Let Me Be Who I Am

Chapter 6

Rhena POV:

"Can i help you sir?" I asked the man who was standing in front of my cafe, it was still morning and no employees had arrived.

"Miss Rhena, I'm Oliver Parker. Can we speak in a private place?" He looked at me expectantly. I looked at him with a sharp gaze, who is this person and what he wants from me.

"Of course" we both walked in and I invited him to sit down.

"Sorry sir but who are you and what's your business with me" I asked in a formal tone.

"I'm your father," he replied, looking at me and smiling softly.

"I don't have a father so who are you sir?" I stared at him expressionlessly.

"Like I said I was your father, your mother and I we got married 15 years ago" she replied shyly.

"Do you have children" I asked sharply.

"Me and your mother we both do not have children but I have children from a previous marriage" he replied carefully.

"Oh so finally that woman managed to realize her obsession to have a happy family," I replied very sarcastically.

"I know you don't like your mother but could you give her a chance to explain" his gaze begged.

"Why i must do that?.., i don't care what she wants explain to me. She left me when I was 5 years old and never wanted to know my situation, why now suddenly care? Oh I know, maybe somehow she had amnesia and forgot about her child" I replied his question very sarcastically and tried to hold back my anger.

"Just please give your mother just one chance... she carried you in her stomach for 9 months. No matter how angry you are with her, please remember without her you would not be born into this world"

I let out a long sigh, this man's words are true. Right now I am very angry with my mother, but if it weren't for her, I would never have been born into this world. She carried me for 9 months on her stomach and even risked her life to give birth to me, because of that all the money in the world would not be able to pay for it.

"Fine" I said simply. "But I won't meet her alone"

"Bring whomever you want, thank you very much. You don't know how much this means. Your mother will be glad to hear this news." I could see his eyes sparkling with happiness.

Andi POV:

"Are you sure about this little sister, I still don't believe why you have to meet her. You've been through hell, I couldn't protect you when you were young because we were separated, but now I'm here .. If you don't want to meet our mother Be honest. .. I don't want to see you in pain again. "I looked at my sister anxiously.

"No, but I have to. This is all I can give her, a chance to explain everything."

"I'm here okay, we're all here for you" she gave me a smile and my heart melted. I promise in my heart i will protect her and keep that smile. We entered into a house that was so big and a man greeted us. This must be Mr Parker, our mother's new husband. I saw our mother standing with a girl behind her, looking so close.

"Hey my child" My mother looked at me longingly, she tried hug me but I avoided. A gleam of pain appeared in her eyes due to my actions but i don't care with her feelings. Did she ever think about my sister's feelings when she decided to leave them?...

"So Mrs. Parker can you explain whatever you want to say tonight, I want to get out of here" surprise appeared on her face when she heard what i call her, hah .. did she think I would call her mama like I used in the past. Don't dream, right now she is just a stranger to me. Does she think we'll be okay after she's been gone for 20 years. My life is comfortable but I can't forgive her, after hear how my little sister lived when she left.

"Before that I want to introduce someone to you. Andi, Rhena is my daughter Josie Parker." I can feel like someone punched my heart at her words. Her face looked so proud to say that, What about Rhena and older sister, aren't they both not her daughters?

"Nice to meet you, Miss Parker," I said, shaking her hand quickly. "Now can you give your reasons for leaving my two sisters"

"Don't you want to introduce your friend."

"These three handsome men are my boyfriend and the two beautiful women next to YOUR DAUGHTER are her girlfriends. You don't need know their names. Can you tell me your reason now?" I replied in annoyance as I folded my arms and gave her a vicious look.

"Let's talk about this in a more private place." Mr Parker cleared his throat and led us to his office. "Have a seat," he said.

I chose to sit farthest place from them and I saw my sister do the same. We all stared at her waiting for an explanation.

"When your father married me I was very young. At that time I didn't want to married but our family they forced us to get married because I was pregnant with your older sister. I dropped out of school and lost the chance to get my dream job. I was only 19 years old when your elder sister was born, I wasn't ready to have a family. That time I was confused and didn't know what to do. Our parents they hate each other, your father and me we have different religion. He choose my religion when he married me because that his family hate me. That really hard still survive everyday with everyone in his family hate me"our mother said in a defeated voice, I could melt regret on her face.

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Rhena POV:

Heard what my mother said im not surprise, It's not secret my father's family hates my mother. They hated me and my sister too because we didn't choose their religion. Until now they didn't recognize us as family. Why they blame us, we only child and dont know what to do. We believe what older person told us. Because we live with our mother parents,they teach us their religion and we dont have choice to learn. Now im not young anymore and know what i do.

