she was such a traitor.

If I didn’t move away now I knew things would get heated fast. Ignoring my wolf’s pleas to go to him I backed away from the staircase without breaking eye contact with him I still had my Beta wolf so technically Nathan wasn’t capable of making me submit as we held the same ranks, if anything my wolf outranked Nathan’s because he was a gamma blood if you can believe that. I chuckled to myself at the knowledge that technically my wolf was capable of making Nathan’s wolf submit. I couldn’t see Nathan anymore but kept moving backwards till my back hit the wall the opposite side. I let out the shaky breath I had been holding my wolf was going crazy fighting for control she could sense her mates lust for us and wanted nothing more than to go to him and jump his bones. It was always the same when I saw him and some times the pull was just too much to resist. After gathering my thoughts for a moment feeling like I was in control enough to move without running straight to Nathan I finally turned heading towards the nursery.

To distract myself I looked around admiring the beautiful decor in the pack house. Down stairs some things like the kitchen had been modernised whilst keeping the original rustic feel to the house mostly intact but upstairs it was all original never updated since it was first built. I wasn’t sure on the exact era but I knew the house was hundreds of years old the decor had kept well albeit extremely dated floral fabric walls and dark wooden panels, it was still beautiful reminding me of being in a palace everything looked so expensive and decadent you were afraid to touch anything, original oak flooring and the walls were lined with a mixture of self portraits of previous alpha’s or modern artwork curtesy of Rose she and I had shared a passion for art and drawing. Rose had been a sweet kind loving person but she had also been a force to be reckoned with she was like a beautiful whirlwind much like her daughter alpha Felix hadn’t stood a chance against her when Rose had insisted on adding some contemporary pieces into the pack house. I’m sure given time she would have updated all of the decor in the house too.

As I walked up the corridor I passed alpha felix heading out of his office. He was a tall man with long dark hair he liked to tie back. The only time I saw it free was when he was shifting for a run in his wolf form. He had a large frame with sharp facial features. He was handsome for a man his age unlike my father he hadn’t begun to grey yet but his face held years of stress being an alpha brought.

I remember when I was young he and my father used to train just outside the pack house. They’d have competitions to see how many pack pups they could lift at once, we all used to squeal and jump up and down waving our hands hoping to get picked before our mothers would come out and put a stop to it all. Either because they thought we were bothering the alpha or because they worried we’d get hurt.

Alpha Felix had once been a rippling tower of muscle but the past few years had been more than taxing on him; he'd been letting his body go more and more in the past few years. He was a man more than ready for someone new to take over the reigns so he could finally retire.

I smiled at him walking past not thinking he was going to stop to speak with me. He was a kind man ,he and my father were good friends but I was a ranked omega and beyond a friendly greeting I didn’t expect much more from him when my parents weren't around.

To my surprise though he stopped me just as he was about to pass by tapping my arm suddenly remembering something.

“ Alisha? Did you remind your parents about tonight?” He asked.

“ my father was actually just speaking about it alpha felix” we both smiled knowing my dad never forgot anything to do with pack business.

“ ahh I should have guessed Adam would never forget an official meeting” he laughed. We stood there for a moment as the awkward silence passed between us yet alpha felix made no movemeant to leave I didn’t want to be rude and dismiss myself so I decided small talk was my best option.

“ You must be excited for your son to be returning?” I asked, breaking the awkward silence. He looked at me with a warm smile spreading across his face.

“ I’m excited to be finally getting a rest from the burden being alpha brings” he joked but there was a sadness to it. If It hadn’t been for the tragedy 3 years ago his son Mitchell would have taken over the pack as alpha by now.

“ Well no one is more deserving of the break sir I hope you and Luna Jamie enjoy your retirement” I said the last part without thinking inwardly cringing. I wasn’t sure if Luna Jamie would be retiring.

