Beyond Fate

Heated moments

(Alisha pov)

“Jasmine he’s madly in love with his mate as it should be” I lay on the bank by the river with Jasmine next to me taking a swing of the bottle of sambuca we got from the shop. Poor Carter was passed out hugging one of the empty bottles on the grass next to us. Jasmine had dared him into doing shots with her, in his defence they had gotten through an entire bottle before he started to waver and he was already pretty drunk to begin with the guy could hold his liquor but against a werewolf it was like pointless our tolerance was too good.

“ yes but although the moon goddess is wise and wonderful and.....GOING TO GIVE ME A MATE SOON!!!” She shouted towards the moon angrily like she’s scalding a small child. I wonder if my friend ever thought maybe the moon goddess was keeping her mate on the back burner because of all her shouting and demands.

“ her sister fate can be a complete b***h sometimes rendering good wolfs without said mate” I added thinking about my own sad situation the moon goddess paired wolfs but life sometimes got in the way of happily ever after or in Mitchell’s case happily ever after can be very short lived.

“ Look, I call it how I see it and you don’t have to act on my knowledge but I’m gonna lay it out there for you” Jasmine handed me the bottle looking deadly serious at me and I took a swig relishing the burn at the back of my throat.

“ here we go...” I muttered rolling my eyes once again about to get advice I didn’t ask for and don’t want, she was lucky I loved her so much.

“ he was checking you out earlier” Jas interrupted like she couldn’t wait to get it out.

“ what? No way, did you see the girls at the club tonight” I frowned. Did no one notice the girls practically dry humping him tonight.

“ yes and while they were all dancing and grinding round him trying in vain to get his attention the young alpha didn’t take his eyes off you all night”

“ seriously?” I asked genuinely curious apart from when we spoke I hadn’t noticed Mitchell when I’m on the dance floor I’m in my zone.

“ yes I distinctly remember because I thought he was looking at me” she looked slightly disappointed at me that the alpha wasn’t checking her out.

“ how do you know he wasn’t?” I shot back smirking and taking another swig of sambuca, He probably was checking Jasmine out, she was beautiful long black hair that looked like silk and smooth caramel skin with a body men craved, her dazzling purple eyes only added to her allure she was a seductress in body and sole every guy from our pack was praying to the moon goddess to have her as their mate. Jasmine raised her eyebrows at me with a smug expression and I knew she hadn’t finished her argument yet. Why had I asked the question?

“ Well I tested the theory, when I asked you to get us some drinks..” she said biting her lip sheepishly, I raised my eyebrows at her, so that’s why she’d insisted on me getting the drinks.

“ there I was giving out my sexiest dance moves but his eyes followed you to the bar and then seconds later BOOM he was right next to you buying your drinks” she threw her arms up in the air to signify the boom like he’d magically appeared out of nowhere the truth was I had been surprised to see him there. Even though I knew Johnny was out with his warriors tonight I had never thought Mitchell would go with them. I’d sometimes forget that despite being the alpha now he actually was only in his early twenties.

why wouldn’t he want to have a break for a guys night out like everyone else. I hadn’t noticed Mitchell in the club before even when I’d seen Nathan with Kelly I hadn’t thought he’d come to the bar to see me either I assumed he was waiting for drinks too and just spotted me, I hadn’t thought much about it after either only to note he was surrounded by beautiful women which had irritated me beyond words but why wouldn’t he be, he was incredibly handsome. I might be respectful of his love for his lost mate but I wasn’t blind to his god like looks or the feelings that seemed to be accompanying my mind every time he was close to me lately.

He had looked pretty damn good tonight but that wasn’t for me to admire. He was my alpha, father to my favourite person in the world and finally someone I could call a friend. yes he was drop dead gorgeous and if he had been looking at me he only saw me as a friend and nanny to his child the child he shared with the love of his life, the fact she no longer walked this earth made no difference, no one would compare to her. Why else would he have been unable to set foot in the pack for years, no scratch that why had I needed to pick him up off the floor and put him to bed last night in the broken state he was in. Mitchell hadn’t told me much about why he had gotten himself like that last night. He was too exhausted from his run so Johnny and I had put him to bed and left. I hadn't wanted to leave him but I couldn’t think of a reason to stay in front of Johnny. When I’d woken up this morning Johnny had already checked on him and said he was his old self again. It didn’t take a genius to work out Rose had been at the heart of last night. Jasmine didn’t get that because she hadn’t met her mate yet but once she did she would get that there’s no escaping the bond I should know.

