Rejected but still desired

Heat of the moment

Selena POV:

I stood at the entrance of the pack house as people passed and gave me dirty looks. It made me feel worse, on top of everything I was afraid to step outside alone. What would happen if I just left? Would they chain me up and whip me? I would never truly know until I try. I took my first tentative step outside and looked around for any approaching guard but there was no one. I put my other foot out and stood in front of the pack house door, waiting for the usual repercussions of stepping outside. It went from two minutes to five to ten. No one was coming. I let out a deep sigh of relief and then I ran.

I didn't know where I was going or well, maybe I did. The prettiest place I had seen or ever been to were the cliffs. I ran as hard as I could, my lungs were on fire and my legs hurt but I didn't stop. I needed this. This small bit of freedom, it was everything. When I could finally see the cliffs from in between the trees, I stopped. My chest was burning and my mouth and throat was dry but it was worth it. I wheezed and pushed through between the trees, I took in the smell of pine and loved feeling the texture of the rough bark under the palms of my hand. So this is what freedom was?

"No, freedom is much sweeter." His voice caught me off guard and I spun around alarmed, "what are you doing here?" I asked, feeling the familiar chill run down my spine. "I do not plan on abandoning you," smiled Raze, "I thought you were gone," I said as I pressed my back against the thorny tree, not caring as the prickly bark hooked onto my old tshirt, threatening to make holes or to even rip it.

"Selena," he said as his eyes softened and the chill disappeared, "I really want to help you." He stepped closer to me and I didn't feel scared anymore, "why?" I asked, "You're the one who killed my family!" "I did, yes, but for f**k sakes Selena, I'm a demon, someone made a deal with me and I did my job, you really need to understand that!" His rant had left me speechless. He was right. He was just the man in the middle, Ethan's parents made the deal and no matter what they did or how they accepted me, they were still the people who killed my family and my pack to make sure their's was more powerful. I slunk down against the tree, defeated and angry.

I looked up at him with bitterness in my eyes, "so, what do you want? Me to make a deal with you?" I asked, I watched his eyes flash red as he approached me and I continued to stare up at him defiantly. Snap my neck! Make this easier for everyone! He kneeled down beside me and wrapped his hand around my throat and then his lips smashed into mine and we kissed. I don't know how long we kissed for but there was something about it that was raw and real. It gave me comfort. He pulled away and brushed my red hair back, "I would never force you to do anything that you didn't want to." He breathed out as he leaned his forehead against mine, "I can still take you away from here Selena, just call for me when you need me and I'll come." He got up and gave me one last sad smile before he turned and disappeared into a cloud of black smoke.

I touched my lips and felt them tingle. What just happened? I closed my eyes, briefly replaying the memory. "Selena!" Growled Ethan, breaking my thoughts. My eyes snapped open, panic was the first feeling that hit me, "what!?" I snapped, remembering what his family did. "Why do you smell like burnt flesh!?" He growled as he stomped closer towards me, I pushed myself up off the ground and glared at him, "it's none of your business!"

He pushed me roughly against the tree bark, the thorns piercing my flesh but I showed no emotion that was even relative to the sharp sting that I felt. "It is my business! You're my mate!" His eyes were shifting colors and I knew his wolf was close to the surface but I didn't care. If he ripped out my throat or even my heart, it wouldn't matter. It would be better than living here! He leaned in closer to me and growled possessively, "you kissed him!?" He was accusing me and I pushed him hard away from me, "actually, he kissed me but it's none of your business because we haven't even accepted each other yet!" I snapped, irritated by his possessiveness. "I thought we agreed-" "No!" I snapped as I stared at him defiantly with anger, "you and your family agreed! I've been going along with your bull s**t like I am just some servant!" I screamed and birds that were close by, flew away screeching in fear.

He pushed himself hard against me and kissed me, pulling in my bottom lip with his teeth and biting hard. "Selena! You are mine!" He growled and just like that, I kissed him back harder and gave into the tingles and the anger as he kissed down my neck, nibbling and grazing the spot where he would mark me and simultaneously sending sparks through my whole body. I pushed him off and then against the tree and started ripping his clothes off. I wanted him.

He growled with approval and helped before he ripped off my shirt and took a moment to admire my naked chest. His eyes were black now, a sign that his wolf was now with us too. Ethan went back to kissing me while his hands found my breasts and started tweaking my n*****s and massaging my breasts. I couldn't help but moan at the sensations I was feeling for the first time, "say you're mine!" He growled and I rolled my eyes at his annoying possessiveness and also because he was making me feel so good.