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I AM YOUR QUEEN!

Pain.

So much pain was running through my body I could hardly move as I lay in my bed. For weeks now, Sai and Hadeem have been coming at me twice a day. Their training is rough and brutal. If this is them holding back, then I would hate to face them at full strength. They have me running, jumping, and dodging as warms up, and after that, their fun begins. Sai has been teaching me defensive tactics while Hadeem handles the offense.

They have taught me hand-to-hand combat, swordplay, and the bow. I quite like the bow. I would say that is where I am strongest. The physical work is hard, but I would not say that is the worst of it. It's their demeanor and words. They taunt and humiliate me nonstop, pushing me well past my breaking point. They asked Adbay and Sadmir not to attend our training session, and I quickly found out why. If they were there, the men would be fighting, nothing would get done, and I would never make any progress. Not that I feel like I have made any anyway.

Adbay and Samir ask me how training is going, and I tell them what they need to know and want to hear. I won't give Sai and Hadeem the satisfaction of whining about them to my other mates. It wouldn't get me anywhere; the men would fight, but nothing would change, so I must endure. Today's training was by far the worse. On top of the harsh regiment and taunting, they have upped their game by touching and kissing me when I least expect it, throwing me off my game.

On nights when I have the energy, I take Adbay or Sadmir to bed so geared up I must make a lot of noise because the next day, Sai and Hadeem tease me endlessly about it. Sai takes every chance he can to touch me and remind me of how bad I begged for him under the tree. While Hadeem gives me the worse mental images of everything he would like to do to me. It's the sweetest torture ever. My body was broken down and in pain but, simultaneously, revved up and sexually frustrated.

Sai and Hadeem never miss a chance to tell me that if I still have that much energy for s*x, then I must not be trying hard enough, so our sessions on those days last even longer. Today was one of those days, but the worse came when Hadeem revealed a big revelation to me.

"You f****d them, hard and long but its not quite hitting the spot is it Amita. It's because what you crave only Sai and I can give you. But we won't. You aren't worthy. You will suffer and want until we say it ends." He ordered.

His words hit me in my mind, chest, and p***y. I was angry but, most of all, turned on. After that, whenever they said something or touched me, I couldn't hold back my reactions. Every time I shivered, they would too. If a moan escaped my lips, they would groan. It was the wild, my body aching in all different kinds of ways. Our breathing is hard, bodies sweating. It was almost getting to a point where I wanted to beg them to take me and break me.

At night when I slept, I was with Sanjay. He and I were getting to know each other very well. At least the Sanjay in my dreams. I didn't know how he would react to me in reality when his monster took over; it scared me. My mind and body had no room for fear as my eyes finally drifted close, and sleep took me.

Sanjay is there waiting for me, like every night for weeks. We settled in and relaxed, enjoying each other's company. Sanjay was quiet, only talking when he needed to. He wasn't excited like every night before; he almost seemed sad. He smirked and shook his head before kissing me deeply when I asked him about it. I got lost in the kiss fast, wanting nothing more than to have him. Sanjay removed my shirt, and I was shocked and pleased. He never took it past kissing, but it seemed tonight he wanted more, and I was ready to give it to him when suddenly he pulled away and groaned.

He was clutching his chest and shaking his head, fear written all over his face. I called his name and asked him what was wrong but he couldn't or wouldn't answer me. Blood appeared on his shirt and forehead when he looked at me abruptly. He whispered my name before he was yanked away from me and disappeared, his body fading away. I screamed his name over and over, but he never came back. Vipin. What was I doing? I have been wasting time. I needed to save Sanjay before he was lost to me forever.

I pulled myself out of my dream with a loud scream that woke my mates. They all came rushing into my room. All four of them with a fearful determined look on their faces. My heart racing and beads of sweat running down my face, I was done playing games. I got out of bed and walked straight to my closet to get dressed. My mates watched me get dressed, all modesty out the window. The sun was just rising, and I wasn't just going to sit around when Sanjay was in trouble. I didn't care; I wouldn't care about anything that didn't get me closer to Sanjay. When I was fully dressed and ready to train, I walked up to Sai and Hadeem, no longer afraid.

"You need to train me faster. No more games, teach me what I need to know. We are running out of time. You were right I am weak, so make me stronger. The faster the better. There is no more time to waste. I'll be waiting." I said with a deadly voice.