“ Hello, earth to Alisha, where did you go?” Jasmine almost shouted annoyed that I’d zoned out on her.

“ No where” I said, looking confused. A look of realisation hit Jasmine and her eyes went huge and she grabbed my shoulders.

“ oh my goddess you really do like him don’t you?” She almost squealed.

I sighed looking at the ground “ok fine I like him” what was the point in denying it I did have feelings for Mitchell. “ but it’s not like anything can happen”

“ why?” Jasmine frowned at me like I was crazy. “He clearly has a thing for you too, your hot stuff baby girl and if he doesn’t like you why was he giving the death glare to every guy in the club that was looking at you?” I rolled my eyes feeling like she was exaggerating why the hell would Mitchell be interested in me. Before I could think anymore on the subject Carter groaned and began coming round I smiled down at him.

“ Come on big guy, let's get you to bed” Jasmine said standing up, we both carried the poor guy back to Jasmine's house leaving him on her sofa to sleep off his drunken state. I went to sleep tossing and turning for a while my thoughts on Mitchell and trying not to think about there being anything in Jasmine's words tonight.

The next morning I was putting away Mina’s washing in her room. I couldn’t deal with my own thoughts today so I had put my headphones on to block everything out. After last night's revelation with Jas and realising that I had feelings for Mitchell were too much to deal with right now. I had decided Jasmine had to be wrong about Mitchell liking me. There was too much past hate there for him to have flipped on his feelings like that. I mean, only a few days ago he was talking s**t about me to Nathan. I couldn't trust Jasmine's instincts after everything else that had happened but I also couldn’t hide the fact that I did have feelings for him, I couldn’t stop thinking about him.

Ironically it hadn’t been the biggest surprise in the last 24 hours. I’d woke up this morning in Jasmine’s spare bedroom I’d gone down stairs to check on poor Carter to make sure we hadn’t given him alcohol poisoning trying to keep up with us only to find the sofa was empty and Carter in bed with Jasmine, apparently she had gotten up to check on him in the night too but thought that a full body inspection was necessary.

As if things weren't crazy enough right now my impending heat was seriously screwing with my head, one of the reasons I needed to shut the world out today. I was becoming seriously horny, I’d had to take two cold showers this morning and yes they may have included having to relieve myself in said shower to the fantasy of a certain alpha.

It was bad, my heat was coming and I was terrified my instincts to mate would take over. I had been to see Astrid and she had given me everything I needed to make it through my heat including masking spray which I had doused myself in today. I was also carrying my sedative on me just in case normally at this point I would have taken it already. I knew I was only a day or two away but so was Johnny's wedding. It was typical this would happen to me now. So I was having to suffer through it, feeling hot bothered and horny as hell. Only once my heat official came would I not be able to hold off the sedative anymore. Not only would I want to screw any male that crossed my path but any unmated male in my area would go insane with the need to mate me and I wouldn’t be able to fight them off. There would be dead bodies if I allowed that to happen, Johnny's wedding would have to be missed if it came down to it.

I shut my eyes trying to focus on the words Selena Gomez was singing, I opened the drawer putting Mina’s P.J’s neatly in when I held up a couple of items that were definitely not hers. They were Mitchell’s, great they had gotten mixed up in Mina’s stuff.

Too focused on my task without a thought I walked to Mitchell’s room not even thinking about going in and putting them away. I knew he was training with the pack warriors and Johnny right now and I didn’t feel right about just leaving them on his bed for him to put away, I might get someone into trouble.

The music was doing its job of distracting me and I just started swinging my hips to the beat whilst I put away the few items, there wasn’t much but it was taking longer when I began dancing around the room too into the song to realise I was in Mitchell’s room spinning around and not in the nursery where I should have been. I closed the wardrobe and did an elaborate spin it wasn’t till I opened my eyes to leave I gasped seeing Mitchell’s tall frame standing in the doorway leaning against the wall with a smirk on his face, his arms were folded and he was wearing nothing but a pair of basketball shorts his body was dripping with sweat, his broad chest and muscled biceps on full display making me want to drool. My fantasy’s had nothing on the real thing. He was delicious and my mind was wandering to places it had no business going. I couldn’t help biting my lip at my dirty thoughts as I felt my core tighten at the sight of him.

