Hunted

Chapter 29: Session 1

Just because Colton and I had I guess you could call it a fight didn’t mean I got out of working with him. You would think that my dad being the Alpha and me being you know his child he would do as I asked him to do. Instead he told me that there were going to be people in life that you have to learn to get along with even if they upset you. So that’s where I was at…sitting in this small office day after day for the last 2 weeks doing my best to only discuss things related to work with Colton.

Hope had asked what happened between the two of us and I didn’t hide anything from her. I could tell she wanted me to be the bigger person and just forgive him and realize he wasn’t trying to be hurtful but he wouldn’t tell me the truth. I’m not going to put my trust in someone who doesn’t know how to be truthful.

Now we worked in mostly silence with the occasional “do you need anything?” or the “I’m going to be right back” with just a few directions on how to do things. Though he did enlist the help of another employee to help me. Janet was an elderly pack member who had been working in pack management since my grandfather was Alpha. She knew everything about the pack. Colton asked her to help me learn the ropes. I knew he didn’t want to be around me but to make some poor worker suffer having to train me when it wasn’t their job was a little bit annoying. I do have to say working with Janet was a hell of a lot better then the awkward silences I got from Colton.

When I told my dad about the new arrangement I could tell he wasn’t happy about it at first but he slowly got over it. I was supposed to meet with Dr. Colleen today to start the beginning of the new sessions we would be having. I got to leave work a little early today. I said goodbye to Janet before going to my shared office. I saw Colton sitting at his desk looking as annoyed as he had in the last few weeks. “I’m leaving early today.” I told him.

He didn’t even look up from his paperwork. “Okay see you tomorrow.” I sighed and walked away. There was a small part of me that wished I could just go back to not knowing he thought I was…pathetic or whatever he thought. I think it would be better if I knew what he thought instead of this constant guessing game it would make things so much easier. I could deal with whatever he felt..if I knew what it was. Instead I’m sitting here in the land of unknown.

I went inside my bedroom and changed into comfy clothes. Dr. Colleen said I should be relaxed for this session and I don’t think I could be relaxed wearing a dress and stupid shoes. After I got some soda and chips I went and knocked on Dr. Colleen’s door. Since she was going to be here for a more semi permanent basis my dad moved her office to one of the guest rooms instead of his office.

The door opened and Dr. Colleen invited me inside. They had changed it from being a guest room with a bed to more like a office/living room with a desk and chairs. I sat in the big comfy chair near the window. “How was work?” Dr. Colleen asked settling into her own chair. I scoffed at her and continued to look out the window.

“How do you think it was?” I asked rolling my eyes. I had talked to her about what happened with Colton. She remained rather neutral. She didn’t tell me what to do or if I should forgive him. She just..listened.

“I think you probably are overthinking things and you need to calm down.” She smiled at least her tone made it seem like she smiled. I sighed and looked over at her finally.

“Okay okay. Can we do the session now?” I was starting to get impatient. Last week I thought I was going to be doing the whole hypnosis crazy thing but she pushed it off said I wasn’t ready yet.

I know it sounds weird to be excited to relive the worst day of your life but I just..I was hoping anything she could get out of me would help me shift.

“Alright…well. So there is a strong possibility you remember none of this you know that right? It’s going to be like..falling asleep.” Dr. Colleen got up and helped me recline the chair so I was laying down. She had mentioned that it would be like going to sleep. She was going to whisper some things and trigger my memory and then I would be gone and my subconscious or whoever would be there. When she brought me out of it…I may remember nothing.

I took a deep breath and gave her a small smile. “I’m ready.” Dr. Colleen nodded and then handed me the first note that I was given. It was the only thing I still had from roughly around the time of my attack. My mother had burned the clothes that I wore that day. I heard Dr. Colleen’s voice but I had no idea what she was saying. The last thing I remember was walking through the woods so happy to tell my mother I invited people to come over for my birthday.

I woke up screaming. I could feel hands on me and I screamed louder. There was someone talking to me but I couldn’t really hear them. It sounded as if they were under water. I was trying to make the person let me go but I couldn’t stop screaming. I could feel it. It felt like everything was happening all over again. He was there…he was…I was just as helpless now as I was then.

“Emmry…” My name was being called by more than one voice now but I couldn’t stop the screaming and the crying. I didn’t want them to touch me. I didn’t want anyone near me. I was picked up from the chair I was in and pulled into someone’s arms. I wasn’t sure who they were so I started kicking and screaming. The sat on the floor pulling me with them and wrapped their arms around me tight.

That’s when my sense of smell finally kicked in and I realized that it was my dad. He was whispering something to me but I had no idea. My vision was starting to become less cloudy. I could see the room clearly now. The chair had been knocked over…other things were tossed about.

“Emmry it’s me…dad…it’s okay I’ve got you.” My dad was repeating over and over as he held onto me. I was finally able to take a real breath and slow down my panic.

“Dad?” I asked my body was starting to relax and with that I felt him relax too.

“Oh honey you scared me.” He whispered before kissing the top of my head. I looked around for Dr. Colleen and saw her waving her hand over her face. I could see some blood dripping down.

“Please tell me I didn’t do that…” My voice barely a whisper.

Dr. Colleen looked  towards me and shook her head. “No love you didn’t physically hurt me but you did push into me and my clumsiness caused me to fall. I’m alright.” She sent me  a smile but I couldn’t tell if it was really alright or not.

“I’m so sorry.” I tried to get up so I could look at her an apologize but my dad help me still.

“Are you calm?” He asked slowly easing up on his grip. I nodded and waited till he had completely let go before taking a deep breath and getting up. That was not what I had expected at all.

“Please tell me we learned something from this?” I asked praying that at least something good did come out of it.

“Yes Emmry. I spoke to well I guess..lack of a better term your wolf.. your shifter half of your spirit. It’s inside you…buried but it’s there. We will talk more about this later. You need to actually rest now.” She nodded at my dad who picked me up and carried me to my room. I wanted to protest their choice but I just couldn’t. I was too tired.