Beyond Fate

Unworthy of love

“ awwww.....because you're not worthy of love baby” he pulled my face towards him forcibly kissing me then shoving me roughly away from him laughing as he stormed out.

I was left alone in the dark feeling I had reached the lowest point in my life. Tears rolled down my face I had promised myself I wouldn’t let Nathan do this to me during my heat this time and I hadn’t I had been the stupid w***e doing it before my heat because I had gotten myself all worked up over the guy I had actually wanted but couldn’t have. I felt sick. I clutched my stomach waiting for the nausea to pass. When would this end, when would I be able to find someone who would love me? Was I just meant to live a life as Nathan’s w***e. No I couldn’t.

Once I was able to get a handle on my emotions I slowly crept out of the cupboard hoping no one was around. I needed to shower and get rid of the smell of Nathan on my body. I couldn't make it home without someone seeing me and I would have to get Mina from school soon. I started walking down the hallway heading for one of the bedrooms I knew had an en-suite where I could shower when a figure came strolling around the corner. My heart leapt into my throat at the sight of Mitchell strolling towards me, as soon as he saw me his face lit up and it made me want to cry.

I didn’t know what to do so I stupidly just pretended I hadn’t seen him keeping my head down knowing it would never work and I was heading for disaster, there was no way Mitchell wouldn’t smell Nathan on me. Just thinking about Mitchell’s reaction made my tears begin to freshly roll down my cheeks. How could I make this moment stop?

“ hey what’s wrong” I felt Mitchell grab my arm trying to get me to look at him but I couldn't. I couldn't see the look of disgust on his face when he realised the truth.

“ nothing I’m just allergic to fancy furnishings” I said quickly without looking, trying to move past him but he grabbed my other arm as I tried to pass making me look at him, concern was written all over his face.

“ What's wrong Alisha?” Mitchell demanded and I saw his nostrils flare. I couldn’t stop the sob that escaped knowing he could smell Nathan and my arousal mixed together. I felt a wave of anger that radiated off Mitchell so much that I thought I might double over from the power of it.

“ did he...oh goddess Alisha please tell me he didn’t” he said shock and anger laced his words he could barley get out and I could see where his mind had gone it made me cry harder because I knew I’d have to tell him the truth.

“ he didn’t do anything I didn’t consent to” that was true I guess he may have forced himself on me but it’s kind of hard to r**e your mate when they were completely willing and desperate for your touch, I was just a fool for giving in to my body’s desire.

Mitchell looked at me puzzled shaking his head “ I don’t understand he’s with Kelly and you both seem to hate each other..”

“ HE’S MY MATE ” I shouted without meaning to I cried and almost doubled over but Mitchell held me so I didn’t fall to the floor. He must be so disgusted. I peered at his face but seeing no look of disgust he was taken back. Rightly so. He knew my ultimate shame yet he still held me while I wept with everything I had, as if years of bottling it all up was finally being released.

It wasn't enough that I’d been rejected by my beta mate and he paraded his lover around me all the time whilst she and her friends bullied me at every opportunity. I shamefully allowed him to use me as his w***e just for a brief moment where I could pretend someone loved me. I let my tears flow freely, not trying to hide how much I hated myself.

“ go ahead let rip tell me how pathetic I am you can’t really have a lower opinion of me than I do of myself right now” I hung my head in shame waiting for Mitchel to tell me how ashamed he was of me and have him look at me the way everyone else did, I was going to lose my friend now too.

I was stunned beyond words when Mitchell wrapped his arms tighter around me pulling me into his hard body hugging me close ignoring the fact I stank of s*x and shame.

“ I’m so sorry Alisha” he whispered to me, stroking my hair. I was so touched by his kindness I let all my pain flow freely crying hard into his chest letting it all out, it felt so good to finally have a genuine friend.

Mitchell picked me up bridal style and started walking somewhere I didn’t look up. I just kept my head buried in his chest finding comfort in his scent. I felt him sit down somewhere, he positioned me in his lap and held me while I sobbed soaking his T.Shirt with my tears just like he had that night in the kitchen pantry he didn’t speak he just held me.

After I calmed down Mitchell picked me up taking me to his bathroom and left me to shower, he sent my clothes to the laundry and gave me one of his shirts and a pair of shorts to wear he even mindlinked his mom to pick Mina up from school, I sat in his shower scrubbing my skin raw trying to remove all traces Nathan had ever touched me.

