way out of your league

Push and pull

Judah's POV

I felt a little bit down after everything Julia did,I mean I never stopped her from going back to her ex,I just needed her to give me the respect of informing me first not f*****g him first and telling me later. Cathy being mad at me cause she felt I was protecting julia wasn't fun at all,I mean she even called me a disgusting human.I can't stand it when she is hurt or mad at me and both occurred due to the situation with Julia.I know she was letting out her frustration when she kissed me.I'm just scared of Cathy hurting me again, I really don't feel too bad about what Julia did,I even felt a little bit of relief which shocked me but I know with Cathy,I just couldn't take it a second time so I stayed away.

We all met up at Hansel's place where Andre introduced us to his new girlfriend Maria,she is cool and dude actually loves this girl which is some thing I never thought I'll see after his time with Nathan's little sister.The girls were very much welcoming to her but I just couldn't keep my eyes off Cathy,this girl is doing something to me without even trying to.

"Man you are drooling, you know you are not over her" Andre said and I just sighed "Today she looks even more seductive, I wonder why"I said "it seems,she is meeting up with that man she met at the bar to discuss business but dude you have cut that crap off,you know you can't let her go" Nathan told me "what would you have me do,yes I love her,I always did but I don't know where her head's at,and I don't want to get hurt again" I said watching Cathy in that tight dress turning me on as she walks smiling."That man catherine met at the bar is offering to assist our girls financially to set up their line,we have to do something about it fast"Hansel said "please we have to pull out cash from our company to support them,I can't stand it when Cathy is around him" I said and they all laughed but agreed to do that.

"What are you guys always discussing quietly" Natalie asked sitting on Nathan's leg "how to keep you girls out of trouble" Nathan said drily "what do you mean,we never get into trouble" Joy replied as Hansel pulled her into his arm saying "That's because we make sure it never happens" "but being adults the girls can actually take care of themselves" Maria said,after kissing her Andre said "Some times they need another set of eyes to detect danger like that man at the bar" Cathy quickly got defensive saying "He is nothing but a gentleman with good intentions" "Trust me Cathy his Intention towards you are anything but good" I said "No Judah he is my friend you might not like him but I do" she replied "I don't have bad feeling towards him but Cathy he is bad news" I replied "No Jude he is not he is even trying to support us financially" she said poking my chest with her finger "Baby trust me,that is because he wants something in return so ask yourself truthfully what does he want" I replied pushing her hair away from her face "Judah,he doesn't want anything" she replied, noticing that the other were now quiet watching us,I simply pulled her away from the group and said "Cathy are you still mad at me"

"No i'm not Jude" she replied."So why can't you look me in the eye, did I offend you again" I asked and she walked towards me kissing me while I moan but she stopped too quickly making me want more."Judah,i'm want you back"she said and I groaned "You know you could break me,I really don't want to get hurt Cathy, the last time was excruciating watching you and Andrew all over campus" I said "That was stupid of me and you know i'm past that" she said kissing me again "i'll think about it" I said and we walked back in.Andre was about saying something but I cut him off saying "Shut up dude" he and everyone else laughed.

After supporting the girls financially and Natalie getting along with Nathan's family which I found suspicious. The girls where ready to open their makeup, clothing and accessory line.Nathan's parents helped a lot and the Opening was filled with high Profile people plus all their goods sold out.We decided to go out to celebrate with out girls.Even though I haven't given Cathy my reply I was still proud of her.In the club with everyone except Julia whose pregnancy has started showing and Tyler who decided to keep her company,I was surprised when Cathy pulled me to dance.It has always felt right dancing with her and this was no exception.We came back to our booth only to have Hansel say "Ok,enough of this,obviously there is extreme s****l tension between you too and we know the feeling is mutual.Get a room and sort out you s**t then f**k your brains out. You guys were practically f*****g on the dance floor, that's Nathan and Natalie's thing" Hansel said "hey,we don't do that" Natalie said but Nathan smirking said "it's a family thing" making me laugh but Cathy cut me off by kissing me.

