Chapter 5
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Chapter Five
The town square smells like pine and sugar and something fried I can’t quite name. Merry Ridge always does this—wraps itself in sweetness until you forget how sharp winter can be underneath. Lights are strung from lamppost to lamppost, glowing gold against the snow, and the old clock tower is dressed in a red scarf someone knitted years ago and never replaced.
I stand at the edge of it all, hands shoved deep into my coat pockets, heart beating too fast for a town this slow.
This is a mistake, I think.
Which is usually how I know I’m doing the right thing.
The Christmas Festival Committee insisted I come. “Just show your face,” Mrs. Holloway had said, pressing a clipboard to her chest like a shield. “People are excited you’re back, Jade.”
People are always excited about a version of me that doesn’t exist anymore.
I spot Noah before I mean to. I always do.
He’s near the stage, sleeves rolled up despite the cold, talking to the sound guy with the same focused intensity he used to bring to everything. He looks older—broader in the shoulders, lines etched deeper around his eyes—but some things haven’t changed. The way he listens. The way he nods like every word matters.
The way my chest tightens like it’s memorized him.
I turn away.
I won’t do this tonight. I won’t reopen old wounds under Christmas lights and polite smiles. I won’t—
“Jade.”
His voice still knows my name.
I stop. Slowly. Like if I move too fast, I might shatter.
When I turn, he’s a few feet away, hands tucked into his coat, eyes searching my face with something that looks dangerously close to regret.
“You came,” he says.
I lift one shoulder. “The town asked. I figured I owed them.”
“Do you?” His mouth curves, but there’s no humor in it. “Because it feels like they owe you.”
The words land heavier than he knows. Or maybe exactly as heavy.
“I’m just here to help,” I say. “Same as you.”
A beat passes. Snow drifts between us, quiet and persistent.
“I’m glad you’re here,” he says finally.
I nod, because it’s easier than saying what I really want to say: I wish you’d been glad back then.
Before either of us can say more, Mrs. Holloway appears like a summons. “Noah! We’re starting in five. And Jade, dear, would you mind standing near the stage? People recognize you. It helps with the crowd.”
Of course it does.
I take my place near the front, blending into the glow of lights and music and memory. The crowd gathers, bundled and cheerful, children darting between legs, couples holding hands like it’s the easiest thing in the world.
The mayor speaks first. Then the choir. Applause rises and falls, warm and automatic.
Then Noah steps up to the microphone.
I stiffen.
This wasn’t on the program.
He clears his throat once, twice. The sound echoes, sharp in the cold air.
“Before we continue,” he says, voice steady but tight, “there’s something I need to say.”
A murmur ripples through the crowd. I feel it in my bones.
“This town means everything to me,” Noah continues. “It raised me. Shaped me. Taught me how to fix what’s broken.” His eyes flick toward me—just for a second. Long enough to undo me. “But it also taught me how easy it is to stay silent when speaking up matters.”
My breath catches.
“I’ve been carrying something for a long time,” he says. “Something I should’ve faced years ago.”
People shift. Someone coughs. The lights seem brighter suddenly, unforgiving.
“There was a moment, once,” he says, choosing his words carefully, “when someone I cared about was hurt. Publicly. Cruelly. And instead of stepping in—instead of protecting her—I said nothing.”
My heart is a drumbeat in my ears.
“That silence followed her for years,” Noah says. “And I let it. Because I was afraid. Of judgment. Of attention. Of doing the wrong thing.”
He swallows. His hands tremble slightly as he grips the microphone.
“But silence was the wrong thing.”
The square is so quiet now it feels like the town itself is holding its breath.
“I can’t undo the past,” he says. “But I can tell the truth now. That moment wasn’t a joke. It wasn’t shameful. It was brave. And the way it was treated was wrong.”
My eyes burn. I don’t wipe them away.
“I’m sorry,” Noah says, voice breaking just enough to make it real. “For staying quiet. For not standing up. For letting the narrative belong to people who never deserved it.”
He steps back from the microphone, chest rising and falling like he’s just run miles instead of spoken minutes.
Applause doesn’t come right away.
Then someone claps.
Then another.
Then the sound swells, hesitant but real, wrapping around the square like a promise trying to form.
I feel like I’m standing in the middle of a miracle and a wound all at once.
Noah doesn’t look at me again. He doesn’t need to. He’s already done the bravest thing he knows how to do.
I leave before the applause fades.
The cold hits harder away from the lights, but I welcome it. It grounds me. Keeps me upright when everything inside feels unsteady.
I don’t make it far before footsteps crunch behind me.
“Jade,” Noah calls softly.
I stop near the edge of the square, where the snowbanks rise high and the noise fades into memory.
“You didn’t have to do that,” I say without turning.
“I know,” he replies. “I had to.”
I face him then. His eyes are red, his breath fogging the air between us.
“You don’t get to fix everything with one speech,” I say. Not unkindly. Just honestly.
“I know,” he says again. “I’m not trying to.”
We stand there, two people shaped by the same past, holding it differently now.
“I don’t know what happens next,” he says. “But I wanted you to know—I see it now. All of it.”
I nod. My chest aches, but it’s a cleaner pain than before.
“That matters,” I say. “More than you think.”
Snow falls harder, thick and relentless.
For the first time in years, I don’t feel like I’m being watched.
I feel like I’m being witnessed.
And maybe—just maybe—that’s how healing begins.
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