Married to Mysterious

CHAPTER TWENTY FIVE

I turned to the other side of the bed unable to find a comfortable position. My own first time is not lit candles and scented flowers or sweet words. Rather it was what it was and I'm accepting it the way it is. I sat down on the bed drawing the blanket to cover my body. I covered my hands with my mouth and cried trying to erase the pain in my heart. One thing I realized is that I'm not crying because of what happened. I'm crying because of disappointment. I'm disappointed because he wasn't here with me when I woke up. I'm disappointed because he doesn't care. I'm disappointed because I do care about him. Because I'm in love with him and he doesn't love me back. I don't even know if he is capable of loving me back. Yes I'm in love with him without doubt. I'm in love with him despite his mood swings and annoying ways. I cried harder trying to get it all out. I wiped my face with the blanket.

You are going to be strong jidda. You are going to take bath get dressed and eat your breakfast like you normally do. y seen a ghost.

He handed me the cup of coffee and I offered a "thank you " before sipping on it.

Again I didn't expect what came next, he kissed my forehead before siting beside me on the bed.

"Are you okay? " he asked looking at me.

I nodded my head unable to form words.

"you were crying " he noticed and his forehead creases with his frown.

I ignored his comment and sipped my coffee. I'm glad he didn't leave me. That he is here with me.

" jidda please don't cry. I'm sorry. I mean I'm not sorry for what happened between us. I'm sorry for the way I have been treating you. You deserve better than that. I came back earlier because I missed you, because I wanted to see you."

"we are not the best of couples but, I want us to try princess "

I heard him but I'm not in the position to talk. I lost my voice. I doubt I'll be able to form a word even if I wanted to. So I nodded my head.

"I'll allow you to take your bath and then join me for breakfast okay? " he kissed my cheek before leaving the room.

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I groaned before tossing my phone away. I swear i couldn't seem to pass this level. Why would something that seems so easy be the exact opposite? I have been playing adventure of jabber on my phone having nothing to do and tired of sitting alone. Adeel left Immediately after breakfast. It's past 8:00 pm now and he's not back.

My phone rang and I was more than eager to pick it up.

"sister "

"brother " I called back

" called to ask how many events you did at your wedding sister "

"just walima bro. Is that why you called? "

"please save me sister, I know its your doing. Talk to them and lessen the events. You wanna make me go bankrupt ne? " he scolded

" the events are not much brother, it's just bridal shower, kanuri evening, Arabian night, kamu and dinner " I smiled. I love messing with him.

" Are you kidding me? I know you are the mastermind behind this Zara. I'm so worried you will be dictating our life when we get married. I mean you are manipulative and the girls do everything you want "

"I don't know what you are talking about brother "

"please jidda. What do you want me to do? "

" now you are talking. Come visit me now!

"I can't "

" so you don't need my help Afterall? "

"no sis, I'm not in town. Won't be back for another two weeks. "

"you never visited me since I got married. And now you out of town and I don't even know "

"I'm sorry D? I'll come visit you when I get back okay? I promise. "

"you come visit me the same day you get back. You promise. "

I heard the sound of Adeel's car come in and I quickly ended the call. He came in carrying his bag and a pile of papers in his hands. I helped him put them down on the sofa. He smiled at me. With a tender kiss on my forehead he asked about my day.

"it was normal. yours? "

"don't even ask about it. It's been hectic. I'm hungry. Food? "

"it's ready. Should I take this to your room while you eat? "

" nah, I have to work on them. " he seems so tired. Like its the last thing he wanted to do. "

He finished his food and prayed isha prayer before coming back to work on his file of papers occasionally checking his system. He has been going at it for more than and hour while I lay down on the sofa Messing with my phone and occasionally peeking at him. He seems so concentrated. I'm sure he's forgotten that I'm still here. His handsome face hardened into a frown. He cursed under his breath before flicking another page. I stared at him for a minute before finally deciding and I dropped my phone before getting up. I walked around standing behind him. He didn't even notice me get up. I placed my hands on his shoulder and start massaging them. He was rigid for a moment before relaxing under my touch. I kept massaging him for about ten minutes while he walk away before he stopped and took a deep breath.

"thank you princess. I really needed that. "

"you almost done?"

"I'm done actually "

I stopped what I was doing and went back to my previous position on the sofa.

"princess? "

"yes? "

"you were right when you said that"

"when I said what? "

"that I was letting her take control of my life. I'm going stop it. I'm not going to let her win. You will help me do it. I'm ashamed to have love someone like her" his voice sounded broken.

"don't be. We all make mistakes. You know there was a guy I once got engaged to. We were in a relationship for more than a year. He was the perfect man for me and I was head over heels in love with him. And one day I was left to question myself if I ever know him because I realized he was married with two kids. And he was even cruel to his wife. I was heart broken and ashamed. But that didn't stop me from giving relationship another chance. I tried again and It failed again. It was even worst than the first. And now, here I am. We all have scars, some deeper than the others. We just have to be strong to overcome it and leave them in the past where they belong.

"I heard you also rejected a marriage proposal of zaid Umar "

"you know him? Is he your friend "

"more like an acquaintance "

"I simply dislike the guy"

"you must have had your reasons "

"well the guy is rich "

"because he's rich? " he sounded shock.

"he's like really rich. His wealth scares me and I'd prefer a simple life. He's too cocky and full of himself. He feels like he has the world in his hands because he's rich. He was trying to treat me like a charity case. He thought he could buy me with his wealth. For him I'm not going to be a woman he'll love and care for. Not his life partner,I'll be a trophy to him. A symbol of richness. His win"

"That sounds like something he'll do "

"looks to me like you don't like him too"

"something like that" he shrugged.

"you look like you needed some sleep. You have overworked yourself "

" come, let's have a sleepover "

"nope " I shook my head.

But he wasn't having it. He picked me up bridal style like I weighed nothing .

"I'm going to tell you a story first "

There was a mischievous glint in his eyes.