ECHOES OF MY PAST

My life mistakes

This is just a full story of my life

I made a terrible mistake of my life which have never left my mind for years now

They are my mistakes and memories that refuse to stay buried

It kept me stagnant

I never moved further

I kept buried in my guilt.

The mistake that took the life of all my loved ones

I grew up in a place where peer pressure can easily influence your hold background

I personally was influenced.

I left the house to meet some group of girls who advised me to

I was so much loved at home but peer pressure made me left home

I wanted to be independent

I never wanted anyone to control me nor yell at me

Getting to be with girls made me to take a very bad decision

They have cars and everything

They already built a house at home

They are honoured by their family

They train there younger ones

Thier aura speaks for them

Their money is seen

But their source of wealth was never genuine

I didn't know there were in a secret cult

They fed me for almost a month until I asked one of them to teach me how to catch the fish and not how to give me fish

She agreed and told me to prepare myself

But she asked me if I have the mind to do whatever it takes

I agreed

And said yes

After sometimes that day she discussed with other girls and they agreed to help me

At night they gave me a white garment and ask me to join them in their vehicle

We got to their alter

It was all girls

Dressed in black

They called themselves

"The heartless angels"

I was strictly observing to know what it was all about

It was time for my initiation

I was asked if I needed double of it or they should take it slowly

I shouted double out of greed

I was given a paper to tear

I didn't know it was my mom and my dad name I was tiring

I tore them and immediately a pot was filled with blood

They gave me to drink

I finish drinking it

They said It is done

That I will receive a message later

I went home with them

As the meeting finished

Getting to my room

It was already filled with money

Before then condition was given

I shouldn't take care of any of my family nor help anyone in genuine need for help

I shouldn't eat what I cook

I must eat at a restaurant

I must not wear sanitary pad during my period

And of it all

I must not have anything to do with any man

I must not eat red meat

Everything was much

But I didn't feel it because I have started seeing the money

After moment I received a call that my mom and dad are dead

Another instruction given was that I must not attend to any of my family burial

I cried it was then I remembered what I tore

I met my friends and told them what happened

They just laughed and said that's the price you pay for it

"You even asked for double" the other added

I was confused

I left the house immediately

I went to a hotel where I cried out my eyes

Our first, second and third gathering in the coven I missed it

They came attacking me

Which nearly took my life

I decided to do out of my will I used the evil money they gave me to burry my parents.

A week later my body began to decay

I started Seeing my parents both physically and in my dreams

I left the hotel to a church where I confessed to the man of God

After prayers

I started treating myself

I recovered

Went to the grave of my late parents and apologised

After a week it was as if it was settled

But

I couldn't move on

I couldn't achieve anything

My parents spirit kept on echoing in my head

"Why me"

They keep crying in my dream

I was buried in my past

A past that took the life of those that loved me unconditionally

The day I went to look for work all I was seeing in the manager was my dad crying

I was so shocked

I have to go and look for a solution

I met the same pastor I met earlier

He said that my parents blood are still crying for revenge

That they did everything for me but I decided to pay them back in that way

I was more than cold

I went home crying

I cried all the days of my life

I went to my village confessed to them and I was thrown out of the village

I still can't believe that I don't have a home

I don't have any source of income

I don't have anything doing

I just live my life crying

I have taken poison many times but it didn't kill me

Then I know I was called to carry my cross of tears

I regretted all my actions

But my past kept echoing

Never let the world pressure you

Always be contented

Thank you