The Unforgivable Mate Curse (long story ongoing)

Junius Diary - Knowing who I am

Brielle P.O.V.

Elder Natasha got proud of me, we are training as weeks go by, and I can accomplish the work for every week without having to redo it. I am pushing to my limits, I know that my body is getting new forms and new strength, and my mind is getting easier to understand my crises and to come out of them understanding this mask that it is the curse. Mostly I wanted to fight, not only for me but for my family, the looks that the pack gave me are starting to disappear.

One morning before breakfast, I got up and went to see the pups' train. I wanted to train my mind with them because they were what triggered most of my crises. At that time, one of the pups came to me and asked me to join. I did, I had a crisis in the middle of a kick that the pup gave directly at my stomach, that made me curve on myself, they run all over me making it worse, but I could recompose, reassure them that I was alright, and continue training with them. Some of the parents that were coming to pick their pup saw that I was not weak, I could make it, that I was strong.

I am not strong, not like them but knowing that I did not give up, I think made me relax and maybe believe that I can do it.

So now I am in my room, looking at the diary. I am seeing someone live that as the same curse that I had, and a not so protective life like I have, not only that I am also seeing the life of one of my protectors, Elder Silvanie. This made me realize that there are difficulties with everyone, and the way we deal with them makes us who we are.

'Who do I want to be?' I prepare to go to bed, and then I go to his memory lane.

Junius Journal

A new Family

It was hard to believe that I had a house again, and people that loved me and protected me. That I was allowed to be a child again, so the first days I was afraid to leave the house afraid to find out that I was dreaming, but after a while of passing time together with Edmund and Silvanie, I was hoping that they would stay with me forever.

It was the first time I got out of the house to go far, Silvanie said I needed to know how to go on in town, and to navigate the forest, but also I sensed that there was something she wanted to tell me, and I was scared that they would push me away. She asked about my parents and my worst fears came to my mind, they do not want me, they are giving me away, I will be a slave again, but then she explained that they love me and that the concern was just for me, and then after that, she asked me things that made me remember, who I am, and what my family was.

                “Junius, do you know what your parents are?” I responded with a sob, “What do you mean?” After a few seconds. “How to say this… did you ever see them differently?”

 I remember small fragments of being with mom and dad, and sometimes being with an animal playing, I remember the soft fur, the licking, but not very much. Then she tells me that she and my parents are werewolves. I stopped, everything clicked and made sense, what Simon said, sleeping with an animal, ‘That was a wolf.’ the images of the animal became clear, and one was much stronger than all other, the day my mom died.

I started shaking at the memory. “I saw a wolf once.”

 “Do you remember when?” I felt the warmth of Elder Silvanie hand on mine.

 “It was when my mom died, father was not feeling well. I remember him going to the door, I went after him. When I got there, I just saw a brown wolf, his back was to me, he started howling to the sky, it was a sad howl that made me sad also.” There was a squeeze in my hand and I looked at her.  “That was your father.”

After that I got curious, I had images of the wolf, but I want to see. “You can become a big wolf also?” I see her sighs. “Yes.” I got excited. I wanted to see if it looked like my memories. “Can I see it?” I saw her thinking, her eyes changing to another color of deep blue.

 “Wait here I must go shift. I will come as a wolf. My front legs have engravings on them so you will know it’s me and not someone else ok.” I jump. “Ok”

I saw a big brown wolf coming from the woods, her paws seem to have a different color. I got scared but then I saw her blue eyes, and the feeling of being secure, and the feeling of knowing who that wolf was, made me run to her, and hug her.

I heard her in my head. ‘My name is Antha.’ I looked at her, the wolf was talking to me, and joy and happiness were overwhelming as she knows me also, she likes me, can we play. We end up going for a run. I was on her back, and she was running in the forest, jumping small trees, and circling each other, and that was the most amazing moment in my life. After the run, she went to be Silvanie again, and we started walking again. I remember that I never learned to read or write, only what other slaves helped me understand. I wanted to go to school, I know she is not going to be around much, because of the wedding.  And after a few days, I got to go to school, everyone knew me, that made me a little awkward, but with time, I got to know them and made friends.  It was easy because they were younger than me, I kind of got protective over my class. I was their big brother, and that got me proud. After the 1st year went by, with the wedding, and me learning so much in school I was finally happy, and since I was smart, it took only three more years for me to start going to the mixed classes, where the classes are organized not by years but by knowledge. There I met Jane, I was a 14th-year-old boy, with a werewolf friend. It was easy hanging with her, and we played a lot in the forest.

 I was coming from school to the house.

“Good evening child, a little too late to be in the forest, danger can come up at you from every shadow.” I looked and saw a beautiful woman, long black hair bouncing from side to side, as she walked to me, a black dress dragged on the forest floor, a black train from the dress where I saw eyes???

“I just got out of school.” I never saw her before.  “Poor boy, you do not even know who I am? She hides it from you.” I frown at that. Am I supposed to know her? “What? Who are you?” She keeps walking near me. “Yes, who am I? Do you know anything about curses?” Curses? So she is, “You’re a witch?” I remember from class. “You're smart, but not that smart. I have a present for you.” Behind her, I saw him.

My father. I was hoping he was dead, the years have not been easy on him, skin and bone, and red eyes.

“My son, time to come home, I need you.” I took a step back. “No, you are not my father. My father sold me.” He continues coming closer to me.  “It’s me, and I came to get you back.” I need to leave. Scream for help.  “NO. NO. GO AWAY.” He came closer to me and grabbed my arm.  I was no longer a weak child, I had training. I quickly recovered my arm and pushed him away. Then I sense her.

“Bad cursed child.” Her hand was at my neck, “I will make things easier for you, you will come with us or I will make my vampires have a snack with that beautiful little girl that comes running in the forest with you.” I could not move. “Don’t harm her.” She let me go and made a strange smile.

“Then just come with us, she is a powerful witch, we can be rich and have everything.” My father was by my side again. “I already have everything. You just want money for you.” He gets angry. “What’s wrong with that, you killed my wife, she died because of you.” He spits on me. “Cursed Human, you own me your life for hers.”

I started wearing howls and I knew the patrols found something different, she heard it also.

“I will make a deal with you, if you don’t say anything to anyone about us, I will spare that little girl. But you are mine, and I will come for you, and you will die.” They vanish. I got my hands covering my neck and started running back home, even before the patrols got there. When I got home, I went straight to my room, backpack on the floor, and entered the bathroom. When I looked at the mirror, I had two hand marks on my neck, and my chest started hurting, I looked at it and there was a dark glow.

‘Whisper’ “I will come for you.”

I shiver and the hands fade away. After that day I started getting reclusive, I ended the friendship with Jane, I was afraid she would go after her. I started trying to understand what was going on, why a witch was after me, why my father said I killed mother, she died of a disease. I found nothing, and I could not ask Silvanie. ‘She hides it from you.’ What she told me in the forest kept replaying in my head, could I trust them? Silvanie tried to talk to me, but I was running around the images of my dying mother, my cold father after that, the witch saying that I am cursed.

Why do I have to die?