Rough Desire

Chapter 6

Deans pov:

To say I was disappointed in myself would be an understatement right now. Deep in thought, I paced back and forth in my room, tugging at my hair, frustrated at my actions from a few days ago. I couldn't get the confused and disappointed look of her face out of my mind. I don't know what came over me, id never came so fast in my life but something about her made me lose all control instantly and now I felt like id ruined her first time. I shouldn't even care but I really did. My father had raised me to not care about women, to never get close enough to catch any feeling and that nothing good would ever come out of a relationship. I had lived my whole life by those rules, following in his every step but the older I got the more I realized how messed up my father really was and the more I was determined not be like him. His life was my motivation to never let a woman get to me. One night stands was all I had ever done and when the girls would leave I never felt anything. But now here I was disappointed in the way I had treated her. I was so embarrassed that I had came so fast that I told her to get out instantly and that only made me feel worse now. I mean was I feeling bad because of her though or because I knew I could do better. Yeah that was it. It wasn't anything to do with her, It was because I needed to prove it to myself. I couldn't stop thinking about it and I knew I wouldn't stop till I made things right. Till I f****d her right.

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Avas pov:

Id spent the last few days thinking about him, replaying every moment in my mind like I was watching a movie on repeat. Everything he did felt amazing but it just ended to soon way to soon and I wasn't near done. I wanted so much more of him.

I was surprised that he had preformed like that, I was expecting hours not minutes, I was expecting him to keep going after he came but he didn't. Maybe id just expected to much or maybe he had already slept with another girl before me and I was just getting her left overs. Ever since Id gotten my hands on him I hated the thought of him sleeping with someone else even more. I quickly shook my head, that's not what I wanted to think about now. Back to the movie playing in my mind.

A smile formed on my face as I thought about the way he had reacted to the lingerie I picked and I couldn't help but feel a little proud that I could turn him on like that.

He had made me rush out so fast once we were done that I didn't even get a chance to slip them back on and practically had to run home half naked. But it was worth it. If only he had given me more. I had to fight everything in me to not go see him  again, I just wanted to throw myself on his bed and let him go again and again....that's if he actually could.

A sudden knock at the door broke me out of my thoughts. I forced myself to roll out of bed, grabbing my fluffy black robe on my way out the room I quickly threw it on. It was most likely the mail man with one of my late night online shopping sprees. or as I like to call them my bag of therapy.

I swung the door open, the hey that was on its way out of my mouth got caught in my throat. As I stared at the gorgeous man I couldn't get out of my mind. He was dressed in his usual causal style. I know I shouldn't have been so excited to see him but I was. Every time I saw him something about him made my stomach turn and now I realized it had only gotten worse since sleeping with him.

With one eye brow raised he look me up and down. I could feel myself blush as I pulled the robe around me tighter. Why did he have to come now when I was a mess and almost naked. 

"Do you usually sleep in til midday?" he asked not taken his eyes of my body, which only made my redden checks darkened further.

"Do you usually c*m after 5 seconds?" my smart ass side blurted out before my sensible brain actually registered what I was saying.

"Wow so guess you are upset about that then?" he chuckled as if he wasn't even embarrassed by it at all.

"Nah its fine you just ruined s*x for me forever that's all" I playfully replied but as the words left my mouth I saw a hint of something in his face. Regret? maybe? "I'm joking" I quickly added not wanting to push this opportunity away "So what brings you here"

" Straight to business then is it? No muffins or brownies this time?'

"What would I get in return?" I teased. I know he said it was only going to be a time thing but flirting with him came so easy and if it lead to a second time then I wouldn't be complaining.

He let himself in closing the gap between us.

"What would you get in return?" he said before leaning in so his mouth was inches from my ear "A good f**k that's what"

His words sent shivers through my body. Yes Please! I thought. Id open a bakery just to get more of this man right now. I could feel his warm breath on me and I was desperate for him to lean a little closer so I could feel his lips on my neck again. "Are you gonna last more then 5 seconds this time" I said teasingly.

"Yep....... I'll last 6" he teased back before grabbing the robe belt and pulling it undone.

Taking a step back he looked over my body. I was wearing a simple pastel green bra and matching panties. I didn't like that he was seeing me in such a state but his hungry gaze said what I was wearing was more then enough to turn him on.

"Lets go" He finally said tugging at my arm gently. 

"I have a bed here you know?" I replied pointing in the direction of my room.He smirked and pulled me harder till my exposed body stumbled into his arms. "I'm not f*****g you in no little princess bed"