I can not believe, I was unconscious for a month and a half.
I missed my babies being born, I missed out on the boy's life.
Grayson oh god, he must have been going through hell.
I tell him how sorry, I am that I have let him down.
Not only him but all our children, they must all hate me!!
I know, I hate myself. I'm their mother, and I wasn't even awake for the babies, birth.
I don't even know which babies are which, Grayson introduced. Oh my god, I had to be introduced to my daughter.
This just breaks my heart, I feel like a complete failure.
My heart is breaking, into a million pieces, right now.
I will never get that time back, I haven't even bonded with the babies, yet.
What if they hate me? What if they don't want me?
I would never be able to handle it if they rejected me!!!
