CHAPTER 1

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POV: Kara, Age 6 She didn't know her name. That was the thing that frightened her mostnot the hunger, not the cold, not the strange sounds the mountains made at night when the dark pressed in from every direction. Those things were bad. But not knowing her name was worse. It sat in the middle of her chest like a stone, heavy and wrong, because she understood, in the wordless way that children understand things adults have to reason through, that your name was the most basic thing you owned. It was the first thing anyone ever gave you. And hers was gone. She walked because walking felt safer than standing still. The trees were tall here, older than anything she had words for, their roots twisting up through the earth like fingers reaching for something they'd never quite catch. Her shoes were ruinedone had lost its strap entirely, and she'd taken it off and carried it for a while before dropping it somewhere she couldn't remember. Her feet were dirty. Her dress, which had once been white with small yellow flowers along the hem, was now the colour of the earth she'd been sleeping on. She didn't know how many nights she'd slept on it. More than one. Maybe more than three. The days had started to blur at the edges, soft and unreliable, like a dream you're already forgetting while you're still inside it. She had cried, at first. A lot. She'd cried until her throat hurt and her eyes were so swollen she could barely see, calling out for someone whose name she couldn't remember, in a voice that the mountains swallowed whole without even trying. And then, when the crying had wrung her out completely, she'd gone very quiet and very still inside herselfthe way a frightened animal goes stilland she'd started to move. One foot, then the other. That was all. Just keep moving. She smelled the fire before she saw it. Wood smoke. Something cooking. Something warm and savoury that hit her empty stomach like a fist, and her feet stopped without her telling them to. She stood at the edge of the tree line, one hand gripping the bark of the nearest trunk, and peered out at the small stone house that sat in the clearing ahead of her. It was a modest, sturdylooking thingwhitewashed walls, a red clay roof, a garden along one side that was more vegetables than flowers. Chickens picking their way between the rows. A line of washing strung between two posts, bright colours stirring in the breeze. She should keep walking. That was what the frightened, careful part of her said. The part that had kept her alive these past few days on instinct alone. Don't go near strangers. Don't trust people you don't know. She knew that rule. She knew it the way she knew the sun rose in the east and that you shouldn't run near swimming poolsit was simply true, a fact of the world, stitched into her so early she'd never had to think about it. But then the door of the house opened, and an old woman stepped out. She was smallsmaller than she should have been, somehow, like the years had slowly compressed herwith silver hair pinned at the back of her head and an apron tied over her clothes that had flour on it. She was carrying a bowl of something, heading toward the garden, and she was humming to herself. A low, unhurried sort of melody that had no particular shape, the way people hum when they've forgotten they're doing it. She looked up. And she saw the girl at the edge of the trees. For a long moment, neither of them moved. The old woman went very still, the bowl held in both hands, her dark eyes steady and careful andnot frightened. That was the thing. She didn't look frightened. She looked the way you look when you've found a bird with a broken wing and you don't want to startle it before you've had a chance to help. She set the bowl down slowly on the garden wall. She didn't move toward the girl. She didn't call out. She just crouched downknees clearly complaining about it, from the way she winceduntil she was small and unthreatening, and she said something in a language the girl didn't understand. But the tone was unmistakable. It was the tone of it's all right. I see you. I'm not going to hurt you. The girl's legs gave out. She didn't fall so much as foldknees hitting the earth, hands catching herself, and then she was just sitting there at the edge of the trees with her ruined shoes and her dirty dress and her stone chest, and she was crying again even though she'd been certain she had nothing left. The old woman made a soft soundsomething between a word and a sighand she moved then, slowly and deliberately, crossing the clearing without rushing, giving the girl every opportunity to run if she needed to. She didn't run. She didn't have the energy for it anymore. She just sat and cried and let the woman come, and when the woman settled onto the ground beside her unconcerned about her own clothes, apparently, which said something and opened her arms, the girl thought about it for exactly three seconds. Then she climbed into them. The old woman held her the way you hold something precious. Tight enough to feel safe. Loose enough to breathe. She was warm in the way old things are warmdeep and steady, like a hearthstone that's been absorbing heat for decades. She