"If that what happened and you are not ready to have a family why did you give birth big brother and me?.."

"Your father he wants a big family, he wants son. When your older sister was born he was disappointed that it wasn't a boy. He wanted a son and was very happy when your older brother was born. "

"And why you pregnant and born me if he already get son like what he need.?"

"One son is not enough for your father, he needs more. That's the reason I got pregnant and gave birth to you"

"That's why he pretend me to be like a boy because he felt disappointed I was born a girl? ..."

"Yes. Everything will be fine when your brother was born. He was disappointed when he found out that his third child was a girl but your father didn't care because he thought I could still get pregnant and give birth to another son for him. Everything was different when I lost your little brother. I got pregnant when you were only 1 years. I had a problem with my pregnancy and I lost your little brother. The doctor said I cant get pregnant again because if I do that I can lose my life. Your father cant deal with that news..."

"Is that the reason why he started drinking because he lost Tio's"

"Do you know your little brother's name? ..." She looked at me in surprise.

"I know, your mother told me I have a little brother. She told me that was the name you gave his when he buried."

"I tried to find you but you are not in your old city, I only found my mother and father. I am confused why you left your grandparents, they are your family ..."

"Don't call them my family. How dare You leave me, that you job protect me but what you do, you run. Do you know what hell I had to go through growing up? Your father tried to r**e me and your mother beat me every day out of jealousy. Sometimes she could starve me if I didn't listen to her orders. She refuse to pay money for my education and because of that I have to fight every day so as not to lose the scholarship that I have. Every day I always hope you come back and take me away from that hell hole but you never come. If you not leave me everything Will be diverent. " If my gaze could kill my mother maybe already die.

"I'm sorry, my little princess"

"Stop calling me your little princess, I'm 25 years old Damn. I'm not the 5 year old girl you left and stop apologizing. With all the money you have, it should be easy for you to find where I am. Since when did you decide to find me?..."

"3 years ago, I heard the news that my mother had passed away and meeting you was her last wish."

"You left me for long Years and decided to look for me 3 years ago. Is that the only reason you are looking for me because of your mother? I already know she died, I still have childhood friends in that town. They told me the news, even though she was very cruel to me, I'm still saddened by her death. The reason I don't see her when she dead because I don't want to set foot in that city again, there are too many bad memories there. "

"Please forgive me, tell me what I have to do to make you forgive me" She looks so sad, why she so desperate to be forgiven. Nothing would change with just forgiving. Everything is different no matter how hard she tries, things will not return to the way they used to be.

"Find your jerk dad and cut his dick." I saw my brother and his boyfriends covering their crotches who heard my words.

"w-what" she looking at me with shocked face.

"Why now you want to cut that bastard pedophile d**k, when I took my grass clippers and wanted to do it you not authorize me " Rain's muttered irritably.

"It's because I don't want you to jail my love." I looked rain and her face flushed when I called her love. Very cute, this woman is the reason I survived after experiencing such bad things.

"T-there is no other way for you to forgive me. Andy my son can't you forgive your mother, I want you two come back."

"I forgive you if Rhena also forgives you. This is her fight, not my life get mess. Even though my father was always busy with his work, he did not leave me to remarry. Actually I'm also not sure I can forgive you or not, you separate the three of us. I know you got custody of the three of us but left me to papa. If only you took me, I could protect Rhena from that perverted bastard "my brother replied indifferently.

"I-that's the only way"

"Yes, you have a lot of money so find someone who will do dirty work for you. I want him to suffer, because of him I can't live a normal life. Every time I meet a man, my heart will pound fast. I am always afraid that they will do something just like that perverted bastard. Because of him I was afraid of my brother the first time we met. I only believed in him when I found out that he was gay and had no interest in women. Do you know how hard it is to live every day with fear in your heart? ... Reply my grudge and get justice for me. Do it and maybe I will give you a chance to come back into my life ... Until you can do that, go away and disappear from my life. I think you are very good at disappearing from the lives of your children " I stood up and walked out without even glancing at her. I dont care what her feeling now, she lost me when she leaving me. That consequences for what she do.

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A/N

what do you think about Rhena reaction? What if that happened to you? If your mother leave you when you 5 years and come back after long time what you do? can you forgive her and bring her back to Your life?

I want to know because if someday my mother comes back to my life after over 20 years I know what I have to do, Forgive her or not.