Chapter Four
Zuri did not tell him what she had overheard. She could not find the words for it, and some part of her suspected it was not her secret to carry into a conversation with him. So instead she buried it, and threw herself into the project, and told herself the tightness in her chest was about deadlines and nothing else.
It did not work. Not really. Every time Roman walked into a room now, she saw something underneath the smile she had not seen before. It made him harder to be annoyed at. It made him harder to keep at arm’s length.
Four weeks after the gala, they were the last two people left in the studio, leaned over the scale model of the riverside pavilion under one working desk lamp, when Roman finally said the thing neither of them had said out loud.
“I like you.”
Zuri did not look up from the model. “You are supposed to be adjusting the roof pitch.”
“I am aware. I am also aware that I have spent four weeks finding excuses to be in rooms with you that have nothing to do with roof pitch.” He set his pencil down. “I like you, Zuri. I have liked you since you slapped me in a garden and then told me to get off your cable.”
“That is a strange thing to find attractive.”
“I contain multitudes. I believe we covered this already.”
She finally looked up, and whatever she meant to say came out different than planned. “This is a bad idea.”
“Probably.”
“You are my client.”
“Technically Meridian Projects is your client. I am just the guy behind it.”
“That distinction has never once held up in any conversation we have had.”
“Fair.” He stepped closer, slow enough that she had every chance to stop him and did not take it. “So tell me to stop. Say the word, and I will go back to the roof pitch, and we will pretend this conversation did not happen.”
She did not say the word.
They agreed on terms, the way two people who were both too proud to call it what it actually was tended to do. One night. No promises. No expectations past the morning. Zuri laid it out like a contract, and Roman agreed to every line of it, and neither of them believed a single word by the time his hand found hers across the desk and pulled her toward him.
It was not gentle, and it was not careful, and it was nothing like the practiced ease she had expected from a man with his reputation. It felt real in a way that scared her more than the slap ever had.
Afterward, lying in the dark of his apartment with his heartbeat under her ear, she almost told him then — about Julian’s study, about the conversation she was never supposed to hear, about how it had cracked something open in the way she saw him.
She did not say it. Some things felt too big for a night that was supposed to mean nothing.
By morning, she was gone before he woke, and neither of them brought it up again.
Six weeks later, Zuri sat on the edge of her bathroom sink, staring at a small plastic stick like it might change its answer if she looked at it long enough.
It did not.
Two lines. Clear as anything.
She sat there for a long time, knees pulled to her chest, running the math over and over even though the math was not complicated. One night. Six weeks ago. A contract with no promises attached to it that had somehow produced the exact thing neither of them had planned for.
Her phone buzzed on the counter. A text from Roman, unrelated, casual — something about the pavilion’s final lighting plan, a question about a vendor. Ordinary. The kind of message he sent three times a week now, because the project was still ongoing, because avoiding each other after that night had turned out to be impossible when their names were on the same contract.
She stared at the screen for a long time before typing back a short, normal reply, and setting the phone down like it had done something to her.
She was going to have to tell him. She knew that. But not today. Not with the words still too heavy to lift out of her chest.
She saw him three days later at the site walk, standing in a hard hat that did not suit him at all, arguing cheerfully with a foreman about drainage grading. He caught her eye across the site and smiled, the same smile from the garden, the same one that had gotten her into this in the first place, and something in her chest twisted so hard she almost turned around and left.
“You look pale,” he said, once the foreman walked off. “Everything okay?”
“Fine. Long week.”
“You have said that every week for a month.”
“It has been a long month.”
He studied her a moment too long, the way he did sometimes now, like he was trying to read something she was not saying. She braced herself for him to push, and instead he let it go, because that was one of the things she had learned about him — underneath the reckless reputation, he knew when to leave a door closed if someone needed it closed.
She almost told him right there. The words were right at the edge of her mouth.
Then his phone rang.
He looked at the screen, and something shifted in his face — the ease dropping away fast, replaced by something tighter, more guarded. He stepped a few feet away to take it, but she still caught pieces.
“—already told him no—”
“—I do not care what Sienna arranged, I never agreed to—”
“—an engagement announcement is not something you spring on someone at a dinner, Julian—”
Zuri felt the ground shift under her.
Engagement.
He hung up, jaw tight, and turned back to her with an apology already forming, but she was not listening anymore. She was doing the same math she had done in her bathroom three days ago, except now it came out different — now it came out with his name attached to someone else’s, an arrangement his family had built for reasons that had nothing to do with her.
She thought about the two lines on the stick in her medicine cabinet.
She thought about how she was standing on a construction site carrying a secret that was about to become the least convenient thing that had ever happened to either of them.
“I have to go,” she said, before he could explain anything at all.
She walked off the site without looking back, and behind her, Roman stood there with his phone still in his hand, no idea that the woman walking away from him was carrying something that would change both their lives before the year was out.