Connor’s POV
Looking at the photos I have around my office here in the packhouse, I can’t help but remember everything that has happened over the last eighteen years. It was all such a whirlwind of emotions and feelings. I was twenty years old and had my Lycan Zeus for a few years by that point. My parents were tired of ruling and desperately wanted to pass me the title. I was to be the Alpha King. The issue though was that I did not have my Luna.
I could have ruled without my Luna, knowing I would eventually meet her. My father, however, was old-fashioned, and felt I needed to have my partner with me from the start. A month or so after we had this conversation, there was a mating ball at the palace. I had been walking around, greeting everyone, when it was as if the stars aligned perfectly. I turned around and there, in front of me, was my beautiful mate.
I can’t help but smile as I remember her. My Cora was a vision. She had long, silky brown hair, with the brightest blue eyes I’ve ever seen. He was around 5’7 or so. I could tell she wasn’t necessarily a warrior, but she took care of herself. She was lean and toned. When we locked eyes and saw the smile that graced her lips, I knew I was done. I would give this woman whatever she wanted in life if she remained mine forever.
Things moved fast after we met. My parents were extremely excited, and our ceremony was planned for a month from when we met. In that time, Cora and I mated for the first time and subsequently marked each other. I had saved myself for her and was equally happy that she had saved herself for me. It was the most beautiful night I had experienced thus far in my life. The next day, we shifted together, and I met her Lycan, Heti. Her beast was beautiful, with dark brown fur that was just as silky as Cora’s hair.
Our ceremony came and went, and we were crowned King and Queen of the Lycans. Soon enough, we found out that the Goddess had blessed us, and Cora was pregnant. We were shocked when we found out at the first ultrasound that we were expecting triplets. I was over the moon, tears streaming down my face as I looked at this woman, the love of my life, and thanked her repeatedly for all she was giving me.
My mate was a warrior. Carrying three Alpha pups is no small feat. Soon enough though, their time had come. She went into labor, and we became parents. Our pups were beautiful. Triplet boys. I remember Zeus puffing out his chest in my mind, and me chuckling lightly at him because I was doing the same thing. We named them Cade, Calvin, and Callum. Like when I met Cora, I knew I was done for. This was truly the happiest I had ever been. I couldn’t imagine anything better than this.
Cora, our boys, and I had a beautiful life together for five years. We were celebrating our boys’ birthday when that all came to an end. Rogues dared to attack our pack on that day. To this day I still do not know why they did it or what they were hoping to gain. I asked Cora to help get the boys and everyone else in the bunkers as she normally would, but the rogues spilled in so fast that we couldn’t contain them.
I was fighting hard, trying to make my way back to the packhouse to help. I could sense the fear and anxiety from Cora through our bond. I kept fighting, inching my way closer to her, my family, to my life, when suddenly I felt a sharp pain in my chest. Suddenly, Zeus let out a loud, pain-filled howl. It was like life had stopped. I remember him chanting Mate! Go to her, Connor! Go now! We plowed through everyone we had to, but we made our way over to her. When I saw her though, I couldn’t breathe.
Zeus was whimpering in my head as we slowly walked over to our beautiful Mate. Cora had shifted into Heti at some point, because when we found her, she was naked. Her arms and legs had claw marks all over them, but what really caught my attention was the gaping wound in her stomach. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes, but I did my best to remain strong. I kneeled beside her, taking one of her hands in mine, and cupping one of her cheeks. Her breathing was shallow and the light in her eyes were dimming. Her eyes met mine and she smiled as best she could. I laid down beside her carefully. I wanted to pull her to me, but I didn’t want to cause her anymore pain than she was already in. She gently squeezed my hand and looked me in the eyes. “I love you, Connor. I love you and our boys so much,” she choked out. I smiled at her, tears streaming down my face. “I love you too, my Cora. I love you more than my own life.” I leaned down, gently pressing my lips to hers at the exact moment she took her last breath.
I can’t help the tears that still spill from me when I think about that day. I was a widow and a single father at twenty-six years old. Telling the boys was the hardest part. Cora was our rock. She held us together, and without her, I honestly feared what would become of us. My father stepped into leadership for a while, so I had time to grieve. I did my best to be there for the boys, and I hope to this day that I did my mate proud.