I marched down the hall and headed straight for the training field.

"Finally." Sai grunted out.

But I was no longer going to let his word hurt me. I was going to use them to fuel me. With a satisfied smile, I continued to walk.

Four weeks later

I finally did it. It took weeks, but I bested Sai and Hadeem. All the knowledge, training, and working out I was doing paid off, but it wasn't enough. Adbay and Sadmir came to me one night explaining that I needed to trust myself and my magic to become stronger. Yes, it is physical, Sai and Hadeem had years of training on me, and they were bigger, stronger. I had to find a way to make my attacks hit harder to wound them, and that's when my magic would come into play.

Sai and I had been going at each other for over 15 minutes. For once, he could not pin or subdue me, and when he finally realized I wasn't going down without a fight, the real battle began. I dodged, rolled, jumped, kicked, and punched my heart out. All it did was keep Sai at bay. When I least expected it, large arms wrapped around my torso, pinning my arms to my body. Hadeem had me in a stronghold that was taking too long for me to break. The harder I tried to break it, the tighter he squeezed. It felt like at any moment, he would break a rib. If I let that happen, I was done for, and I was tired of failing.

Sai was gunning for me and headed our way. When Sai was close enough, I held my breath and pushed out a massive wave of power strong enough to hurt them…badly. Not like they haven't hurt me time and time again, I didn't feel an ounce of remorse. I felt powerful. Hadeem's hold on me vanished instantly, and they both flew a few feet away, landing hard on their backs, neither of them moving. I had my hands on my knees, leaning over to catch my breath. When I felt stable enough, I stood to my full height.

Our fight had drawn attention; soldiers, guards, and random people surrounded us, and when my eyes landed on my mates, my heart stopped. Adbay and Sadmir had such a look of pride on their face it was contagious. I did feel proud of myself, for the first time in a long time, if not ever. I looked back to Hadeem and Sai, still lying on their backs, not moving. I'm sure I didn't kill them, but they will feel that blow for a while. A few guards stepped forward to ask my permission to take Sai and Hadeem to the infirmary, which I granted; as much as I may not like them, I still wanted them well.

I walked over to Adbay and Sadmir with a smug look. Not only did I best Sai and Hadeem, I clearly kicked their asses. When they woke up, they would know who their queen was.

"I am so turned on right now. I want you upstairs in your room naked my queen." Sadmir growled while taking a handful of my ass.

I bit my lip and fluttered my eyes at the pleasure I felt from that tiny action. I was turned on. Sai and Hadeem had teased me for weeks, mocked me, and made me feel lower than low, and in the end, I had them spread out and on their backs. I ran toward the castle with Adbay and Sadmir hot on my tail. It was a power trip like nothing else. What a glorious day this was turning out to be.

Hours later, after getting some much-needed attention from my mates, a very fulfilling meal, and a nice hot relaxing bath, I found myself lying in bed with a good book. I just wanted to pass the time until I was ready to go to bed when the door swung open and banged against the wall. Sai fills the doorway with Hadeem behind him, their chest puffed up and staring hard as ice. I smile lightly, shaking my head and closing my book. For once, fear does not run through my body; instead, humor takes the wheel.

"Look who decided to wake up. Did you have a nice nap?" I mock.

They ignore my words and slowly enter my bedroom before Hadeem closes the door and locks it. Oh no, this can't be good; they might want to retaliate from our earlier battle. If that's the case, bring it on; I know I can take them now, and so do they. If a fight is what they want, then a fight is what they get. Sai charges at me, and I quickly get in my battle stance. At the last minute, he drops his scowl, and a vast smile spreads across his face before a booming laugh leaves his mouth. Taking advantage of my confused state, he wraps his arms around my waist before picking me up and spinning me around.

"You did it! I knew you could! I knew you had it in you! I could not be more proud!" He yells.

An awkward laugh leaves me. I didn't expect this from Sai. After weeks of his brutal, cold, and no-nonsense hard exterior, I didn't think he had a playful side to him. After he places me down, Hadeem scoops me up and praises me too. I don't know what to think; I'm so caught off guard. When I am set on my feet again, the men give me room to breathe, and I am thankful for it.

"So what happens now?" I ask.

"What exactly are you referring to? Us or the war?" Sai replies.

"Both I guess."