“Alisha what are you doing in here....besides busting some serious moves” he joked smirking again. Was he laughing at me?

Of course he’s laughing at you i***t. My wolf chimed in.

“Um um um I.... you know I can’t actually remember” I laughed trying to make light of the tense situation I couldn’t get my brain to function and it was only getting worse when he started walking towards me I looked around for an escape and then I saw the laundry on the bed “..... washing!” I shouted loudly, looking simple.

“ I mean I was putting Minas washing away and I found some of your stuff it must have just got mixed up.... I was gonna just leave them on the bed but then I didn’t want you to think that the omega’s just left it for you to put it away and then I wasn’t sure so I opted for invisible which meant putting it away like no one was here but then you came back... am I talking to much? I can stop..should I leave , I can leave...”

oh just shut up babbling you moron. My wolf scolded and I cringed at myself.

I kept my head down in submission hoping I wouldn’t in-cure a punishment. It was a genuine mix up. It wasn't my fault his stuff was in with Minas and I’d only put it away because I thought he’d be insulted if I didn’t. I’d lost my head in my music for a moment and spun around like an i***t now I’d been caught. why couldn’t I have just got in and got out, why did he have to be half naked, his big bulging muscle bound chest and eight pack that was glistening from his sweat being shoved in my face, why was he wet?, why was he shirtless?, not that I minded he was f*****g spectacular to look at and he smelled even more delicious than he looked his scent still clung in the air fresh I closed my eyes breathing it in again god he smelled like the forest on a rainy day....oh goddess he could save on the shower I’ll lick the sweat off his body.... wow easy girl easy he’s your f*****g alpha, and you technically have a mate and alphas probably about to bite your head off for being in his room anyway.

I peaked up at him through my lashes he was just stood there watching me maybe he was deciding how to punish me, it was hard to tell but I’m sure his eyes turned black for a moment, s**t had I become aroused when my mind had wondered, Duh!! of course I had with this god in front of me. I couldn’t smell anything though it was hard to tell with the masking spray I’d been using to hide my impending heat. Thank goddess for small mercies.

I snuck another look up and was shocked to see Mitchell had moved closer, his chest almost touching the top of my dipped head.

“ Look at me Alisha” his voice was deeper than usual like when he used his alpha voice it made heat pool in my knickers.shit.

I lifted my head slowly I couldn’t stop trembling but not from fear I knew Mitchell wouldn’t hurt me I looked up into his deep green eyes feeling like I was falling into the abyss, my legs felt weak and suddenly I could feel my knickers were soaking, s**t if it wasn’t for the masking spray I’d be in serious trouble he’d know I was having lustful thoughts about him is that why his eyes went black before was he having them for me? No he couldn’t be.

He grasped my chin gently I was trapped by the sheer intensity of his gaze like a deer in headlights I forgot how to breathe how was I having feelings like this for someone other than my mate this wasn’t possible,it wasn’t anything like with Lucas it was so much worse I was struggling to hold myself together all I wanted was to jump him. This wasn’t me. It was just my heat. That’s all this was.

Yea keep telling yourself that. My wolf mocked me and I almost growled at her. She was such a slut.

Mitchell’s eyes glazed over turning to black and then back again his body gently pushed against me. I tried to step back but the wardrobe was flush against my back. Mitchell's eyes darted to my lips, was he going to kiss me? Did I want him to kiss me? Hell yes I wanted him to do more than kiss me. I wanted him naked on the bed tasting every inch of him.

My wolf purred in approval, she wanted Mitchell just as much as I did right now. This was insane.

My knickers were now soaking and I was sure he smelt my arousal now the masking spray can only do so much. His nostrils flared and his eyes went black again he inched closer still so our body’s were touching his head leaded in, his eyes still black holy crap he was going to kiss me, I had to get control of my breathing, I was panting in anticipation. Just as his lips grazed mine his bedroom door knocked and someone came in without invitation.

“ alpha.....WHAT THE f**k!!!” Speaking of the devil, hearing Nathan’s voice Mitchell instantly pulled away from me turning to face his seething beta. my mate. I heard him growl in disapproval. I was glad because it was only his wolf being pissed at the interruption that my own wolf held back a growl.

