lost and found

ch. 2 scared nurses, giddy doctor, and angry Ivy

Normally having an extended stay at a hospital wouldn’t be that bad, maybe a little annoying and restless to a normal person, but normal I am not. A nutcase maybe, insane probably and the cause of all this madness the so proclaimed wolf the presides within my head. To say she was going to be put to sleep, so to speak, lightly was such a load a crap. Ivy was a nightmare of a headache almost the entire time I have been locked up here. Almost three damn months of her insistent whining, yelling and screaming.  

They have tried so many different pill combinations and concoctions that it's just starting to make my head spin. A couple of the combinations made me sick while a few of them almost sent me into cardiac arrest. Having this unwanted and uninvited guest in my head was exhausting. I had the eviction notice ready but she would not let me give it to her.  

One more week; I would give the doctors one more week to find a way to permanently block her. To say I had faith in them to be able to do that was a joke. The only way that I was going to be able to handle her was to disappear. I needed to go and learn how to either block her or live with her; whichever way it ended up I needed to do it on my own. That when I hacked my plan the day before my eighteenth birthday I was leaving. 

Knock. Knock. Knock. 

“come in,” I called to the nurse on staff. 

After opening the door, she stepped inside the small room and shut the door behind her. Flashing me a smile that I swear must be fake she took a seat on one of the chairs by the window. I watched as she sat there fidgeting with her pen while I waited for her to speak. Honestly, I felt sorry for whoever was unlucky enough to get assigned to me. Not like I was scary looking or anything. I may be a little on the taller side at 5’8 not to really muscular either not that I'm fat anything. My face says nothing but innocents with slightly plump lips, a nose that’s not quite button like and not fully straight, and my eyes they are big earthy brown orbs with amber flecks that people over the years have fawned over, and all of that is framed by my auburn and chestnut hair that frames my face in gentle waves. Nuh, it wasn’t my looks it was my reputation that scared the blonde sitting only inches from me squirming in her seat.  

The nurse, Sammantha Kirley is what her nametag read, sighed heavily before looking up at me with her grey-blue eyes screaming of her discomfort and unease. “Now miss Ackerson I’m Nurse Kirley I will be......” 

“Kirley was it? You can call me Autumn. I mean hey I’m only seventeen no need to add formalities.”  

“R-r-ri-right. I'm s-so-sorry miss Ack- I mean Autumn as you wish,” she stammered quickly looking down at the notepad in her lap, “As I was saying I will be your nurse for the day. So, I’ll take your vitals while we wait for Dr.Hannessen. 

Rolling my eyes, I watched as she quickly stood to get things together. It was just the same thing just a different day nothing new other than what the doctor prescribed. Whether it worked or not was it a true mystery. Sighing in boredom I glance over and watched as she moved to the door and pulled in a cart. Kirley was short compared to me probably 4’8 but no mare then 5’2 she was so petite. Coming over to the bed she trembled not wanting to be close to me.  

“May I’ she gestured to my arm which I quickly offered already annoyed by her fear of me. Then again how could I blame them; when Ivy tries to get out all bets are off.  

Grumbling, I watched as the woman who is supposed to be the professional here struggled with shaking hands to put the blood pressure cuff on me. When I couldn’t take watching her struggle anymore so I grabbed it from her, “just let me do it!” 

Strapping the cuff in place on my arm I glanced up to gesture for the thermometer I realized Nurse Kirley had jumped back frighted by my outburst. I suppose I might have come across a bit harshly but how hard is it to put a blood pressure cuff on someone. Reputation makes everything so difficult.  

Reputation, it is also the reason why I am in this room which is locked at all times. A small hospital bed a dresser a bedside table some chairs and a small table to eat and study at, supervised of course. Then there is the small bathroom with a shower a sink and a toilet no mirror though. Why no mirror you might ask, cause if it broke, I could use it to hurt myself or other with it; that’s why.  

After I finished taking my own vitals the nurse quickly wrote down the numbers before wheeling the cart back out into the hallway. She returned moments later with the doctor in tow.  

“So how are you doing today Autumn?” Dr.Hannessen asked as he slides into one of the available chairs 

Plastering a smile faker than fake on my face I replied, “Just Peachy.” scrunching up my nose in the process for effect. 

“Still as sarcastic as ever I see.” He chuckled before continuing,” Well shall we begin then.” 

“Not like I have much of a choice now, do I?” I threw back at him.  

‘Of course, you have a choice stupid just let me take the reins and we can bust out of here’ ivy retorted  

Groaning loudly, I turned my focus inward at the annoyance in my head. ‘nobody asked you so shut so the f**k up. We...sorry no, I am here because of you. I don’t want anything to do with you but I guess I'm stuck with you so the least you could do is shut up and go crawl back to your corner.’ 

‘No, I am not going to sit back quietly while you try over and over again to get rid of me. I am a part of you so I won't be going anywhere. Got that, but by all means, keep playing these games. When you are finally ready to accept who you are which is a werewolf I will be right here waiting.’  

‘Is this a cease-fire then?’ I asked sceptical of her intent not quite sure on what angle she was trying to pull or whether she was being legit. 

‘Of course not. Why would you even think I would do such a thing.’ Ivy snorted  

‘Did you or did you not say that you would let me continue playing these games as you soundly put it.?!’ she was really starting to irritate me now my annoyance and anger slowly coming through more and more with each word. 

‘You're a werewolf, I am your wolf’ she growled, ‘how much clearer to I have to be for you to understand.’ 

'I don’t know! Why don’t you spell it out for me than? Not like I’m taking the hints. I mean not like I can think straight ever with you always howling and having to put your snot and your two sense where it doesn’t belong.’ Our conversation had quickly blown up into a full-blown yelling march inside my head. I am sure by now the doc and nurse scaredy-cat was trying to restrain me to bed. Blackouts those were the most common of my episodes; When she would try to take control over my body force. Deep angry conversations between to the two of us like this one were the other. 

‘Fine,’ she snarled, ‘I will spell it out for the pea brain I was so unlucky to have gotten stuck with. As a wolf, I am going to fight. Fight for my human half, our mate when we finally meet him, our family which for the time being is just me and you, and our pack if you would ever just trust me and embrace who you are. And just to let your sorry ass know I’m not going to stop fighting for any of those things until the day I die. Sorry to tell you this but I’m connecting to you so I am not dying unless you die. Is clear enough for you.’ Ivy spat out the last part just as I felt the poke of a needle in my arm. 

Focusing my eyes on the Dr.Hannessen who now stood over me. As he shook his head with a slight frown upon his face opening his mouth to speak but nothing, he said reached me before the curtains were pulled on my eyes and dark emptiness overtook me