Crush

i wish

was in class 9th when I first met her, in the month of November and it was a coincidence as I got late that day and then this happened I saw a girl struggling with her cycle chain and seeking for some help but no one was there so after seeing that I stopped my cycle and asked her if she needs any help not like other girls she didn`t said no because she was indeed very helpless and was wanting someone who could help her so the moment I asked her if she needs any help she immediately replied that “yes, please”.. I was able to see the tension on her face but not further focusing on her face, I focused on the cycle chain but then I realized that it was front chain which was out from the excel and even I didn`t know how to put it back again but now it was not just about helping her it was about my self-respect too so after struggling for some time I was finally able to put the chain back again and after that finally a relief smile was on her face but in this all struggle period all the chain dust was on my hands and even my dress got dirty too , but not focusing on that I focused on her as how happy she was and I was lost in her smile but then the next moment she shook my shoulder and offered me her handkerchief to clean my hands but I refused to take her handkerchief but then she forced me to do that so then I didn`t said “No”. after all it was a girl order so how can I deny that and after cleaning my hands a bit, I told her to be careful and reach soon as it was quite late but then she said can we go together?? even I wanted the same but I told her if we will go together you will be later but she didn`t listen to me and was stubborn in going with me then again I was unable to say her no, so we started moving together and later I asked her name and class she was in, she replied with a smile and said “Supriya and I`m in 9th standard” and then she asked my name and class too so even I replied with a smile and said my name is “Deepak and I`m also in class 9th” after talking all the stuff we reached to a turn whereby taking right I would reach my home and by taking left she would reach her home, I didn`t know about her feeling but I didn`t want to go from that side but as I said it was late so then I said let`s make our way. But for a while she didn`t said anything but then she replied with a smile that are we meeting tomorrow as well then only I`ll go this way or else I won`t be going and after seeing her smile I was just mesmerized so I just said “yes”, we are meeting tomorrow too after school in front of your school gate” after listening this she smiled again and said okay then I`ll go and will wait for you tomorrow, and then she took a turn and when she started moving then even I took the turn and started moving but while going home one question was popping again n again in my brain that what she saw in me which let her do all these things and how fast things are moving I was very confused throughout my way to home or even might be because by every passing hour I was getting more nervous and then finally school was over, while going parking my friends asked me to come with them but I said them no, so they all went and lastly I also started moving and after few minutes I was outside of her school gate where I saw her waiting for me alone and by seeing her standing alone my all nervousness just went off as if nothing was happened to me yet, so then finally I went to her we smiled by looking at each other and shake our hands and then we started walking instead of riding cycle on her demand, we started talking about how was your day and stuff like all other things but during all those conversations one question just stucked me which was “ so were you nervous throughout the day and even yesterday too” this question again putted me back into nervousness that what will gonna happen the next moment when I will tell her that “yes I was” but before I could answer she whispered that “I was so much” after hearing that I asked her the same question , she cutely replied that “obviously!! Just like you were” I smiled after hearing that answer from her. Then after talking throughout the way we again reached to the turn and like yesterday we both stopped but today we both were silent coz none of us wanted to go alone but yet again we were getting late but then she asked me ‘will you mind if I come with you this way’ after listening to this I was actually happy but I realized one thing and thought to say her no because by taking this route she would reach late and we were already late. But I don`t know why I didn`t say anything and just said ‘yeah sure’ I would love that and with this, we again started moving together and talking but this time during those ongoing conversation I asked her one question “are you happy…..I mean how are you feeling”…. She smiled and replied that what can you see from my face, ‘I said’ “seems to be happy” she said yes Deeps I`m very happy coz I haven`t felt this much connectivity and safe with anyone after hearing this I didn`t know what to reply as I have heard this for the very first time that someone is happy because of me and feeling secure coz of my presence but then I controlled my emotions and started acting normally but I couldn`t control my blushing so after seeing that she whispered softly “I know even you are happy” after hearing this I was out of my senses and was blushing like an i***t, so does she, but then I stopped and asked her “why did you call me Deeps instead of Deepak” so she replied that I found it cuter for you. And after walking for so long we again reached to a turning from where she has to take the left turn or else by taking my way she will reach more late but I was able to see the sadness on her face so I said let`s go I`ll come with you till your colony gate, she just looked at me as if what good I have done by saying this but then she said no I will