Once I was free of Nathan’s scent I felt a lot better, when I came out of the bathroom Mitchell sat me on the bed and I explained everything to him I couldn’t even believe it when I found myself telling him everything about the past four years it spilled out of me like a fountain, I even told him about Lucas trying to help me find a way to break the bond and the crazy burner phone that had recorded Lucas and the unknown man. Mitchell had thought about it for a moment but he had been more interested in my history with Nathan so I spilled my guts and told him everything, about how Nathan had rejected me for Kelly, how Kelly and her friends had become my tormentors over the past few years, how Nathan would always warn me to stay away from any male so I could never form any kind of attraction because he thought he had a claim to me even though he didn’t want me publicly, how I recently found out Colton had been helping him to keep tabs on me. Mitchell to his credit just sat there without saying a word. He was shocked and angry by it all I had no doubt but he kept himself composed while I told him my sad story.

“ So how often does this happen?” He asked, I knew what he was asking. He didn’t need to say it. I couldn’t stand the thought of him thinking of me running to Nathan begging for s*x it wasn’t like that it was never like that.

“ not very often anymore normally just if he’s frustrated, he claims his wolf still needs me” I didn’t mention the fact that today’s moment had been fuelled because he didn’t like seeing me with Mitchell or that I wasn’t able to resist because I was still aroused by what had happened between us this morning.

“ I don’t understand if he wants you, why does he keep that Kelly around?” He asked confused, he had his arms wrapped around me rubbing my back.

“ he says I’m unworthy of his love” I cried, pulling my knees up to my chest, wrapping my arms around myself, thinking about Nathan’s words earlier. It hadn't even been that he didn’t love me just the words that no one should love me were like a blade to my sole.

“ he’s a piece of s**t, I’m so sorry Alisha you deserve so much better, the moon goddess made a terrible mistake pairing you with him” Mitchell said not looking at me I could see he was angry his jaw kept clicking at certain things I had told him but he never voiced his opinion till now he’d just listened and held me.

“ I just wish he’d just reject me and I could move on with my life, he keeps the bond there so he can lay a claim to me I’m just a toy to him” I cried again feeling pathetic all I did was cry when it came to Nathan and I was sick of it, I was sick of the mate bond, I was sick of him, he didn’t care about me he never had.

“ I can’t force him to reject you but I can stop him from using you like this” Mitchell wrapped his arm around me pulling me to him. I cried more but this time it wasn’t over Nathan and his shitty treatment. I’d never had anyone to confide in about Nathan since Rose had passed, even with Lucas we had researched together trying to break the bond but I had never confided in him about how the whole thing had affected me. It felt so good to release it all for once.

Mitchell held me close pulling me with him so we both lay down on his bed. My head rested on his chest and he threaded his fingers through my hair with his other hand around my waist holding me tightly to him. It didn’t feel awkward in fact it felt good more than good. He wasn't my alpha right now, he was just my friend comforting me over my shitty situation. It felt so great to have support.

“ don’t worry Alisha, everything will be fine. I promise I’m with you every step of the way, we'll find a way to free you and you’ll find your happiness” he whispered into my hair and I felt him kiss my head. I smiled into his shoulder knowing he meant it. He was my friend and he would help me through this. Soon I felt myself drift off into a blissful sleep.

The next morning I woke up wondering where I was. I looked around to see I was still in the same position I was in last night when I had fallen asleep on Mitchell, his arms wrapped tightly around my waist holding me close to his chest, it was strange how right it felt being in his arms. I lay there for a moment not wanting to move, Mitchell was still fast asleep. I took a moment wanting to study his handsome face. When would I ever get the chance to look at him up close like this.

His face was relaxed and peaceful, it made him look younger, he had a slight stubble across his jaw and a few strands of his dark hair had slipped down over his forehead. I was itching to reach up and brush them back but I didn’t dare in case he woke up. What would he think I’d just spent the night crying to him about my shitty mate and now I was listening after him. I needed my head testing, what must he think of me now? The thought alone made me want to run and hide like always did but I couldn't. It was all out there now whatever happened next was out of my hands. Mitchell had said he would stand by me and help me through this, I hoped he really meant it. He seemed completely sincere last night. I couldn't believe I told him everything but I didn’t regret it. It had felt good to get everything off my chest finally and I was even more glad it had been to Mitchell.

I looked at the time, noting it was still early. I had time to go home and get changed before anyone would be awake. I gently untangled myself from Mitchell. He moaned and tried to tighten his hold but I managed to get free without waking him. I didn’t have my own clothes, only what Mitchell had given me to wear , so I grabbed my shoes in my hand noting how it would look if someone were to see me like this. I just had to hope no one was around right now.

