Jail Break

change

My whole life changed You destroy me each day You don't kiss away the tears You don't see me scream I'm alone each night You never loved me This blade is my only friend I smile but it's real with him You control my life You make threats You call me names You didn't see the blood The anxiety each day The nightmares at night I hate myself because of you You say she hates me You say I'm a bad mother You don't want me happy You tell me to kill myself You say you hate me Your killing me more I lost so much because of you 2 beautiful daughters My home my family I lost my best friend I cant change the past I won't beg for your forgiveness Thats what you want is control I'd never harm you in any way Never spoke hate on you My demons and my cuts Are my past the scars tell a story I'm slowly dieing each day You don't care if I'm alive You say she is better than me I was there for you on your worst days I put up with all the hate over the years I kept all your secrets for years I can't love someone that hates me Yes I'm mentally sick Because of my life I don't deserve you I don't want you to leave I'm to selfish to let you go I find it hard to let go