The Hybrid and The Prince

Chapter 8

Alex's POV

It's been a week with no luck on finding my mate. I came up with the idea that me and Ashton travel around to the various packs since he's eighteen now he'll soon be taking over as Alpha and needs a Luna so naturally dad agreed but mom was very skeptical saying she doesn't think it'll be safe so I had Ashton make her believe she thought he wouldn't make a good leader or alpha and after the guilt trip she agreed as well. So now we are on our way to the sixth pack this week only staying a night at a time and neither of us have found our mate if we don't find our mates in the country, we will have to begin searching outside of it preferably starting in Italy since I have always wanted to go. Ashton has been feeling down more and more thinking he'll never find his Luna, but I know he will soon. I don't know how, just hope, I guess.

"So, are you excited?" I ask trying to lighten the mood.

"What's there to be excited about I'm never going to find my mate" Ashton answers with a heavy frown on his face.

"Hey, you can't lose hope because if you lose then I lose hope and I can't lose help, I can't be a human forever Ashton" I tell him feeling tears well in my eyes trying to fight it but it's getting harder maybe I should just give up maybe I'm meant to be alone and a human until I die.

"You'll find him" Ashton says to me. Everyone in my family knew I was gay, but they all accepted me unconditionally making me feel loved, never making me feel like I'm in this alone even after finding out I was just a human the biggest disappointment my Alpha werewolf couple could have.

"You don't know that" I sigh "Besides what if he rejects me?" I could feel my heart drop to my stomach at the thought because it is possible, I mean no werewolf wants a human as their mate that's why it's very rare to get one and those who do end up rejecting them at first sight.

"If he rejects you, he would be a fool because you're amazing and anyone would be lucky to call you theirs" so corny I know right but that's my baby brother and I love that he's willing to be cheesy for me even if he's an Alpha.

"You're just saying that because you're my brother" I tease him.

"Please when have I ever done anything like this just because I was your brother?" he questions and now that I think about it me and Ashton haven't been close, I mean we rarely even talk only when we have to, I never knew why I just assumed it was because he was busy with Alpha training.

"Never" I voice out "I always assumed it was because you were busy with Alpha training, is that not the case?" I ask him genuinely wanting to know the answer.

"I didn't like you" he says like it's the natural thing ever.

"Why not?" I ask barely audible. Why didn't my own brother like me, did I do something wrong?

"You didn't do anything wrong" he answers my unasked question like he read my mind which I know isn't possible because even though I was born into the pack I'm human, so I don't have a mind link like everyone else in the pack.

"I can read it on your face" he answers again chuckling "mom and dad just always doted on you, everything was about you all because you were human and I get it, it wasn't your fault but while you were being doted on Dad was pushing me hard to be the best, he expected nothing less than that. I didn't hate you I guess I just envied you because you got both mom and dad's love while all I got was Alpha training and harsh lessons" he continues, and I realized just how much of a horrible brother I am that I didn't even see he was hurting or that I was the cause making the tears in my eyes sting that much more.

"I'm sorry Ashton, I didn't know, I'm such a terrible brother" I express to him voice cracking trying to hold in the sob threatening to escape "I doubt this will make things better, but I envied you too, you had a bond with dad that I never would because you were born as an Alpha and I'm just a weak human. I wanted to be the next Alpha, I never understood why dad would never train me until I turned eighteen and didn't shift effectively making the whole pack label me as weak when all I ever wanted was to be strong, to be able to protect myself as well as the pack" I can't believe we never noticed our jealously towards the other.

"You would make a great Alpha"

"I'm human or did you forget?" I ask him chuckling while rolling my eyes at him. I'm glad we took this trip together.

"I'm happy you decided to come with me" I tell him sincerely looking at the side of his face as he paid attention to the road while driving.

"Oh, shut it" he mutters squinting his eyes at the road like he doesn't have prefect vision lol "I'm glad I came too" he continues glancing at me while scratching his jaw, a nervous tick he's had since we were kids. After that the rest of the car ride was spent in a comfortable silence and I can honestly say I'm glad we talked about our feelings towards each other because I think it made our relationship stronger.