Jeremy Gabby won"t tell me what is going on with her. I try not to care, but that isn"t me. There is no trust left between us and I"m stuck just watching her brood. “Is she going to be okay?” I ask Lee as we watch Gabby practice her shooting. Everything about her lately seems destructive. “She hates herself right now,” Lee says sadly. If I didn"t already know that Lee had feelings for Gabby, his eyes would give him away. He talked to me about it a few days ago because, for once, the big American just needed to talk. It"s strange, I thought I"d be jealous of Lee and Gabby, but I kind of just feel bad for the guy. Gabby isn"t an easy person to love, but at least they have each other. I"m drifting alone. I have no family; no one that I really love. I don"t really have a reason to keep fi

