You have no idea how much I miss you, Seika. I can't stop thinking about you every day, and I hope you didn't misunderstand me about going without permission, because I don't want to hurt you because of our promise. I don't want you to think I'm selfish and only think about myself. I will promise to return, not right away, but please allow me some time.
I decided not to send that letter to her because some things are incomprehensible, and, of course, she was still mad at me, and she would become curious and overthink things. I didn't want her to believe that solely because of me. I still hope I can go back, but I'm not sure why it was so complicated and at the wrong time. But I hope you're still as seika as I remember you being. I'm sure you'll never forget me. Destiny will come our way at some point. Just believe me when I say that anything is possible. I still believe we'll run into each other. And do the things we used to, hug you, always compliment each other, throwing jokes together. I wish i could also tell you that you are more than just a friend.