Keira Asher picked the campus botanical garden, which surprised me more than any of the other locations had, given that most of my mental image of him involved loud jokes, badly hidden nerves, and selfies taken specifically to annoy Ryder. "This feels oddly peaceful for you," I said, when I found him waiting near the entrance, hands shoved deep in his jacket pockets, looking more nervous than I'd ever seen him look in front of a camera. "I like it here," he said. "Comes as a shock to most people." We walked the winding gravel paths in a quiet that felt different from the others, not uncomfortable exactly, but heavier, like he was working up to something and hadn't quite found the nerve yet. I let him take his time, watching him fidget with the zipper of his jacket, watching him start s