Nathan looked like he could kill something or someone namely me, he couldn’t kill Mitchell he was too powerful for Nathan and he had been slacking off his training duties to be with kelly behind the training quarters. I knew their spot in the first weeks after finding out he was my mate I couldn’t help myself following them I wasn’t sure what I was hoping to find maybe that they weren’t as in love as they claimed but my hopes had been shattered seeing the two of them together going at it like two wolves starved of each other it didn’t take a genius to see he wanted her and not me he’d never given me a second glance.

I wish that was the case now he was staring straight at me like a predictor about to pounce on his prey my heart still fluttered at seeing him though stupid mate bond.

“ nate? What is the meaning of this?” Mitchell growled.

“ are you f*****g her?” Nathan shouted in anger. My face turned beetroot red with humiliation. Nate was speaking to our alpha like he was some punk kid he was training in the school yard. The look of furry in his eyes said he was struggling to control his wolf.

“Um..um… I should go” Panicking, I moved around Mitchell shaking still flustered from what almost just happened and frustrated at Nathan for interrupting it. I scooped up the basket off the bed with the rest of Minas washing inside scurrying to the door that Nathan was blocking.

“ Alisha... I’ll take one of those towels for my shower I’m all sweaty remember” he said the last part so sensually that it hinted at all kinds of ways I’d helped him get that sweaty, nathan growled under his breath though it was still powerful I was close enough now to feel the vibrations and they sent involuntary heat to my core... s**t I had to get out of here now. I grabbed one of the towels out of the basket and without looking I handed it to Mitchell his hand touched mine stroking it for a second too long with his thumb before taking it.

“ Thank you Alisha” I nodded and scurried from the room leaving the two men alone slamming the door shut. I vowed never to take his laundry into his room again next time I’d just send it straight back to the laundry.

The rest of the day went by painfully slowly. I was incredibly turned on and frustrated by my interaction with Mitchell. He had been on my mind all day and even my music wasn’t helping to distract me any more. I’d had to reapply my masking spray several times today after I noticed a few males around the house were taking an interest. I’d been trying to stay upstairs today, I’d cleaned the nursery three times and had just gone back downstairs to check if there were any more of Mina's clothes in the laundry. Why today of all days did Mina have to be a nursery? I was counting down the hours till I could go and get her.

As I reached the top of the stairs on the third floor I felt a presence but before I could turn to see who it was I was grabbed from behind, a hand clamped over my mouth to stop me from screaming and I was roughly shoved into the cleaning cupboard.

I knew without seeing it was Nathan his touch ignited heat in my core I both hated and loved at the same time his mouth found mine in the darkness within seconds on the door closing.

Heat pooled in my core and the tiny room filled with the scent of my arousal that caused Nathan to growl deep in satisfaction as if he was the sole cause of my arousal his tongue thrust inside my mouth without consent no that’s not true my body gave consent but my Mind was an unwilling prisoner becoming a slave to what my body wanted.

I wanted to push him away disgusted but instead my arms grabbed his neck trying to pull him closer to me his hands roamed freely over my body he broke the kiss long enough to pull my top over my head before claiming my mouth again I moaned into his mouth giving his tonge free access to explore his hands went to my bra removing it freeing my breast he kissed down my body to my chest sucking hard on one of my n*****s causing me to cry out in both pleasure and pain he didn’t stop there his mouth kept moving down undoing my jeans pulling them down along with my knickers in one fluid motion I was completely bare to him now and completely willing for whatever he wanted he pushed my legs apart shoving his face to my core inhaling my arousal I hated every time he did this it always embarrassed me.

without warning his tongue was shoved into my core and I screamed in pleasure he’d always loved the way I tasted not that he ever allowed me to release this way. He had always been a selfish lover. Nathan growled already moving on I hated that my core was aching from his slight touch I wanted him inside me now and I hated myself for it but I was too far gone I needed him now I could feel his smirk against my skin fucker he knew what he did to my body he thrived on my need he’d enjoyed watching me beg for it in the past, yes that’s right I’ve begged for s*x from my mate before now I know I’m pathetic.

Apparently Nathan was too frustrated today to make it last. He picked me up, spreading my legs wide. I wrapped them around his waist moaning at the feel of him positioning himself at my entrance.

“ Do you want it baby?” He panted I closed my eyes not wanting to see the satisfied expression on his face.