"You can have us now. You have proved to be worthy of us and to be honest, we don't want to wait another moment." Hadeem whispers before taking a step toward me.

I hold my hand up to stop him. The gull of these men. Great, I showed them I am strong, but what have they shown me? How to hurt, humiliate, and treat me like trash, and now they think I will just drop my panties, spread my legs and offer myself up on a platter. It's humiliating, degrading, and, more than anything else, pisses me off.

I lift my other hand and call on my powers. I feel the air rush past me before wrapping itself around Sai and Hadeem.

"Amita, what are you doing?" Sai asks in a panicked voice.

Good, I have their attention now. I push harder, and their feet lift off the floor.

"Listen to me and listen well. From the moment I woke up, you have treated me less than. I have never once felt like your mate, and you have not treated me like one either, and now that I meet your requirements, you think you can just have access to my body?" I just laugh in disbelief. Suddenly a spark of anger rushes through my body so fast I can't catch it.

" IT WASN'T ME WHO WAS NOT WORTHY OF YOU BUT IN FACT THE OTHER WAY AROUND. I AM YOUR QUEEN!" I yell.

The room walls shake with the force of my voice, pictures fall off the walls, lights flicker, and the men rise higher. The anger I felt over the weeks has reached a new peak. I wanted them, no, needed them to understand how I felt, knowing they thought so little of me.

"I am your queen," I whisper now, trying to calm the storm raging in my heart, mind, and body. Movement catches my eye at the door, and I see Adbay and Sadmir standing there watching. Their eyes are huge, and their mouths are open. I place my attention back on Sai and Hadeem.

"From this day forth you will treat me as such. I will tolerate your ill treatment toward me no more. You will earn my love and body now when before I met you I would have giving it to you freely. I would have opened my arms and loved you dearly but you seceded. You broke me, you threw away what could have been and now you will have to repair it or leave me be. The only thing I ask of you now is to unlock my chakras so that I may move further into this journey and war and closer to saving Sanjay." I insisted.

I drop my hands, and with them, my mates fall hard to the floor. I turn from them to glance out the window. I have nothing else to say. I voiced my anger, fear, worry, pain, and wants. The ball is in their courts. They can either agree or walk away. I don't think we will be staying here much longer anyway.

"Who do you want to to unlock a chakra first and when?" Hadeem speaks.

I turn my head to acknowledge him but remain silent for a beat. To be honest, I am shocked; I thought they would tuck tail and run at being manhandled like that. I guess I still have a lot to learn about these men.

"Either of you will do. It does not matter who goes first as long as it gets done soon. One of you tonight, the other in the morning. We don't have much time." I trembled. Each day that goes by without me knowing what is happening to Sanjay, I lose more and more hope.

"Then I will go first." Hadeem volunteers. "How is this done?"

Relief enters my heart; Adbay is like my right hand. He always knows when I need him the most and when to step in. Adbay chooses that moment to step into the room and explain what needs to happen. I took this time to gather myself. I needed to let go of all the anger coursing through my body, all the resentment, and pain. I need to be able to push past it and open myself up for a new beginning with them. I took deep breaths and stared at the stars in the sky. Slowly but surely, my mood was changing.

When solid and steady arms wrapped around my waist and Sadmir's scent reached my nose, my body instantly relaxed. He leaned in and kissed my neck, giving me desperately needed words of encouragement. In no time at all, I was feeling like myself again. That's the effect Sadmir had on me. He was my Manipura mate; he was me. He helped me tap into my identity and personal power. When we were balanced, he poured strength, courage, willpower, and self-esteem into me. All the things I need at this very moment.

Adbay cleared his throat, and when no one spoke up, I untangled myself from Sadmir's arms and faced the room.

"I'm ready if you are." Hadeem mumbled.

I wasn't ready, but time was ticking, and this needed to be done. I nod, and everyone starts to clear out, everyone but Hadeem. We were utterly alone now, but I wasn't going to make the first move. Hadeem took a step toward me, but my body language said to stay away.

"Amita." He pleaded. His voice broke, and he took a deep inhale. "Please, can I just hold you?"

It was the last thing I expected him to say. He was trying, but I was giving him nothing.

"Okay." I whispered.