It has been a long fifteen years. I wasn’t granted a second chance mate, nor did I take a chosen mate. No one would replace my Cora. I could live happily with my boys and hopefully some day I would watch them grow a family of their own. The boys are readying to take over for me, but as much as I disagreed with my father at the time, I want them to have their Luna or Lunas as well.
I’m pulled out of my thoughts by Zeus whimpering in my mind. What’s up, buddy? Looking into my mind, I see my big, ferocious beast curled up in a ball. I miss our mates, Connor. I didn’t think it would still be so hard after all this time, but it feels like it is true what they say.
I c**k my head to the side, confused. I don’t think we are supposed to continue living without our mates. I still feel like my soul left when they went to the Goddess that day. I’m glad we’ve been here to watch our pups grow and raise them, but I don’t know if I want to be here anymore.
All I can do is sit there quietly and soak in what Zeus is saying. If I’m being honest with myself and him, I have felt the same way since that day. Nothing has been the same. How about a run?
He nods quietly, standing up in my mind as I walk outside. I go behind the packhouse, take off my clothes, and hand over control to Zeus. He shifts quickly, takes hold of my clothes, and then takes off into the woods. We run forever, chasing bunnies and smaller animals. Looking through his eyes, I see the lake up ahead. Zeus agrees with my thought process and takes us there.
As we approach the lake, Zeus hands back control and we shift back. I get dressed again behind a tree, then walk over and sit under the big willow tree that sits on the shore. I lean against the big tree that has been on this land for decades, close my eyes and suck in a deep breath. I lean against the sturdy trunk while enjoying the light breeze blowing across the water. It is so peaceful here. It is my favorite spot in our entire territory.
I sit there for a while, just enjoying the peace I feel, when suddenly, a scent invades my senses. It smells of vanilla and… Lavender…Zeus whimpers in my mind. Lavender was part of Cora’s scent, but why am I smelling it now? I sit up, Zeus and I sharing control as he tries desperately to find the source of the scent that is driving us crazy. Looking all around me, neither of us sees anything. Using Zeus’ sharp eyesight, we look all around the lake, trying to follow the scent with our nose.
Suddenly, there she is. A beautiful white wolf laying under another willow tree on the other side of the lake. I strip and Zeus shifts us quickly. We grab my clothes and bolt around the perimeter of the water. We make it to the other side and slow down. We notice the she-wolf has not shifted back, so we stay in our beast form and slowly walk over in front of her. Zeus drops my clothes on the ground and lets out a low whimper, quickly getting her attention. She looks into our eyes and hers widen. I am floored when Zeus starts chanting Mate! Mate! MATE! I stand there, frozen, unbelieving that this is happening again. The Goddess does love us, my human. She truly does.
Zeus wants to go straight to her, but sits down on his haunches, observing her as he inhales her scent. Lavender and vanilla.. I never thought I would smell that scent on anyone again, Connor.
I am just as surprised as he is. I look over to her as she observes us. Zeus picks up our clothes, and we gesture behind the tree, hoping she will take the hint that we want to talk. She gets up, taking her clothes that are folded beside her. We quickly shift back and change while she does the same. We end up walking out at the same time. Her eyes widen when they meet mine. “I.. I never imagined this would happen again..” she stutters out as tears well in her beautiful jade eyes.
“I didn’t either if I’m being honest. What is your name, mate?” I ask her, trying to calm my nerves.
“I am Maria Holt.”
“It’s nice to meet you, Maria. I am Connor Black.” She looks down shyly and blushes.
“Yes, your highness. I know who you are.”
We sit down and talk for what feels like forever. Finding out that she is also a widow was unexpected. Maybe this was the Goddesses’ way of making it up to both of us, though. We are both nervous about what our children will think, but for right now just sitting here with her and getting to know her is all I can think about. She touches me and the tingles are amazing. Zeus is purring in my mind, the most content I have felt him since that awful day fifteen years ago.
I close my eyes and let out a deep sigh. Thank you Moon Goddess. Thank you for saving us and giving us another chance at life.