Let Me Be Who I Am

Chapter 4

Rhena POV:

I have big smile in my face while running really fast using my secret power which I just discovered recently. Oh my god it's really fun, I feel like Seo Jiwoo one of the characters in my favorite Webtoon "Eleceed". My secret power appears when I get kidnapped by unknown people. Thankfully with my invisible power I managed to escape from the kidnapper. Until now I still don't know who kidnapped me and what was the motive.

After being satisfied running around in the forest I went to the house while activating an my invisible power. As I got closer to the house I heard a voice like someone was fighting. Intrigued I walked faster to the origin of the sound and saw my brother was fighting with Tamara and Rain while his boyfriend's tried to calm him anger.

"Until when are you guys going to hide this secret." I heard my brother's angry voice.

"Mind your own business, this is our problem not yours. Let us handle it ..?" It was Ara's voice

"She's my sister, I promised my father to protect her. Don't dare you two said Its not my business" My brother screamed in annoyance.

"Andi babe calm down yourself, your sister who can hear all this if you can not contain your emotions" I looked at Markus and Lucas who tried to calm their boyfriends.

"she's not at home, I saw her out earlier" said Leon.

"Do you know about this Leon?..." my brother looked at her other boyfriend with anger in her eyes. I saw Leon just nodded slowly and did not look into my brother's eyes.

"Incredible, my boyfriend hold this important secret from me." My brother shook his head in disbelief and disappointment was evident in his eyes.

"Im sorry but they told me not to tell the truth."

"I heard my little sister always cried every night from the first day she live in my house before i found and buy a new house for her privacy. She never said it but I can tell you this, Rhena blamed herself for her best friend's death. She is always afraid to celebrate her birthday because on that day her best friend died. Even if you have a little respect in your heart and you still love her, you will never keep your real identity about who you are, Rain ... "

"Sorry, but I'm not ready to reveal the truth yet. I need time ..." Rain's voice trembled.

"How much longer do you need, if I don't find your secret, will you even tell the truth to my sister. I am very happy to do a DNA test to confirm my suspicions."

"I promise would say the truth to Rhena, i just need more time and this is really complicated"

"Of course it's complicated, keeping a secret from your best friend is never easy. I know that this isn't the only secret you have kept from Rhena "I was more interested in hearing their said my name. Don't blame me, I know it's a bad attitude heard people conversation, but they mention my name so this must be a matter that I should know. .

"You haven't even told her your true feelings. I know you two love my sister more than friend an i really sure you can feel my sister falling in love with you but choosing to ignore it"

"We're just waiting her to take the first step," said Tamara in a low voice.

"First step.. How do you expect her to do that... she knows you two are engaged and love each other ... I know my sister she not selfish and doesn't want to ruin your relationship ... She's a martyr who would rather hurt his heart so that the person he loves happy ... Tell her honestly you love her more than a friend and tell her you want a poly relationship with her.... "My brother got mad and sad at the same time when he said that.

They love me more than friend?...really? .. I couldn't stop the smile on my face but it disappeared as soon as I heard my brother's next word.

"Before you tell your true feelings, tell her about your real identity Rain, I think Rhena deserves to know the truth."

"Do you think she will forgive me for hiding the truth, I know Rhena is not a forgiving person. What if she hates me and takes Alina away ..."

"Please Rain, don't hide this truth from Rhena. Rhena deserves to know that her best friend who is also Alina's biological mother is still alive and has been near her." My brother looked at them with a pleading look.

"What do you mean Nadia is still alive." I appeared myself and deactivated my invisible power upon hearing those shocking news.

"R-Rhena, since when you here"

"It doesn't matter, tell me what you mean Nadia is alive." I looked at them one by one asking for an explanation.

"ANSWER MY f**k QUESTION" I could not hold back my emotions, I thought I should see a psychiatrist again to control my emotions... recently since I discovered my secret power a few months ago, when I almost died because of being kidnapped by an unknown person.... my emotions became unstable...

"You need to discuss this in private" my brother rushed out and his boyfriends followed him.

"Now can one of you explain what I heard" I asked, crossing my arms waiting for their explanation.

"What do you hear is true your friend is still alive, I am your best friend." Rain said very slowly.

"I know you're my new best friend Rain. But what does my brother mean Nadia is still alive. Where would she be if she was alive"

"I mean I'm your best friend Rhe, I'm Nadia." Rain spoke in a trembling voice.

"You're crazy huh, stop fooling me. I never forget my best friend's face and you don't even look like her."

"It's me Rere, do you remember that pet name... That's the name I gave when we first met when you were playing with the rain when we were little.... I chose this new name for me because it reminds me of you, Rain is like your favorite weather.... Sorry I hid it. truth about my real identity, it's just that I'm afraid to remember about my past..."Rain cried softly.

I was silent for a long time looking at Rain face for signs of lies but could not find it. "Prove it" I replied briefly.

