A talk with Elder Silvanie
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Why do I have to die?
Brielle P.O.V
I wake up the next morning sweating, I knew exactly what happened to him, I passed throw the same, I survived, he died. He was hunted by his fears like I was in the first dream. I tried to move but something was holding me to my bed. I look down. Chadrick and Natasha were sleeping at my feet looking I see around, Elder Silvanie was sleeping in the chair. “Hmm” I tried to move. Elder Natasha starts moving as she is waking up. “Brielle!” She looked up while was scrubbing her eyes. “Need bathroom. You two are blocking my legs.” She jumped on her feet crashing me in a big hug. “Natasha, what’s wrong?” “You had a hard night Brielle.” Elder Silvanie getting up from the chair. It seemed normal to me. “Did I?” She got also next to me patting my head. “Do you remember any of your dreams?” I nod yes. “Are you ok?” Natasha getting away and looking at me. I looked down at my hands. “I have a lot of questions.” Silvanie sits beside me next to Natasha. “I will help you with them.”
I look down at my brother.“But first, I need to go, and Chadrick is not a feather.” They looked at him, that was sleeping like a rock, head, and hands above my legs. “Chadrick” Natasha tried to wake him up. “Hmmm” Did not budge. She got over to his ear. “CHADRICK” He jumped up, and got in fight position “What, what, what?” They all giggle, I just look at my brother. “Good to see you are prepared when someone is already at your neck.” He growled a little. “Did you had to do that?” She folds the arms over her chest. “Brielle wants to leave the bed.” He looks at me with a big smile, “glad to see you up sleepy head.” I just look back at him. “You do understand that I was not the one, that had to be woken up with someone screaming in my ear?” He shrugged the incident earlier. “Yeah Yeah, I am going to my bedroom to get ready.” Natasha got up and went with him, “I am going with you.” Leaving Elder Silvanie in the room. “Get ready, after breakfast, I will try to answer all your questions.” She also left for the day.I got up and went to do my morning routine. Came down for breakfast. I would only eat when my stomach makes noise, but every time someone was near, they will always make me eat something saying I need strength to do my training. I never said otherwise since I could not understand.After I went with Silvanie to the Green House, with the diary in my hands. We sat down near the pond, lemonade on the table. “I think you might have a lot of questions.” Yes, I had but something was on my mind. “I do, but I can leave those for after.” She drinks a little. “After what?” “Junius's story is also a part of your story. I know you since I was a little kid and I never once knew you were married once.” She just nods. “Did you see everything?” I nod yes. “Are you fine?” I just looked at my hands. “I am not sure I can answer correctly that question, but I can tell you this, I still remember the feelings I had when I was in the Nightmares. I still remember every one of them, even if now it seems like a film inside my head. I still know what I felt, and this was nothing compared. I understand that Junius is dead, a long time ago, before even I was born. After the first dream about the diary, I started thinking why, what was the point of me seeing them, knowing them.” “Did you find an answer?” I was not sure. “Not yet, reading the diary makes me understand them a little better, understand not them but her also.”
P.O.V Elder Silvanie
When she said about understanding her, I got a surprise. “Her, you mean Lutrice?” We were sitting on the bench, I was looking at her, while she was looking at her hands. “I know this is vengeance, of the rejection the King Alpha, but in a way, I think the curse also protects me,” She looks up at me, “removing my ability to feel, also removes the pain. I was not supposed to pass those nights and stay alive, that is what she wants more than anything, to kill us. Maybe not only to continue the curse but to eliminate others from getting rejected again just because they have the power to do so.” She got a point there, but that is wrong. “Even so, that is not protecting, for a person to grow up she needs to fall also, and find a way to get back up, revenge, jealousy, hurting others is not the way to heal oneself, that will only make the pain last.” She looks to the pond, “When Lilian told me that I will save them all, she was also talking about Lutrice. She is stuck also in this curse.” Not extremely far from the truth. “That is true, not only her but many others that were not in the origin of the curse, have become part of it. That is also something you will find about on the other diaries.” There was a silent pause. “Silvanie. Do you miss him?” She was looking at me her eyes flashing with light blue and white. “I miss them every day.” Her color turned to bright orange. “Is Edmund alive?” The sadness in my heart could not be expressed. “No, he was human, and humans have a lower lifeline than werewolves. Since I am an Elder, I have a longer lifeline than normal werewolves.” Her eyes turned to light orange and light blue. “Was he your Mate?” I nodded no. “Then, how did you?” If my story can help her get hope, I will tell her. “I fell in love with him, I know falling in love is for humans, but for some reason he captures me, the first moment I saw him and those hazel eyes I was at lost, words could not even describe what I fell, my thoughts were invaded of him every time he was not around, my heartbeat like it was ripping out of my chest every time he came closer, and I would smile like a child every time I receive a letter from him.” These are memories very dear to me. “Is that falling in love with someone?” I was glad I could help her. “I think is different from person to person, and we werewolves feel it more than normal humans.” She seems to be thinking about it. “How did you continue after?” “Junius was hard, I lost the ability to have children and he was like a son to me, losing him made my world upside down, I know I should have not got so attached to him, but I could not help it.”
P.O.V Brielle
I could see the tears down on Silvanie face, fighting the years that her appearance started showing. “I think you would make a good mother.” She just looked at me. “Thank you, Brielle.” “That was one of the reasons she waited until it was his birthday.” I understood that what I was saying maybe a shock to her. “Lutrice waited? I only knew that the father had something to do with it.” I was not sure if this is correct. “I saw Lutrice memories. I don’t understand why?” She nods, “that is because the diary is linked to Lutrice tree.” I remember the dream with Lilian.
----- Flashback -----
Laughs “Lutrice, long time no see. I see time has not been kind to you. Still grounded to that dying tree.” Sarcasm. “Do not forget your place child, since you are part of that dying tree also. See that little branch in the top? That is, you.”
----- End Flashback -----
“Do you know what will happen to the tree if the curse is lifted?” Something about that tree makes me think that it's important. “Probably will fade away.”
“The souls?” She thought for a few seconds. “Maybe Natasha can help you with that question when it’s time for it.” “Did you have other children after Julius?” I could see the conversation was not being easy for her. “No, I was already an Elder when I meet Edmund, he knew I could not have children. Because of our lifespan, no father or mother should outlive their children, they are supposed to be the continuing of life, not the end of it. The pain of losing a child is the same as losing a mate to werewolves, we could lose who we are.” I was still looking at her seeing her face change and stop to think before answering. “Werewolves have second chances.” She gave me a small smile. “Yes, but only on mate, never on sons. Even knowing that still hurts, a lot.” “Does Lutrice as a second chance?” She stopped like that was new to her. “That is a really good question, I never thought of that. But even so, she is limited in her actions, the second chance would have to come to her for them to be together.” It was something that I was wondering ever since I heard the story of the rejection. Why Lutrice did not have a second chance. “Do you think that is possible?” “Everything is possible, the question then will be, will she accept him? A broken heart that has been fueled with hatred, vengeance, death, can it be cured?”
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