The Unforgivable Mate Curse (long story ongoing)

Mind Training

Note to readers: I don't think this chapter has any triggers, but since I based Brielle's condition in research about Alexithymia, and the proper treatment context if at any time you may feel uncomfortable. Please tell me. Thank You for your support. 

P.O.V Elder Silvanie

Today starts my training with Brielle. I was taking breakfast with everyone at the table. Omegas were constantly putting food on the table, I looked around and saw a very blushing Natasha. ‘A good night?’ She looked at me with small eyes. I have known Natasha for so long since she became an Elder, from us three she was the youngest but already passed by so much, I still like to tease her like she was my younger sister. ‘Yes, it was.’ Laughing. ‘That Glow never lies. I don’t see a mark yet.’ Blushing ‘Still taking our time.’  I looked at her with worry. ‘He is an Alpha, Natasha, he must also be in pain not marking you.’ I see her break eye contact with me. Sighs ‘I know that.’ I gave her a big smile, and continued looking at the table, Chadrick was beside her, pulling food on her plate, exactly like Vicktor was doing to Patrice, brothers indeed. Brielle was next to Chadrick and the Alpha, she was looking at her plate not eating, like frozen.

‘Brielle’ She jumped and looked around. Seams, my power that Natasha's mother gave me still works. I can mind-link of some sort with the children, but only works one way, I know Natasha can also do this because she is her child, sometimes it helps to get their attention or make them wake up. She looks everywhere and when she lands on me while I give her a large smile, and she calms and starts eating, looking at me from time to time. 

After we all eat. “Ready to train your mind and yourself.” She looks at me like a deer in headlights. “Come with me.”

P.O.V Brielle

I was looking at my food, I froze, I did not know if I wanted to eat. ‘Do I want to eat? How can I not know if I want to eat?’

‘Brielle’ I listen inside my head. I look around and everyone seems in their world, then I stop at Elder Silvanie who is looking at me with a big smile, like, eat. And I start eating, looking at her from time to time.  ‘She just spoke inside my head.’

After Breakfast. “Ready to train your mind and yourself.” I was still on, she spoke inside my head, so I looked at her like ‘I'm going to learn that.’ “Come with me.” We got out of the packhouse through a side door that the Omegas use to get inside, and she goes to a part that was a big fence, I look at it, she stops in a part of the fence and an arch made of stones appears. I look at it and her.  “Stay close to me.” I got near her, we crossed the arch and I saw a big Greenhouse, this seems familiar. We go inside and the atmosphere changes making me calm down.  I follow her into a staircase that goes up to a platform on a tree. And we sit around a coffee table, she puts a book on the side of the table. “Let’s start with what is around you. You stop when you came inside, what did you felt at that time?” I look at her confused. “Felt?” She seems to think of something. “Let’s put it in another way, what came to your mind?” I responded to her what came to my mind. “It seems familiar.” She continues looking at me. “Anything more?” I think. “It did not trigger an episode.” She nods her head.  “That is good, this place is private, all Elder have a place like this in the pack they are from.” I have known Elder Silvanie since I was born, but I did not know this. “That means you were born in this pack?” Her eyes became softer. “Yes, a long time ago. I knew a lot of Alpha your ancestors.” There were a few answers I wanted. “Did you meet the Royals?” She seems to recall something. “I knew a lot about them. We Elders had to spend some time in the temple that existed near the Royal Castle.” Maybe she can tell. “Father told us a story about a wolf that as the name of Ashriel.” She gave a small smile.  “Yes, the Omega that became Queen. They are the beginning of this all.”

“The Beginning?” She poured some tea and took a drink. “Yes, I will tell you later, but for now I want you to rationalize your thinking. Since you have trouble deciphering your feelings, I want you to try to compare your feelings to moments from your memories of you or of the people around you.  What you have known is because of the curse but not only, the curse hides your feelings, but what you saw in those nights made you close your mind like a defense mechanism and we need to make you understand how to use that to help you have a normal life instead of hurting you. Following so far?” I nodded. 