“ yes” I said through gritted teeth begging my brain not to say it.

“ tell me” Nathan grunted, barely restraining himself from pushing into my core.

“ you know I f*****g want it, you s**t” I shouted at him hating us both, hating my body but most of all hating that I desperately wanted him more than I wanted my next breath.

He thrust into me hard making me scream out, I bit his lip trying to stop it hoping no one heard. Nathan never gave me time to adjust to him; he liked it hard and fast. He didn't give a s**t if I found my release, I did. I always did that’s the power of the mate bond unfortunately when your made for each other the s*x is always amazing even if under normal circumstances the s*x would be crap.

“ f**k you feel amazing,I’ve missed this” he growled into my neck in hailing deeply.

I didn’t answer him. I tried not to communicate in these times. I was always too pissed off at myself for giving in to him yet again.

Nathan burried his face in my neck again growling through his thrusts I knew he was having an internal battle with his wolf his wolf was desperate to mark me but Nathan was unwilling they had always been at odds once his wolf had even taken control during s*x, surprisingly his wolf was a gentle lover he’d made love to me not f****d me but he had also wanted to mark me.

I worried he’d lose control again one day and his wolf would claim me. I’d had prayed for him to lose control when I was eighteen and he’d be forced to acknowledge me as his mate but it wasn’t what I wanted anymore I didn’t want to be Nathan’s mate I hated him, using me for s*x like this. I cried out finding my realise my body betraying me yet again Nathan pulled out of me squirting his seed over my stomach, making me feel utterly disgusting.

Nathan stood there panting for a moment, his head still resting against my shoulder unwilling to let me go. normally he’d be dressed by now this was new.

It was making me uncomfortable. Nathan was never tender with me he used me for my body now and then but as soon as he was done he was back in Kelly’s arms like a shot.

“ I don’t like you round Mitchel Alisha you smell like him” he panted into my neck, I couldn’t give a s**t what he liked or didn’t like.

“ You smell like Kelly but I’ve never bitched to you about it” sometimes it was obvious he’d been with Kelly and then come straight to me, it was worse that I still couldn’t say no even with the knowledge he’d been with Kelly moments before.

“ don’t pretend to care Nathan you’ve never given a s**t who I smell like before”. I said trying to push him away but he held me in place.

“ you’ve never had other males scents on you before” he looked at me in anger, it was obvious this session had been fueled by my earlier moment with Mitchell.

“ jealous much” I spat in anger.

“ I don’t like it Alisha I want you to stop hanging out with him” he pressed me harder against the wall I could feel his seed squelching against our stomachs and I cringed disgusted he’d done that, he was marking his territory he used a condom any other time but today he hadn’t bothered which was unlike him. Nathan had obviously been very frustrated by my earlier interaction with Mitchell he’d always been careful to make sure I didn’t get pregnant but today he hadn’t even bothered accept to pull out.

“ You're not really in a position to make demands of me Nathan were not mates remember” Nathan’s face was a picture of rage, his usual handsome face looked almost ugly. He suddenly let go of me leaving me to drop on the floor.

“ arsehole” I muttered as he turned his back to me grabbing his jeans. As revenge I grabbed his tattered shirt wiping my stomach clean of his mess while he was pulling his jeans up, when I was done I threw it back on the ground then set about finding my own clothes I managed to get my jeans and bra on before Nathan knew what I’d done.

“ oh f*****g hell Alisha” he roared picking up his ruined shirt in disgust.

“Stop bitching it’s ruined anyway or would you rather someone smells you all over me and runs to tell your female” I wasn’t normally this chatty or insulting I normally just got dressed and left wanting the moment to be over.

“You can buy me a new shirt since you ruined this one, stupid b***h” he threw it at me and I threw it back at him, like f**k I would If he had left me alone his shirt would be fine. He watched me pulling my top over my head with disgust written on his face how did he manage it when he’d just had s*x with me he clearly wasn’t disgusted with my body.

I wrapped my arms around myself for comfort feeling stupid once again Nathan had beckoned me to him and I’d come crawling giving him exactly what he wanted from me to then be tossed aside like the w***e I was. I lived for the day he wouldn’t come to me for my body.

“You're my mate Nathan why can’t you just love me the way your supposed to” I whispered regretting the words as soon as they were out.