Slowly creeping out of Mitchell’s room I headed down the corridor trying to be as silent as I could as I went, I couldn’t hear anyone so I kept going. I almost reached the stairs grabbing for the bannister when I heard someone storming towards me fast, the next thing I knew I felt someone shove me sending me flying down the stairs. I rolled, feeling pain hit my legs and chest. I heard a crack but I wasn’t sure where from, everything hurt. I finally stopped falling, landing in a heap on the second floor. I looked up to see Tammy standing at the top of the stairs above me, a smug look across her face as she slowly defended the stairs to join the crowd of bitches that were already gazing down at me waiting ready to attack. I already knew from past experiences they wouldn’t be done yet. I tried to stand but I cried out clutching my ribs gasping for air. Yep I knew I heard something crack.

The girls stood over me chuckling then Kelly knelt down to my level with an evil glint in her eye. “ see girls I told you she was nothing but a w***e, throwing herself at my mate and then the alpha all in one night” she reached for me but I brought my head back cracking the b***h straight in the nose, she flew backwards screaming in pain all the others were taken back by surprise until I felt pain radiate through my back once the first kick came they kept coming. I didn’t have a chance to react. All I felt was pain radiating through every inch of my body feeling kick after kick tasting blood in my mouth. They didn’t hold back and I knew they wouldn’t until I was passed out. As I felt the darkness begin to finally claim me I heard an almighty roar that shook the walls of the entire house.

I tried to look up but the pain in my head was making me black out. I clutched it, not able to focus on what was going on around me. I heard shouting and bodies moving around me then arms scooping me up I flinched at first but then his intoxicating forest scent enveloped me and I knew straight away it was Mitchell I clutched onto his shirt resting my pounding head against his chest breathing him in.

“ you will all be delt with later now....FUCK OFF!” He roared. I heard squeaking and movement. Obviously the bitches had run off. Mitchell's alpha voice was terrifying if I’d been able to move I’d have run too.

“ f**k Alisha I’m so sorry I promised you this wouldn’t happen again and I already failed you” I wanted to tell him it wasn’t his fault but my throat was raw I couldn’t speak one of the kicks had caught me in the neck.

“ Alpha, I’ll take her,” Nathan’s voice boomed around us. I felt him trying to take me out of Mitchell’s arms but I slid my hands up his chest wrapping my arms around his neck in a vice like grip begging him not to hand me over, Mitchell’s own grip on me tightened.

“ DON’T f*****g TOUCH HER!!…. this is all your fault if you could keep your d**k to yourself and your woman in check none of this would have happened” mitchell roared at Nathan and I peered up to see Nathan was taken back by Mitchell’s words he glanced down at me realising I’d told him we were mates his expression turned to panic and then anger.

“ Give her to me now” he demand trying to take me from Mitchell who growled menacingly letting Nathan know he would die if he tried anything.

“ no I won’t let you hurt her again, you will not touch her. as alpha I’m commanding you, you will not touch Alisha again do you understand?” He roared unleashing his full alpha aura on Nathan who had no choice to stand back in submission.

I didn’t hear Nathan respond to Mitchell. He walked away leaving Nathan standing on the landing he left the pack house growling at any wolves that crossed his path on the way to the pack hospital.

When we got there Mitchell growled to the staff before Doctor Lynn came running down the corridor to us Mitchell wasn’t waiting for anyone he just carried me to the ward reserved for the alpha and his family. I felt like any moment someone was going to kick us out. One of the nurses behind the desk tried to stop him but he roared at her and she scampered off in tears never to be seen again.

Doctor Lynn ordered Mitchell to put me down on the table after he didn’t appear to be in a hurry to release me. It amazed me how she never seemed intimidated by him.

Mitchell held my hand while the doctor examined me. She asked him to leave but he refused, telling her he’d need to be dragged out. She just smiled at him, great another woman lusting after the alpha could they not take a break for one day.

I had a broken nose, cracked ribs that had already begun to heal and a minor concussion apart from that just a lot of bruising the doctor let me leave but recommended I stay on bed rest for the rest of the day and not to be left alone. Mitchell wanted to take me back to the pack house but I insisted on going home. I didn't know how serious Mitchell was about keeping Nathan away from me and I knew he wouldn’t dare come to my parents house. My mom was a respected warrior and she was not to be crossed if she knew the truth about Nathan he’d be castrated for sure.

Mitchell kept apologising to my parents until my mother ushered him out of the house telling him to deal with Kelly and her minions. I still couldn’t get over my parents ordering Mitchell round like he was still a little boy and not the big bad alpha that he was I guess that’s what comes from changing the alphas nappies when he was a pup they could never see him as a grown man able to crush anyone that crossed him at least they respected his authority enough to only do it in their own home and not around other pack members .