“Good, you depersonalize everything around you to protect your mind, you already told me that sometimes the world becomes different around you like you are no longer a part of it.” I just agree, nodding my head.  “They are still a part of those crises you have, you already know how to break from those realities your brain induces on you with the help of Ashriel, but you need to get yourself out of it without her, and be able to respond and not panic after an episode. The best way is for you to reformulate yourself so that you get out of those episodes and continue with your life.” 

“I am going to continue having these episodes forever.” She joins her hands together on the table looking straight at me. “Unfortunately, I can’t respond to that. Your trauma is connected to the curse, when the curse is lifted you may return to your normal self, but you will always remember what happened, so it depends if, in the end, you will be strong enough to overcome everything.” My mind was processing the information. “I can stay like this forever even if the curse is lifted.” Her eyes were hard to understand. “If you have the slightest hope that it can change and be better, Believe in it.” She changes to the reason we are here.  “Let’s practice.”

After a few hours of practice, we got up and got inside the Pack House to eat. Coming back to the Green House with tea and cookies to last until Dinner time, this time we sat on a bench near the pond, there was a small tea table next to the bench and a little parasol since that part of the garden is sunny and warm. 

P.O.V Elder Natasha

It's time, Brielle needs to know the story. “What I am about to tell you, is the story the Moon Goddess told us, every time a new Elder is trained and capable.” I look at Brielle. “You were not there?” I smile, I don’t think I am that old. “From us three that you know, Elder Christian is the one that lived for millenniums, but even he was not at the beginning. The Elder of that time was Elder Egeon from Pack Ephesus, the pack of Elder Christian, one of the most ancient packs alive. The story is about two Werewolf’s that fell in love without the Mate Bond.” I can see her thinking, her face kind of freezes every time she thinks like a porcelain doll.  “Is that even possible, I thought the Mate Bond was everything to a Werewolf?” I was hoping she asked me this. “It is, but they hadn’t found theirs and fell in love with one another, he was to be Crown King at the age of 18, and she was an Omega in the castle, because of the places they were secretive about their passion. The future king knew that only after the coronation he could announce her as his Chosen Mate and Queen, when the day arrived everything was going fine, the new Alpha King was announced and the succession passed from father to son. The moment he announced her Queen they were interrupted by the daughter of the Official Castle Witch Clara saying that she was his Mate and should be Queen. They all did not understand, she lived in the castle with her mother for years, was almost the same age as the new King, but he did not scent her as Mate until she removed a spell she did on herself to hide the scent, and it hit him that she was his Mate. His wolf was already involved and passionate about the Omega now his Queen, so the King rejected the Witch making her furious trying to attack the Omega Queen. Her mother had to intervene to protect the new King since he, to protect his lover and Queen got in the middle of the attack. Her mother bonds her that she did not cause more harm, but she was not giving up, and that was the moment when she cast the curse upon the Royal Bloodline, and then vanish to never be found again. The Moon Goddess Stella intervened at that time and tried to reduce the curse, so she removed the wolf from the cursed children, but she never understood until millenniums before that doing that she bonded the Queen-Wolf to the curse. Once the first shift as the New Queen her wolf had been transformed into this beautiful Silver Wolf with blue transparent eyes. They were the best rulers of the kingdoms the ones that created the first Chosen Mate Ball and gave hope to others that never found theirs, so they are very adored by all.”

“What happens to Witch Clara?” That was not a question I was thinking she would do first. “She went for several years with the Warriors trying to find her daughter but never saw her again, she dismissed herself from the Castle duties and became a hermit. She still helps the witches in the castle or when they need her, but she did not live there anymore. They say that she has a Little House in the Royal Forest. No one found it, when they needed it they leave a note on a tree and she appeared.” Brielle always was a smart kid. She must be trying to find out more.  “And the daughter, did they ever come across her?”  

“No, until this day, we do not know where Lutrice is.” Her eyes don’t give up any clues to what she is thinking. “Do you know what happened to the other children before me?” This! I did not want to answer. “We meet a few and tried to help them.” I could not look at Brielle, I knew what she was going to ask next. “What happens to them?” They might not understand, but even for us Elders, “They died.” is hard to see all of it, “How?” we always felt like we could do more, or we did not do enough. “I don’t know about the first children. The ones we know we will try to answer all your questions about them.”