Normally the alpha and Luna stepped down together and the new alpha and Luna took over the pack at the same time it was unheard of for an alpha to take the title alone in some parts of the world it was actually wolf law that an alpha couldn’t take the pack without a Luna which you can imagine created problems especially if an alpha hadn’t found his fated mate. In some cases he’d be forced to claim a chosen mate but then if he did find his mate later in life she could only be his mistress or be rejected. I was surprised that it wasn’t a law in this pack still to be honest. Something told me that it would have been if alpha Felix hadn’t been so eager to step down.

“ Actually my wife has agreed to help with certain Luna duties to ease my son into pack life again she doesn’t want to overwhelm him” he stated more officially I couldn't imagine how hard it would be for Mitchell to come home to run a pack where his mate had died only a few years before.

“ can’t be easy coming back with so many memories here I suppose sir” it was true memories of Mitchell’s mate Rose were everywhere, just by looking at the walls of the pack house she had painted most of the artwork or at least hand picked a piece herself she been very influential within the pack even before she became Mitchell’s mate.

“ Alisha I want to assure you that whatever the pack says I’ll make sure Mitchell knows your true worth within the pack rose loved you and Mitchel will know that” alpha felix said reassuringly he never said much to me about the subject of Rose or the packs views of me. I knew I was well thought of by the alpha and Luna but they rarely spoke to me about anything more than the care of their grand pup.

“ thank you sir.... do you think I’ll be allowed to stay in my current position here at the house?” I shouldn’t have asked but the question had been eating away at me since the day I’d heard Mitchell would be coming back. I put up with a lot from this pack and there was only one reason I hadn’t packed up and left yet and that reason was a beautiful little girl that had stolen my heart 3 years ago.

“ I should hope so Alisha” he said it with a smile but there was uncertainty in his eyes he couldn’t make me promises anymore after all he would no longer be alpha, in five days time his son Mitchell would be alpha. He could come in and change every rule there was in the pack if he felt like it.

Alpha’s word was law and the pack had to follow or face a life alone. I couldn’t count on alpha felix and luna Jamie’s protection anymore. I should be grateful I was held in such high regard with them.

I knew why they cared for me so much but the pack didn't. They saw me only as unworthy and they hated me even more for being favoured by the alpha and Luna. They thought it must be due to my fathers reputation being he was once alpha felix’s loyal second. Now that spot belongs to my mate Nathan but I held the alpha and Luna’s favour for another reason. It was my own accomplishments that gave them reason to care for me so much but that was our business not the packs they could go swivel for all I cared.

I said my goodbyes to the alpha and headed to the nursery door. I knocked going into the lounge area. It was scattered with toys, food and other various junk I could see on the small wooden table in the middle of the room was scattered with felt tip pen and paper. I was so mad the staff knew not to let her have felt tip pens she was too young for them, they lay without lids all over the table, some have even rolled onto the carpet no doubt staining it thank god it was washable.

The night maid had obviously fallen asleep instead of tidying up like they were supposed to. Luna Jamie had wanted to put her grand pup to bed last night so I’d been allowed to leave early but the night staff should have cleaned it all up last night. I don’t know why I’d expect anything less. They always shirked their duties, leaving them to me. The night maid awoke at the sound of me entering the room. She immediately got up from her chair at the sight of me at the door and headed straight to me looking irritated already.

“ Where the hell have you been! you're late I’m not covering your duties, I want my bed” she had her hands on her hips like she was queen of everything Meg I think her name was she was one that didn’t know her place within the pack and had sights set on bigger things for herself.

She didn’t normally volunteer to do the night shifts in the nursery. Mina had been sleeping through all night for a while but the alpha and Luna insisted someone stay with her but there were only a handful of omegas in the house I trusted and this b***h wasn’t one of them more and more omega females had been appearing from the night shift recently and I knew why they were all waiting for a peek at the new alpha figuring he’d return to the nursery first to see his pup. These omega females had no shame.

