Rough Desire

Chapter 14

Ava pov:

I felt like my brain was going to explode!

I couldn't stop thinking about everything that had happened between me and Dean. Why wasn't I able to stop myself around him?  Why did I keep putting myself out there, humiliating myself over and over again just to have him turn me down. Why did I want him so bad? What had he done to me?

Nothing. Nothing, expect be an absolute jerk that is. Why did he have to play with my feeling like this? What the hell was wrong with him? And what was wrong with me? How many bloody times did he have to reject me till I finally got it. 

This wasn't his fault, this was mine. He had been clear with me from the start, I was the one who wouldn't let it go and kept pushing for more but.... but I mean you can't blame me for wanting more, hes just so goo......NO! Stop! Don't give in, that jerk doesn't deserve you thinking about him and in fact stop blaming yourself, there is nothing wrong with you, its him that's messed up and can't see how good you would be together.

I felt the anger inside me rising as I thought about what he had said. Find someone who's interested. Find someone who's interested! Fine I will. Your not the only man in the world Dean. 

I threw myself onto the bed and dragged my laptop over. I wasn't even sure what I was looking for but I had to do something I couldn't stay in this house sobbing over someone who didn't want anything to do with me. I was better off without him.

After searching a few options I had finally decided on the gym because well a man who would be able to workout regularly wouldn't have the commitment issues Dean had.  Now I don't want you to get my wrong. This wasn't only about finding a guy and having some s*x. No No this was so much more. I had lived most of my life alone, often keeping myself lock away at home rather then socializing and what my parents had told me a thousand times had finally sunken it. This wasn't a life. So not only was the gym a good place for me to find a man but it would also be a good opportunity for me to improve myself.

My parents would always be busy, deep down I knew that and now that little girl that had been waiting for her parents to take a moment and just give her some attention, yeah she was finally done waiting for them to be there. I wasn't angry at them, I was thankful for how hard they worked for us but now I needed to get out, I needed to make friends, to find love, to live.

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Taking a deep breath, I swiped my key card and pushed the gym door open. It didn't matter that I had been going for more then a week it still made me nervous walking in every time.  You might have assumed that this was because I was insecure and all that about my body but that wasn't it. In fact I was pretty happy with my body but the problem was it was getting me a lot more attention then I had originally anticipated. I know that sounds so stupid right. I came to get attention from guys and now I was complaining that it was to much. Your probably thinking geeze nothing makes this girl happy and your kinda right it doesn't. None of this attention did, if anything it made me irritated.

I took of my black crop hooded jacket reviling the army print sports bra that matched the tight mini shorts I was wearing. I stuffed the jacket along with my backpack into one of the lockers and headed into the main area. As I made me way over to the dumbbell rack I gave the young guy that was refusing to take his eyes of me a small smile. I began by picking up the 5kgs and testing it, hmm maybe too light. I moved over to try the ones that were a little heavier when out the corner of my eyes I noticed the same guy heading towards me. Here we go I thought to myself. 

Reaching the rack he automatically went over to the heavy weights and picked up a pair of 20kgs. I could see him watching me as he curled his arms in an attempted to capture my attention with his muscles. It took all my efforts not to roll my eyes at the smug look he had on his face. I bet Dean could double that. Images of his shirtless body flooded my mind and I was so glad a moan didn't escape my mouth at that moment, I didn't want the guy next to me thinking what he was doing was turning me on. Every time I saw a guy now I could instantly compare him to Dean and I hated it. I was here to forget him and with that reminder in mind I turned and gave an impressed smile.

"Wow I would never be able to lift that much. You much be really strong"

"Oh this" He said smiling ear from ear clearing happy that he had finally received my attention "This is nothing" 

Without warning he threw down the dumbbells and reached for the 30kg ones. The confident smug smile on his face was soon replaced with a look of struggle as he attempted to curl the weight. Clearly being to heavy he only managed a few curls before he was forced to dropped the dumbbells down. 

I was so unimpressed by his little show but never the less I gave him another smile "Wow impressive."

"Yeah." He arrogantly replied as he came closer just leaving the dumbbells laying there on the floor. "So you must be knew."

"Is it that obvious?" 

"Yeah it is. No one uses those tiny weights unless they don't know what they are doing." He flicked his blonde hair aside giving me a better look at his light brown eyes. He wasn't a bad looking guy and his body wasn't that bad either though it wasn't really that big his muscles were defiantly noticeable. "Here let me help you" He continued saying.

"Um thanks" I said not that I really had much of a choice since he had already began positioning our bodies together. He stood behind me and reached his arms around me, wrapping both his hands over mine he began lifting my arms forcing them to curl the 8kg dumbbells the same way he had. I cringed at his unnecessary closeness as I felt him breathing against my neck while the way he had me pushed up against him made it impossible for me not to feel how hard his d**k was getting.

Who the hell did he think he was grabbing me like this? I was ready to push him off me when a loud noise came from behind us. Someone must had lost control of a machine causing the weights to crash back down with a loud thud. Thankful for the distraction that had helped occupy this creeps attention, I quickly pulled away and put a bit of distance between us. 

"Idiots" He said as if he was better then everyone else here. "So where were we?" I hated the way he smirked as he looked me up and down, not bothering to even hid the fact that he was noticeably hard. Didn't he realize how uncomfortable I was or did he realize and just not cared. 

Stepping forward he reached out to grab my hands once more. I thought that pulling away from him the first time was enough to show him I wasn't interested but it seemed I needed to rip into him for him to get the message. 

"Excuse me!" trying to dodge his hands I took a few steps back unexpectedly crashing into something. Instantly two big arms wrapped around me. 

Fuck! I could feel the panic in me rising as I helplessly tried to escape this new comers grip but to my distress their grip only tightened.

"Is everything okay babe?" the man suddenly growled making my whole body stiffen in his arms.

....Wait....I ....I know that voice.