Loving The Heartless Man

Chapter 11

Elara Pov

I've been lying in bed for a while but I can't sleep. I even took a bath to refresh myself and fall asleep quickly, but it had no effect. Until now, my eyes are still open and I'm tossing and turning in bed. It feels like it's humid on my body.

I took a deep breath before deciding to get up and get out of bed. I took the white bathrobe hanging and put it on before leaving my room. There's a terrace near to my room so I decided to go there to get some air and make myself sleepy.

When I reached the terrace, I held onto the railing and looked up at the blue sky. The full moon was bright, so I could see how clear the sky was. It's very peaceful to watch the clouds slowly moving with the breeze. Suddenly, I felt envious of them. They're calm up there while my mind is like clouds moving in every direction because of the strong wind carrying them.

I am thinking about what Liam told me. He said I should try seeing a psychiatrist. Maybe I can get better from this illness. Actually, it's not just now that my friend suggested I see a psychiatrist. When he found out I had a social phobia, he immediately told me to consult a psychiatrist, but I refused him. But during our last conversation, he mentioned it to me again so I really thought about it this time. Maybe he was right. I should visit a psychiatrist to cure my illness.

After almost thirty minutes of just staring at the clouds, I decided to go back to my room. But just as I stepped out onto the terrace, I saw Alexander slowly climbing the stairs. I frowned. He looked drunk, that's why he was walking like that.

Instead of going straight to my room, I just stood by the door and waited for him to come up. I frowned even more when I saw him stop while staring intently at me. It was as if he had seen something unbelievable.

"What are you looking at? Why are you looking at me like that?" I couldn't help but ask him.

"Goddess. How did a goddess get lost inside my house?" Alexander said instead of answering my question. Because of his drunkenness, he could no longer recognize me.

"You hallucinate when you're drunk, Alexander. My advice to you is not to get drunk because instead of climbing the stairs to your room, you might climb the stairs to heaven."

"How did such a beautiful goddess arrive at my house?" Alexander said absentmindedly while continuing to stare at me. It seems he doesn't know what he's saying because of drunkenness. But in fairness, even though he's drunk, his speech is still straight. He's not like other people who, when drunk, speak brokenly and are hard to understand.

"You're too drunk, Alexander. It's better if you go into your room and sleep." I shook my head before walking towards my room. But I hadn't passed by where he was standing when he suddenly fell to the floor as he tried to step closer to me. I was alarmed when I saw his eyes were closed. I immediately approached him and shook his shoulder vigorously. "Alexander! Are you still alive?"

"Uuhmm," was his faint moan in response to me. I breathed a sigh of relief because it turned out he just fell asleep from drunkenness. Annoyed, I slapped his forehead hard. I got nervous because I thought he had a heart attack or something, which is why he collapsed. The people in this house might think I murdered him.

I'm not a person without the heart and conscience to just let him sleep on the floor, so I had no choice but to force him to stand up to take him to his room. But the problem is I don't know which of the rooms in this house is his room. I didn't ask Mercy which one was their boss's room. If I ask and Alexander finds out, he might think I'm planning something bad against him again.

"Hey! Where's your room?" I asked the sleeping man even though I wasn't sure if he could hear my voice. He didn't respond. I was already sleepy, so I decided to let him sleep in my room.

I just pulled his hands towards my room since he couldn't stand up properly and walk. Alexander is a big man and has a heavy body, so I had a hard time dragging him into my room and laying him on the bed. I felt like I was pulling a sack of cement and not a person.

I stared at the face of the man with closed eyes. Even though his hair was messy and his clothes were disheveled, it was undeniable that he was still handsome. Surely many women are chasing after this face. And it was because of that face that I fell for him before. But I will not let what happened to me before happen to me again.

While I was staring at Alexander's face, he suddenly opened his eyes and our gazes met. My chest suddenly tightened. But not because of his seemingly scorching gaze but because of the worry that he might think badly of me again.

"Beautiful goddess." When Alexander spoke, I breathed a sigh of relief because he was still not in his right mind.

"Goddess your face!" I snapped at him irritably. I was about to get off the bed to sleep on the sofa in the living room instead, but Alexander suddenly moved his hands and held me by the arm.

I turned to him to push him away, but I was surprised when he suddenly pulled me close to him and kissed me hard on the lips. I felt like I was bitten by a snake. I couldn't move while my eyes widened. All I could feel was his soft lips moving on my lips.

A few seconds passed before I could collect myself. When I recovered from the shock, I immediately pushed him hard. But it was like pushing against a wall. Alexander was strong and seemed unwilling to let me go. Without thinking further, I bit his lower lip hard. He groaned slightly and finally released me when he felt the pain.

I saw that the part of Alexander's lip that I bit was bleeding, but I didn't care. He deserved it. I grabbed a pillow and threw it forcefully at his face before leaving my room. Tomorrow when he wakes up, he will surely think badly of me when he realizes he slept in my room.