“ Right my darling drink lots of water and rest” my mom said tucking me into my bed it was her answer to every illness. If you felt sick you hadn’t drunk enough water and needed to rest.

“ So why was Mitchy apologising profusely? Where was he when you were attacked and why were you at the pack house anyway?” She began her interrogation sitting on the bed next to me.

“ Which one do you want me to answer first?” I said exasperated, I didn’t need this right now. I was healing quickly but I was still sore.

“ did you stay there last night?” My dad came into my room only half paying attention and not really expecting an answer…. mom however.

“ don’t think I missed his scent on you or that your bed wasn’t slept in last night….are you wearing his clothes?” Mom tugged at Mitchell’s shirt I was still wearing. It was covered in dried blood but I didn’t want to take it off. It still carried his scent which was comforting me, reminding me of how last night I had slept in his arms.

“I smell like him because he carried me to the hospital” I waved my hands dismissively trying to make light of it but as usual mom wasn’t having any of it.

“ and why didn’t you come home last night....Adam your daughter spent the night at the pack house” dad had already drifted into his own world again.

“ ADAM!!” My mom chimed, irritated bringing my dad back to planet earth.i couldn’t help but chuckle at him.

“ what’s that?.....so she’s sleeping with Mitchell then” he asked looking at us like he was asking about the weather he was winding mom up on purpose now.

“ depends what you mean by sleeping” I couldn’t resist piling on, the look on my mother’s face was priceless. She looked liked her eyes had been glued open.

“ WHAT???” She screeched

“ told you” dad shrugged unbothered even if it had been true which surprised me given the big deal he made about me being with Lucas.

“ what’s this?” Great Johnny stood in the doorway behind dad.

“ your sister is sleeping with our alpha” mom shouted, folding her arms shuffling on my bed looking at me in disapproval.

“ cool finally getting laid ay sis well done” Johnny smirked looking at mom who might as well have steam coming out of her ears at this point.

“ Johnny!!!” She shouted and we all chuckled which I regretted instantly when my ribs hurt.

“ what? Every woman in the packs after a slice, why shouldn’t Alisha get some. She's the most beautiful girl in the pack plus any guy is better than that arshole that abanonded her” Johnny said to mom pointedly, I blushed at my brother's words I had no idea he thought that. Then my stomach clenched at the thought of Lucas.

“ oh for goddess sake” I grumbled pretending to be irritated.

“ explain yourself at once madam did you sleep with Mitchell?” Mom shot up from the bed glaring daggers at me, I looked at dad and Johnny squinting at them. They both were trying to stifle a giggle.

“ if by ‘sleep’ you mean slept next to him then yes, if you mean ‘sleep’ as in had wild passionate s*x then no” I clarified hearing dad and Johnny unable to hide their chuckle I turned back to a very wide eyed mom.

“ I don’t understand,” she asked once she got over the shock.

“ It's nothing mom I was upset about something and Mitchell was just being a friend, we fell asleep by accident” it wasn’t a lie but I wasn’t going to tell them why I was so upset.

“ Right, well we will talk about it more later but for now rest I’ll bring you some soup up” mom said tucking me in for the third time I smiled shaking my head. Dad followed mom out of the room but Johnny stayed for a bit and we watched T.V together. I knew he wanted to ask me about who else was there when I was attacked. Honestly I didn’t know what to say. I knew he’d want to know that Tammy was there but what good would come from telling him it’s not like it would change anything for him with Tammy only to make things harder between them. Then I realised Mitchell had witnessed the attack and he would punish Tammy along with the others for the attack. I decided that if Johnny wasn’ going to say anything then I wouldn’t either.

Johnny didn’t say anything about it he probably felt the same way I did instead he sat on my bed hugging me while we watched a movie I fell asleep for a while and when I woke up he was gone mom brought me some soup but dad came up and brought her out of my room before she could interrogate me again. I sat there thinking about how stupid I’d been spending the night at the pack house my families reaction to me spending the night in Mitchell’s bed even though nothing had happened made me realise how the pack would see it. everyone would think I was sleeping with the alpha, screwing my way to a better life as some would say that’s how people like Kelly climbed the ladder they didn’t earn positions the right way it just mattered who they were sleeping with I didn’t want to be thought of as one of those girls I might have let Nathan have his way with me but that was different he was my mate and it was impossible to fight the attraction not that I hadn’t tried but my body would betray me every time Nathan came calling. I could only hope Mitchell was true to his word and ordered Nathan to keep away from me.