His Memories of Her

44th

I went home as soon as I finished my session with my therapist, it took me almost all day without any breaks that somehow, I feel so tired but still manage to get drunk as soon as I got home. I took all the alcohol I have and drank all of them making to pass out last night, I am not even sure if five pm could already call as night since there was still a little of sun light.

Even though it is a cold season, I dared myself to get drunk on my roof top making me see the sun sets while giving out a red light all over the sky which somehow made me feel good while finishing those bottles of wine.

“I guess I need to go to the supermarket tonight.” I said to myself thinking back of everything that happened last night. I sigh to it before pulling myself up so I could change into my scrubs and white lab coat. So, I could go on with my today’s schedule. I have rounds to make and might be four surgeries to do if everything goes well to one of my patients. Being head of your department is pretty hectic. A lot of patients come to seek for the best, and not bragging but they always want me and so is Dr. Altman. Henry, I mean. He is one of the best in the whole world, he is known through his articles that even piqued my mentor’s attention there back in Japan when I was still in neuro. So, I was not really surprised when I came here, in fact I was so excited when I found out that I will be working where he works and even felt great when he approached me and told me that we could be friends but felt all the pressure after finding out that he was the key for my missing past and the history I have with him in that past.

I am not even sure anymore how to face him, or how should I treat him. But I am sure enough of one thing, that it would hurt him if I suddenly change in any bad way, he could take it. I do not know what to do, enough to make me sigh looking to my own reflection on my closet’s mirror.

“Well, let’s just try to be natural. Shall we?” I said to myself before turning my back to put on my white coat and excited my office to do my rounds.

Half day later

“Hey!” a familiar voice came as I walk towards the elevator with a thought of finally going home, I mean after the stop to supermarket.

I look back and sees Henry running towards me as I came to stop in front of the elevator.

“Dr. Altman.” I said trying my best to be natural while giving him a small smile.

“You came to work but we never meet in between, is that not weird?” he said pushing the button as he looks up towards the floor number indicator.

“Yeah, I guess we both had a busy day did we not?” I said chuckling a little.

“Yeah, busy. Surgeries one after another and consults aside from rounds.” He said as we enter the elevator which came in no time.

“You said it.” I simply said pushing my floor’s button.

“By the way, how did it go yesterday?” he said.

“Yesterday?” I said as I turn my head looking at him and found out that he is also looking at me.

“The visit to your aunt.” He said back.

“Oh, right. I did so much things today that yesterday felt like did not happened.” I said swaying my way of forgetting that I have lied to him and went to find the history of us.

“I get you. So, did it went well?” he said.

“Yeah, we talked all day long.” Is what came out of my mouth followed by an awkward laugh from me.

“Oh, well it seems that you had fun yesterday, that is something so great to know.” He said that made me look at him after staring too much on the floor indicator feeling do impatient that it is taking too long for my floor to arrive.

“Yeah, I guess. How about you?” I said forcing myself to not cut the conversation which he started with somehow felt like courageously.

“Oh, you were my angel. A great case came yesterday just like what you wished for.” He said with a triumph smile on his face and it made me smile as well.

He look so cute with that smile for that reason. He is like a child who got first in over whole rating exam. It is just mesmerizing to look at his innocent face.

“Mesmerizing?” I exclaimed to myself after waking up from staring at him.

“You have a lot of things to feel and be mesmerized is the last you should.” I exclaimed again scolding myself in my own brain. I feel like I have been crazy since I came to his house. Realizing the inappropriate order of events to us.

“I feel great to know that it happened. I would like to hear everything about it.” I said but more like blurted out without really thinking making me curse myself in my mind right after the words came out of my mouth. I wanted to slap myself but that would me look even crazier.

“Then how about dinner tonight?” he said that made me stop from going crazy on my own and made me look at him with surprised look.

“Is tonight no good?” he said turning the excited tone earlier into a solemn one now matching with that cute long face.

I want to say no, that tonight is fine but I feel like I will punch myself on the face even before that dinner ends so I have no choice but to say “Yeah, I have plans for tonight, so I guess I will say no. Maybe tomorrow.” After taking a deep breath of self-restraint.

“Well, I guess I will just have to ask you tomorrow.” He said as the elevator doors opens which he took step forward and to my guess is getting off.

“Yeah. See you tomorrow.” I said in response to his goodbye.

“Hello?” I said answering my ringing phone without even looking at it to check.

“Cath, I was just wondering if you could come tonight, Ryu has been bugging me to call you over.” Mika my sister-in-law said.

I smiled hearing that little man’s name and now that she has said his name, I do know very well that I will not be able to say no and so I open my mouth and said “Then, I will head over now.” With a little excitement as well.

“Great! He wants to see you since your brother will be coming back the day after tomorrow, and we will be heading to Kyoto right away.” She said in triumph.

Right, they will be gone again for almost a month and that means that I will not be seeing Ryu for a whole month if I do not go tonight. And I feel so guilty that I feel like I have neglected him in these days that I have been focusing on Henry, I feel so guilty like a wife cheating over her husband.

I bit my lip and said “Now, I feel guilty that I have not seen him for almost a month already.” I said as I start walking towards my car and unlocks it as quick as I could.

“He has been pouting since after the day you visited him and promised that you will return the next night.” Mika said giggling on the phone.

“Mom! Is that mommy Cath?” I hear Ryu’s voice getting clearer and louder as the sound of his footsteps.

“It is and guess what.” Mika said with a little excited tone. I could imagine her face and the face Ryu is making as he sulks.

“I do not care. I am mad at her.” He said without a doubt pouting those small pink lips as hard as he could.

“You hear that?” Mika said.

“Put me on loud speak.” I said while giggling.

“You are now.” Mika said giggling as well.

“Well, young man, mommy Cath is sorry, can you just forgive her? She will be coming flying to you with your favorite donuts.” I said in cooing tone and hoping it would have the expected effect.

“Really? If you are flying over then that means you will be here in no time.” He said that made me sweat and gulp down.

I could hear Mika giggling in the background while surely watching her son while holding the phone for him. But I decided to be smarter than my usual self this time and so I open my mouth and said “I could baby, but you know how long the line is in that donut store we love so I could not in no time, but I will make sure to make it short.” I said in almost pleading tone.