WHETHER YOU LIKE IT or not, life will always be unpredictable. It's an ongoing enigma of possible outcomes and erratic decisions. Sometimes things would go the way you want it, sometimes it won't. Good and bad, that's the cycle. And I've seen this pattern played on for years in an inconsistent manner.
Growing up in an environment that had taught me to beg and incessantly ask for attention, I learned that being likable can also be demandingly exhausting. It's like a trial-and-error game. I tried to persistently seduce and attract people around me but then grew restless when they started coming at me like moths to a flame. It consumed time and effort especially when it's not even really worth it. I was just obsessed with making everyone liked me. And yes, it made me feel so dumb but it