“ what are you talking about it’s not even seven yet” I wasn’t due to start my day till eight though most of the time I was here by Severn I liked to be here when Mina woke up. Ever since she was born I had been named mina’s legal guardian along with the Luna and alpha obviously but no one knew that I had full authority to handle mina’s care as was her mother’s wishes and I loved Mina like she was my own it was one of rose’s final requests before she…..I bit the inside of my cheek to stop the tears from falling that day still sliced through me like a knife delivering a severe stab of pain to my heart.

The omega looked at me smug like she was the one that had caused my pain.

“ Whatever mutt I’ll be telling Luna you were late” the omega shoved me out the way and slammed the door behind her. I rolled my eyes not caring let the b***h tell Luna Jamie her lies. What no one knew was the alpha and Luna had nanny cams around the nursery I was now standing in and mina’s main bedroom where she slept. They were very protective of their grand pup after all.

I couldn’t hear Mina yet so I quickly tidied around the round the playroom so it was no longer a bomb sight the omega had obviously been sat in the armchair watching tv all night judging by the fact the chair had been moved from its normal position by the window to right in front of the big tv hanging on the wall. I hated that Luna and Alpha had put a flat screen TV on the wall. What would a three year old possibly need one in their bedroom for. I knew it was just the alpha and luna’s way of being overprotective. I think if they could seal her in this room safely they would have. It was no secret they’d been on edge since Rose's death three years ago. They were scared. It was understandable but I wouldn’t let Mina be scared of the world. It wasn’t what Rose wanted and it wasn’t the life I wanted for Mina either.

I tended to take her to the common rooms or the living room in the pack house if we were going to watch a film. Luna Jamie didn’t like it but the alpha understood the other pack members loved seeing Mina running around the pack house. It upped morale and they were slightly less nasty to me in front of her which I’d call a win every time. Not that I cared that the members of this pack had done everything in their power to destroy me the last few years. I was so used to being mistreated I’d become numb to it all. I only cared about one thing in this pack and that was Mina.

I finished in the playroom sponging what I could of the felt tip pen out of the carpet, no doubt I’d be blamed for it and headed to mina’s bedroom.

The little alpha pup had all the luxuries in life you’d expect of an alpha blood to have her room was decorated in beautiful baby pinks that Rose and I had painted ourselves the design spread through into the playroom too. I had helped rose design a beautiful mural of the forest that we had painted in gold to keep with the princess theme rose had chosen it was beautiful and meant more to Mina because her mommy had painted it for her. Mina’s tiny form was fast asleep in the unnecessarily huge four postered princess carriage style bed. It was easily a king size and she looked terribly lost in there, though it made it easy when I had to have sleepovers. Mina didn’t like the other omegas sleeping with her but I was her best friend so I was special.

“ wakey wakey little monkey” I cooed as her little head scrunched into the pillow even further a frown on her cute face as she groaned before disappearing under the covers. Her dark brown hair spreading across her pillows was the only indication she was there.

“ I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream...” I started singing the song from Sleeping Beauty when she met the handsome Prince. Mina loved all things Disney princess. She told me when she grew up she was going to meet a handsome Prince too.

At my singing, suddenly she jumped up in bed. It was amazing how she could go from fast asleep to leaping about in one fluid motion.

“ yay I'm princess Ali, Cinder Ella now?” She jumped onto my lap, I tucked a strand of her locks behind her ear aside from her dark hair that she’d inherited from alpha Mitchell she was the spitting image of her mother. Same doe eyes, same mouth, pale skin and crazy amazing personality.

“ let’s get you some breakfast first” I smiled down at her mina’s beautiful little face frowned and I knew she was gearing up to make her demands.

“ cinde Ella!! Cinder Ella!” She demanded getting up off my lap and started jumping on her bed.

“ ok pinky promise we get dressed, we eat breakfast, do some numbers then Cinderella before our walk..... deal?” I held out my pinky for her she frowned for a moment thinking it over.

“ Deal!” She held her pinky to mine, shaking it firmly a pinky promise could never be broken. It was binding.