I feel exhausted.
Both emotionally and physically.
Last night was…
Well, last night was the best night of my life.
And also the worst.
The best because I finally got to be myself with someone. I didn’t have to hide my wants and needs.
I enjoyed every second of it.
The worst because I let my mate down.
I hurt him because of my insecurities.
Because of my fear of what others would think.
I still have them.
All of them.
All the insecurities and all the fears. How can I go on with this new found realization of myself when all my life I have been taught differently.
All these years I have wanted to be normal.
Have the ability to say who I love and be with someone I love without fear of retribution or ridicule.
I need to make right what I screwed up last night.
Not just my actio