P.O.V Brielle

Elder Silvanie picks the book and puts it in her lap looking at it. “Brielle, did you see anything in your dreams about them?” I froze, and she looked at me like she knew something. Elder Silvanie was been with me since my birth I think she was the one that helped my mother deliver, she has been around all my life, and I know I trust her completely, even if I only find out about the curse on my birthday, I know that she meant no harm, she was trying to protect me so I decided to share my nightmares. “The first Nightmare I meet her.” Her head tilted a little bit. “Her?” Know that I know how she is, “Lutrice.” She froze but continued looking at me nodding to me to continue. “I was in a cave…”

‘As I was explaining the images came to my mind like a movie I was watching from far away.’

"I followed some light and saw her and a big grey tree with branches going up, no flower, no leaves. She talked to me, telling me stuff, but I did not believe her.” She came closer to me and put her hand on my back making circles.  “Good Brielle, she will always try to make you doubt yourself, but you have us with you.” I gulped down when the images passed to another scene. “T-Then I s-aw them…” I start to choke, gets difficult to breathe.  “I am here Brielle.” She continues doing circles.  Even if I am replaying everything in my mind like a film, the screams, the blood. “T-They were babies… Killed… By the King, by Lutrice, by wolves, by vampires.” I did not realize that I started crying, my chest hurt a lot, I was having difficulty breathing. Elder Silvanie made me lay my head on the lap removing the book and was ruffling my hair while I sob. “I am sorry you had to see that Brielle. That is why you are so afraid and panic every time you go to train with the pups?” The crying, the breathing, it was so hard to remember. “I-I don’t want to see…” sobs “the p-pups like that.” She keeps on smoothing me. “I understand. Trust us Brielle nothing will ever happen to you or them,” I remember.  “I saw Elder Christian and you in my dreams.” Her hand stops for a moment. “You know we will help you even with your life’s.” I start to calm down. “Why do they have to die?” She starts stroking my head again. “Everything has a reason, if they lived, maybe you were not born, and we think, that you are the cure to all of this.” I looked up at her still on her lap. “How can I be a cure if I can’t feel?” She smiled. “I do not know why but I trust her.” 

I stood up and remembered the other dreams. “Is her the girl with the green mossy eyes?” Elder Silvanie looked at me with a face questioning me. “She had green eyes before the curse, how do you know that?” They knew her. “She was one of the last dreams before I met the Moon Goddess and my wolf.” Her eyes are looking intensely at me.  “Did she tell you anything?” I started thinking about what she told me. “She found a way to enter the nightmares to meet me, to make me meet him, and to help me survive, she said she was with a powerful witch that I can trust and that she saw in the future that I was the key to free them all. I don’t understand why she said that if they are dead how can I free them?” 

I see her breathing slowly. She then picked up the book and looked at me. “This diary is from Junius. He died in his sleep, did not resist the nightmares. I was with him and the Moon Goddess when that happened. That was also the first time the wolf became part of the children. The day he died was the day Moon Goddess Stella bonds the wolf to the children.” Pointing at my tattoo. “Is not going to be easy reading his diary, he did not have an easy life even before he came to the temple. You see it was not easy to find the cursed children without Lutrice finding them, once we received the artifact that tells us that the cursed child is about to be born, we had to find the pregnant women, and see if the child was human or not. Some of them were born in low-rank families, or other packs far away. When we found Junius he was already 10 years old and was being sold as a slave to humans, we got there just in time.”

She gave me the diary. “She told us you should read the diaries, that will help you understand that you are not the only one.” I looked at her “Diaries?” Like in plural. “Five in total. We will give it to you at the correct time.” I took the diary in my hands, and opened it to see the yellow pages from the time, “Did you read the diary?” I could see that the pages were not touched much. “No. We can’t exactly explain why, but every time we try to open the diary it feels wrong like we would break something important. I keep them always at the temple, I pick them up just for you. Hope that will help you.” I closed the diary. She got the mind link for dinner, and after it was training with Natasha and Chadrick.