Cathy got a call and I heard her talking to Tyler,an unusual panic settled on me so I walked away.At that moment I understood what I was really scared of,I was scared of Cathy dumping me,I trust her but I was scared of how much I love her,scared of ever hurting her or messing things up.Scared I might actually hurt her unintentionally so I walked away.

Nathan walked towards me saying "I know what you are thinking, I think about that all the time,knowing i've actually hurt Natalie makes it even harder for me but you hurt her more by rejecting her and you hurt yourself.Can you stand the two of you going through that pain,trust me its a bitter pill to swallow" "how do you know what i'm thinking" I asked "cause you have the look i had when I decided to push Natalie away cause I was scared about how much I love her, and how much I could hurt her so I ended up do just that,Go home,think about if she is end game for you and if she is then stop dragging your feet but if not,let her go" Nathan replied.

I got home and I couldn't sleep,my thoughts where filled with cathy, I don't want to loose her but I also don't want to hurt her,she has gone through a lot and I don't want to be one of the guys that hurt her.I spent four days thinking about this, my work was pilling up,and I couldn't concentrate,I want Cathy,she was it for me and I needed to tell her that fast.On the fifth day Cathy came to my office, mad at me for ignoring her ever since."I can't believe you,if you didn't want me just tell me to my face don't ignore me.I love you Judah but I don't deserve this. Do you want me to stay away from you,yes the man at the bar asked me out,I could go out with him so I stay far away from you,I could even move with him to UK till I get over my feelings for you,i'm sorry about every thing"she said "Cathy,baby its not like that I was coming to talk to you today, please baby listen to me" but I guess she has had enough already, crying she kissed me,she wasn't holding back,she was kissing like it was our last time,I wasn't letting her go so I wrapped my arms around her telling her how much I loved her with that kiss.she pulled away and said "Stop making it harder for me Jude" as her tears won't stop,Nathan warned me about this.I had hurt her and its hurting me to watch her cry so I said "I don't care if you've told that guy yes, i'm not letting you go Cathy, I can't do it,I won't survive it,so stop it,you aren't going anywhere, I swear if you leave i'm coming to UK to drag you back with me Cathy,So Cathy I need you to go home and think about this.I want you to be my girlfriend and I want you to move in with me,I want an answer this evening"

Immediately Cathy left I got scared,did I hurt her too much that she is ready to give up on me,I can't lose her,she was always the one for me.Just before I left the office Natalie called telling me Cathy was meeting up with that man and she wasn't sure of Cathy coming back or flying out with him.she must be joking if she thinks I would let her go.I looked for Cathy everywhere but I couldn't find her. Nathan, Hansel and Andre all joined in searching for her,I was going mad,I almost punched a waiter so the guys drove me back to the apartment, so I can cool off.I walked in to see Cathy in my apartment,stocking the freezer.I couldn't help hugging her."What is going on Jude" she asked since I kept her in my arm refusing to let her go."We've been looking all over for you"Nathan said "Now he has found you,we can leave" Hansel said and they all walked out.

With her still in my arm I said "I heard you were meeting up with that guy, I thought you left me Cathy,I love you so much cathy and you know I can't let you go" "it's ok Jude,I met up with him only to tell him I was madly in love with some one else and I couldn't leave him or feel anything for anyone other than him". Pulling back and looking into her eyes I asked "so would you be my girlfriend and move in with me,please say yes cause I won't accept anything else" "About that" she said but I cut in "just say yes Cathy no buts" "Yes I would be your girlfriend, but about moving in" I cut in "Cathy please, I want you always close to me, you know you were always with me the last time,please Cathy say yes baby" "Yes but give me a little time" she said "ok but you are spending the weekend with me" I bargained "Judah! ok".

I was so happy Cathy was finally mine and I spent the next three weeks moving her things little by little into my apartment, I know she would notice what I was doing soon.Picking her call I heard her say "Judah,I no longer have any undies,in my apartment!!" I guess she has noticed.