Hadeem made his way toward the bed. He kicked off his boots and shucked off his jacket before climbing on and getting settled. His back leaned against the headboard as he spread his legs, patting the spot between them. Honestly, I wanted to be held, I was losing my fight to stay mad, and when he opened his arms, I couldn't resist. He expected me to sit between his legs, but I needed more. I climbed on top of the bed, moved his legs together, straddled his lap, wrapped my arms around his neck, and laid my head on his shoulder. My heart was pounding as I breathed him in. This was the closest I had ever been to Hadeem without him trying to take me out. He was so still; I think he was afraid to touch me.

"You said you wanted to hold me, so hold me." I urged.

It still took him a minute, but eventually, his arms came around me and held me tight. We sat there for a while just holding each other, neither of us breaking the silence, and I was beginning to worry. What were we doing? I didn't want to be the one to make the first move, I didn't really know Hadeem, or I didn't know all of him at least. I knew his rough and rugged side very well, actually. It turned me on as much as it pissed me off.

"Amita." Hadeem whispers.

I tense up in his arms, but soon he moves his hands up and down my back in a soothing gesture making me feel safer than I have in months. I silently start to cry, but Hadeem still hears me anyway. He pulls me closer and starts rocking.

"I know you're scared. You have a lot on your shoulders and I guess in the grand scheme of things Sai and I haven't been a big help. I'm sorry for that. I am so sorry. We thought we were building you up by breaking you down and remolding you but we took it too far. We didn't realize that until you had our balls in your hands and you voiced your hurt. We didn't mean to break you Amita, we only wanted to make you stronger. We will spend the rest of our lives gaining your trust and love and we are happy to do it." He admits.

His voice holds nothing but sincerity, and I hate that. Where is the tough asshole man I have grown to know because this isn't him?

"You were suppose to be my mate. I'm suppose to feel loved and safe with you and I feel anything but that. I feel so scared all the time." I sobbed.

"I know, I know baby and that was my mistake. Let me and Sai make it up to you. We want to get to know you and care for you the same as Adbay and Sadmir."

I pull my head off his shoulder to look at him.

"How do you know what Sai wants?" I asked.

He sighs and runs his hand down the back of my head.

"Because when we came to, before we came to your room we talked. We were so happy you took us out. We were so proud we were wrong about you. We both agreed that the hardness needed to stop and when you put us in our place and told us how you truly felt about the way we were treating you it broke my heart. I want you to know me, the real me and I you. Give me a chance to make it up to you." He pleaded.

It didn't feel like he was playing a trick on me or teaching me another lesson, but I still had to ask him anyway. It made him laugh and a deep rich chuckle that I felt in my bones as he reassured me that it was neither. I nodded in agreement, and a moment later, the pounding in my lower back made itself known.

"Its time Hadeem, I feel it but I want to tell you something first." I added.

"Anything."

"When Adbay and Sadmir unlocked my chakras I felt so much pleasure from it it was too much. I needed to have them, to bed them, but I'm not ready to take that step with you. I know its going to be hard but I need you to promise me it wont go that far. I need you to resist, I need you to stop me, no matter what I say. Can you do that for me." I asked.

"I can and will do anything for you. I promise it wont go that far. You have my word." He pledged.

I felt safer already as I laid my head back on his shoulder.

"I'm ready when you are," I told him and felt him shift as he took something out of his pocket. I felt something cold touch the base of my back, and the pounding started to beat harder. My guess is it was the Red Jasper crystal that would aid in unlocking my chakra. My body started to heat up, and I could already feel the first tingles of pleasure run up my body. I grip the back of Hadeem's neck and shirt as my breathing picks up.

"Muladahara," Hadeem whispered so quietly I almost didn't hear it. Power surged up my body faster than I anticipated, stilling my breath from me, filling me up, and then pleasure. Pleasure so great I had no hope in containing it. My body shook, and my head jerked back as a red beam of light left my mouth, shot straight up through the roof, and came down all around his. Moans were escaping my mouth now, and I just had to have him. My lips slammed down on his cutting off the beam of light. My tongue shot into his mouth, tasting every inch of it, and God did he taste amazing. I wanted no I needed his hands on me.

"Take me Hadeem, please take me. I need you. Touch me, touch me everywhere I'm yours." I begged.

My hips started to move, and I could feel his pants' heavy, thick bulge; he wanted me to.

"I can't Amita, I promised you remember. I can't break that promise. You will never forgive me if I did." He groaned.

"I don't care about that now just please I feel everything but you. I need you."