rocked, slightly, without seeming to think about it, and she kept making those soft sounds, words the girl couldn't understand but didn't need to, because some languages don't require translation. She smelled like flour and wood smoke and something floral that the girl couldn't name. She smelled like safety. The girl cried herself out for the second time. When she finally surfaced, limp and exhausted and oddly lighter, she became aware that an old man had appeared in the doorway of the house. He was taller than the woman, broadshouldered in the way men are when they've done physical work their entire lives, with a white moustache and eyes that were warm and worried in equal measure. He said something to the womanRosa, he called her, which must have been her nameand Rosa responded without loosening her hold on the girl, and whatever she said made the man nod and disappear back inside. He reappeared a few minutes later with a blanket. He brought it across the clearing and held it out not to wrap around the girl himself, because he understood instinctively that she wasn't ready for that yet, that too much too fast would send her skittering back to the trees and Rosa took it and settled it around the girl's shoulders with the practiced ease of someone who had comforted small things before. "¿Cómo te llamas?" Rosa asked eventually, pulling back just enough to look at the girl's face. Her eyes were dark and kind and very direct. She pointed to herself. "Rosa." Then she pointed to the man. "Mateo." Then she pointed, gently, at the girl. "¿Y tú?" The girl understood what was being asked. She opened her mouth. I closed it. I tried again. There was nothing there. Not a flicker, not a fragment, not even the shape of a sound that might once have been familiar. Just blankness, smooth and terrible, where something important had been. She shook her head, and she saw something pass across Rosa's facenot pity, exactly. Something more complicated. Something that looked like the moment you decide something without quite realizing you've decided it. Rosa nodded, very slowly. Then she said something soft and deliberate, and even without understanding the words, the girl understood the meaning: That's all right. We have time. Mateo, for his part, said nothing more. He simply went back inside, and a few minutes later the smell of whatever had been cooking grew stronger and more specific beans, the girl thought, and something with cornand her stomach made a sound so loud that Rosa actually laughed. It was a good laugh. Warm and unguarded, creasing the corners of her eyes, and the girl looked at her for a moment and then, despite everything, despite all of it She almost smiled. Almost. Rosa helped her to her feet with the brisk practicality of a woman who had no patience for lingering on the ground when there was food on the stove, and she kept one hand loosely around the girl's shoulders as they crossed the clearing toward the house. The girl walked carefully, watching her own feet, aware of every step in the way you are when the ground has recently proved itself untrustworthy. At the door she hesitated, and Rosa waited, patient as stone, until the girl took the step herself. Inside was small and warm and cluttered in the pleasant way of a home that's been lived in for a long time. There were photographs on the wallschildren, grandchildren, gatherings and a wooden crucifix above the door and a table with mismatched chairs and a kitchen that smelled of every good thing. Mateo was already ladling food into a bowl, his back to them, giving the girl the gift of not being looked at while she took it all in. She sat when Rosa pointed at a chair. She ate when the bowl was placed in front of her too fast at first, then slower when Rosa put a gentle hand on her arm and said something that clearly meant easy, little one, there's more. The beans were warm and soft and tasted like being cared for. She ate every bit of them. Later, when the bowl was empty and the girl was drooping in her chair, heavy with food and exhaustion and the particular crash that comes after surviving something you're not sure how you survivedRosa reached out to brush the hair from the girl's face. Her fingers were gentle. Her eyes were searching, not in a frightening way, but in the way of someone trying to understand a thing that doesn't quite make sense. And then her gaze dropped. To the girl's wrist. To the small silver bracelet there, so fine and delicate it had been hidden under the dirt and the torn sleeve of her dress. Rosa's fingers stilled. She leaned forward, very carefully, and turned the girl's wrist to the light. The bracelet caught caught the warm lamplight of the kitchen and the engraving on its face became visible. Three letters, etched in a neat, expensive script, the kind of thing that cost money and intention and love. C. E. A. Rosa stared at it for a long moment. Then she looked up at Mateo, who had turned from the stove and was watching her face, and the look that passed between them was the kind of look that only travels between two people who have shared decades, wordless and weighted and full of the same unspoken question. Who is this child? And who is looking for her?
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