Master Gallagher

Called him a gossip

Lady Martha had called me to have tea with her. It was her way of checking up on me. Her friends abruptly arrived and she had to attend to them.

"It's been a month get over it and stop sulking." Someone said. It was a familiar voice but I just could not put my finger on it. I know this voice but not well enough. When I turned around Hector stood there with his arms crossed.

"Sure, I have been listening to every conversation you have with Lady Martha; very bad manners." He added walking towards me, he sat next to me and for a moment, I was afraid. He knew more than enough.

"You're trying really hard to hate William. I do not blame you. You're making up every little story in the book just to justify you hating him. What if he actually did not do it? What if he actually does love you? That's a possibility but you're doing this because you do not want to get hurt any further. This is your way of ending this... what ever you call it. Before you cut me off, bare in mind I have listened on your conversations and on William's conversation and I know just enough. Do not cut me off while I speak so close your mouth missy. He made her pregnant, it happened the night you were with your so called husband. He takes full responsibility. I am just rephrasing his words."

It hurt even more now that it was even confirmed.

"At first this was fun to watch but now I'm bored because your self degrading attitude does not cut it. I do not think I have to tell you how beautiful you're or teach you to love yourself. I'm not saying you're special but there must have been something that made William like you in the first place. Everyone is beautiful in their own way even I with my bushy eyebrows that I try to maintain here and there. You have a lot of insecurities, it's annoying. Very annoying. I understand that what happened has absolutely tore you apart because he was your first love or maybe you loved too hard. I understand that but you also need to understand that this would have never worked in the first place. You let it go too far. I don't give fault to you on that, I give it to William as well. Moving forward, staying away from William would be best. Not because he hurt you but because it is what is best for you and your child. Staying away from William will keep you alive for a little while. I say this because I know and I have witnessed what n*****s go through when situations like this occur. Have you thought about the fact that no— allow me to speak first. Have you thought about the fact that you set yourself up for failure if you actually thought a man would not touch his wife because he was having an affair? Never in the history of cheaters."

What?

"You need to start being open minded. You need to grow up, you need to think properly. Stop putting blame on others, anyone. Own it, it happens. Deal with it, for your kid. I need you to accept that you love William, you do. I need you to accept that he loves you as well, in his own way. I need you to accept that this has happened and nothing can be done about it. I need you to start thinking about yourself and your child. Put your pride aside. I need you to accept that you and William may love each other but this has to end. You need to stop being delusional. Making excuses for your feelings and thinking on his behalf is not it. The truth of the matter is I can't speak for William but, you have a lot of self development to do. How do you love someone when you do not even love yourself? Love isn't about looks... don't question what would make William love you. It's a lot of things none of them physical. Alright I'm also getting confused with this little web that you have both created. All I'm saying is, do better. Take fault. He made his wife pregnant, he also made you pregnant and you're also wrong for willingly doing whatever you did with him secretly. If I was a woman I would have never hesitated jumping on that beautiful stunning delicious bag of bones called William..." Hector said dreamily.

"What?" I furrowed my eyebrows.

"I said 'if' that implies, I am speaking hypothetically." He cleared his throat. "Anyways, Master Austin is here and he requested to see you. I know what I said was jumbled but try and use bits of my advise to better yourself. It's just that I have been silently listening for so long that I wanted to voice out my opinion. Now that I finally got the chance. I just mixed it all up and genuinely speaking I have no idea whose side I am on."

What? I'm confused.

"Sit still, I will bring him in." Hector finally stood up leaving me with my thoughts there was just so many things to process. Some I already knew them.

1. William might actually love me

2. I'm too angry 

3. I'm really angry

4. My thoughts are my worst enemy

5. I can never be with William

6. I'm too insecure 

7. Very insecure 

8. Hector doesn't want me to hang myself?

9. I'm only thinking this way so I hate William more than I actually should.

10. What just occurred?

An intimidating man who stood at 6'3 entered the room. I felt uncomfortable sitting in this lavish chair while he stood. He eventually sat on the chair beside me that had been occupied by Lady Martha before she left. He looked at me from head to tall as if studying me like a book. He took off his hat, he cleared his throat.

"I reckon this may sound very weird." He said huskily.

I was sat there confused.

"I have a gift here with me. William gave it to me just over some months back. Today you whirl into the age of twenty-one."

How did he know that? Only my mother knew that. It doesn't matter.

"Thank you." I said almost unsure what to say as he handed me the small rectangular box with an envelope centered on top of it.

"Now before you dispose of it in anger. Consider reading the letter. He wrote it before all this horsing around happened. He would have written it differently if he knew that, this would happen."

"Austin is that you?" Lady Martha entered the room. He immediately stood up to go hug her.

"Certainly me." He remarked. "Since Sir Joshua isn't around figured I'm allowed to come around here.."

She nodded understanding that Master Joshua hated the Cunningham's.

"I see you have met... William's love."

The cringe, I felt so awkward.

"I have, I have." Austin nodded. "May I have a word.."

"Ofcourse, Panashe I will be right with you." Lady Martha said as they both left the room. Hector then entered. "Open it, open open read it!! Goodness, this is getting so good. Can I read it. Can't believe you have been twenty all along. Read it already! Can I read it? You're so young goodness. Read it already, I'm quite anxious!!" He said excitedly.

"You can read it to yourself." I replied.

"Aw you sweet little thing." Hector chuckled. He opened the envelope and started reading it but not aloud. I just stared at him as his eyes scanned through the paper. I needed to be alone.

I needed to think.

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