I attacked him, yanking on his clothes, trying to pull them off. I needed his skin touching mine. I moved fast, but he wanted to stop me at every turn.

"HELP! SAI! ADBAY! SADMIR! I NEED YOU! GET IN HERE!" Hadeem yelled.

The door banged open, and my mates came rushing in, but I didn't let that stop me. I licked my lips and dragged them down Hadeem's neck before biting him hard, making him moan so loud it made me leak my juices like a faucet. Ah yes, more mates to f**k.

"Help me with her please. I promised her I wouldn't bed her but I am loosing my will. If you don't get her off me I will take her and it wont be pretty." Hadeem insisted.

My mates yanked me off Hadeem, but a burning soon replaced my pleasure, and I screamed to the high heavens.

"Hadeem! Hadeem! Please, I need Hadeem. It hurts, I need him." I sobbed as the burning coursing through my body increased.

"It can be only you, you need to bring her to climax or this will never end." Adbay demanded.

"But I can't I promised her. If I do she wont forgive me when she is back in her rational mind." Hadeem groaned.

"Just bring her to climax, you don't have to bed her to do that. I'll speak to her on your behalf later. She will forgive you, you are her mate. This can't be helped she will see reason in the end. She will understand and wont hold it against you. You have my word."

Pain flowed through my body as I listened to them debate. I no longer cared if Hadeem f****d me; I just needed him to stop the pain. I was full-on bawling now, the pain and burning so intense.

"Alight, strip her of her clothes. Get her naked." Hadeem order.

Adbay and Sadmir worked to get my clothes off while Sai continued to hold me down. I watched Hadeem strip his clothes, and the first signs of pleasure made themselves known in my p***y.

"Yes! Yes ! Yes!" I chanted.

When I was utterly naked, Hadeem laid his body down on top of mine, putting out the fire with my body. Sai still held my hands above my head as Hadeem started to lick and kiss the skin on my neck. I howled in pleasure when he bit the spot between my neck and shoulder. I spread my legs and started shifting, trying to get him inside me, but he kept moving to avoid the area. He made his way down my body, getting closer to my core. I could hardly wait; I needed him there now.

Hadeem spread my legs and blew on my p***y, making me shiver.

"Eat me Hadeem, put your mouth on me and eat me alive." I demanded.

When I felt the first lick of his tongue run up my silky folds, my hips shot off the bed. Hadeem grabbed them and forced them to stay down. Hands started rubbing on my body, adding to my pleasure as I moaned. Hadeem parted my puffy wet folds with his tongue and licked at my opening before flicking at my bud. Uncontrolled sounds of pleasure were leaving my mouth, and I no longer cared.

When Hadeem couldn't hold back, he attacked me. He lapped at my p***y hard and fast, sucking all the juices he produced from it. My legs were shaking so hard he had to tighten his grip on me. His mouth closed over my c**t and sucked.

"Oh God, yes! Don't stop. Don't stop. It feels so good." I screamed so loud I was sure anyone near my room would hear me.

Hands found their way to my breast, pulling and pinching my n*****s, bringing me closer to the edge. Hadeem kept working at me, eating me and taking his fill of my p***y. Sai still held onto my hands, and the feeling of being restrained only heightened my pleasure. Hadeem's mouth felt amazing on my body, and soon play time was over. He parted my lips again, licked a straight line to my c**t, and beat at it like a drum, alternating between sucking and licking, driving me insane.

I was almost there. Just a few more licks and sucks and I would be thrown over the edge, and I was ready for it. I wanted it, and so did Hadeem because the next second, he closed his mouth over my bud and sucked so hard I shattered.

"Ah! AH! AH! HADEEM!"

Euphoria crashed down on me, and all I could do was grip Sai's hands and hold on. I thrashed and bucked my hips in time with his licks, and I flew high. It was so good I started to cry again, it was almost too much, but I absolutely loved it. Stars that were bright red danced in front of my eyes, and I was flying.

I slowly started to come down from my high, and my body was beginning to feel cold as the heat from my body started to decrease. Hadeem laid down next to me, taking me in his arms and wrapping us in a blanket. Sai's hands released mine, and the rest of my mates left us to our privacy.

"Thank you Hadeem."

It's all I could get out and all I need to say. I felt him kiss me on my head, and a moment later, I was asleep.