Keira I opened the email with the whole room watching, six pairs of eyes and Monica's careful, professional stillness all waiting to see what fresh chaos Damien had decided to unleash next. It wasn't what any of us expected. *I'm stepping down from my role as co-host, effective immediately. Keira was right, in the interview and out of it. I turned a genuine situation into a competition because it was easier than admitting I didn't actually know how to want something without needing to win it first. That's not fair to her, and it's not fair to a team that's clearly built something real, whatever shape that ends up taking. I'm sorry for the flowers, the café, the practice, all of it. I hope the rest of the season goes the way you all deserve it to.* I read it twice, then a third time, wa