I saw Rain slowly let go of her necklace and her face turned into the face I missed so much. "I'm wearing a disguise necklace that hides my real identity, only Tamara and Leon know this." She smiled at me, oh my god that face and that smile I really missed her.

"That doesn't prove anything, it could be some other magic you use to change faces like my best friend face. Say something only my best friend and I know."

"What you need i say, i know all your secret"

"If you are really my best friend, you should know the real reason why my parents divorced. If you are really my best friend, you will know why I hate my father. If you are really my best friend you will know why I hate men and feel comfortable around them. "

"Are you sure you want me answer all the question you ask me, are you sure you want Ara to hear your secret?" Rain asked unsure.

"I can go out if you don't want me to hear you." Ara came out and opened the door.

"Stay" I said before she could close the door and leave the room.

"Excuse me" she asked, confused.

"You don't need to go out. You two are a couple, there should be no secrets between you," I replied softly and she went back in and closed the door behind her.

"Now, answer my question earlier. Prove you are my best friend, tell a secret that only my best friend and I know."

"Sorry Rere if this brings back bad memories that you're trying to forget. It's just that I want to prove I'm really your best friend like what you want..." Rain looked at me with a nadia face and her eyes looking so sad.

"First, the reason why your parents actually divorced is because your father was a drunkard, That night when your two siblings were staying at your aunt's house, your father came home drunk and beat your mother very badly in front of your eyes..., he even watered Your mother's hand with hot oil which caused severe burns ..., Even after several years you still cant forget that memory..., you hated your father so badly and cant forgive him even after his death and that is also the reason why you always refuse to drink alcohol.... Second, the reason why you hate men so badly because you were sexually abused when you were 11 years old by your grandpa ..., if your grandmother didn't find you that day, you would be r***d by that pedophile bastard..., you could keep your virginity that day because of your grandmother but the incident that day also changed your grandmother's attitude ..., if before she loved you after that incident she hated you and often beat you whenever she could because she thought you wanted to snatch your grandfather's love from her ... "

"And what was your reaction that day when I finally trusted you and told you my secret?" I asked her with tears in my eyes.

"I get my grass clippers and put them in bag. I want go to your old city search that bastard because i want cut his d**k. I can do that and punishment him if you didn't stop me." Her face looked very angry and looked exactly like the day I told her my secret.

Its her, she really my best friend, I ran and hugged her tightly, tears didn't stop coming out of my eyes when I hugged my best friend and my first love that I really missed. God, thank God or whoever there for bringing my best friend back to this world.

"How long, since when did you come back from death" I looked at her face and checked every inch of her face to make sure this wasn't a dream.

"5 years ago, Ara found me and with her friend help she brought me back from death. I was looking for you and my daughter not long after I was brought back to life but both of you are gone"

"5 years ago, you mean not long after the tragedy" I asked incredulously, if only I had survived for a while in my homophobic city, what might they have found us and Alina would grow up feeling the love of her biological mother ...?

"So you know what happened to that bastard" I asked angrily ...

"Of course I know, I was there when he took his own life."

"What do you mean, can you explain it in detail to me"

"That's Ara's doing, he can control other people's emotions. That day she made that bastard remember all his bad deeds to me and finally that cowardly man committed suicide." Rain/Nadia grin evilly.

I released my hug to my best friend and ran to hug Tamara and kissed her lips with a quick kiss that made her shocked. "Thank you Ara you're really great, thank you for doing what I want to do to that bastard. I really want to torture him and make him regret it his deeds. "I stared at her with admiration.

"O-Ok, no problem, she said haltingly."

"Where is my kiss, it's not fair you only kissed Ara. I also want my kiss." Nadia / Rain scowl at me.

I laughed and ran back to her, I cupped her face and kissed her lips hungrily, I can saw her face shock because I really kissed her. Of course I will kiss her, I don't want to waste my time anymore. I get my second chance now, we both are not in our homophobic city anymore and are free to do whatever we want now.

"So what should I call you now, Rain or Nadia" I asked her after we finished kissing.

"Call me Rain, especially when we're in bed" she winked at me. My face flushed at the thought of us doing that. Rain laugh so hard when she Saw my red face.

"And you don't stop calling me Ara from now." Tamara came to me and hugged me possessively.

"So is what I heard right, you two love me more than friends and want to have a poly relationship with me just like the relationship my brother and his boyfriends have?" I asked teasing them. They both silent and cant speak any word for answer me, and now it's my turn to laugh so hard to saw they both red face. Thank you very much to the person who helped Tamara bring my best friend back. I don't know what called our relationship now, its just started but I will definitely not be in a hurry and will appreciate the second chance I have now.

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A/N :

I dedicate this chapter for my best friend who passed away in October 2020. Hey "F" hope you are fine there, watch me and be my guardian angel like what yo do when you still alive. Sorry I still can't believe you left me alone. You never die for me, in my heart you always life forever. You know 10 Years we become friend Its a golden Time to me.