Rejected but still desired

Taking it further

Ethan POV:

I don't know what had come over me but I had her in my arms. At first my mind was racing with dangerous thoughts that she was sneaking out to meet someone else. Another man but she smelled like her normal citrus self and now she was in my arms and I wanted to taste her. I wanted to know what her lips felt like against mine. Her eyes were fearful but there was something else glimmering in there too, maybe she knew. Deep down, she had to know that we are mates. I took the leap and smashed my lips into hers at first she was stunned and just stayed frozen and then she gave in and to have that submission from her, that unspoken acceptance was driving me crazy. My wolf wanted more but I was more than content with her kisses and her closeness. She pulled away from me, her cheeks blushing bright red, her eyes were shy and lust filled, her lips were swollen from our spontaneous make out session. "We should stop," she whispered as she placed her hand on my chest, I nodded and stepped back, brushing my hair back into place. I was struggling to calm myself down, being so close to her and kissing her like actually kissing her, had my heart beating so fast it might be considered tachycardia. Oh Goddess! Did I blow this?

"Selena, I'm sorry-" "Ethan," she cut me off before I could even finish my sentence but her voice was soft and something about the way she said my name, had my heart melting like butter, "I like you, I just don't understand these feelings." She was wringing her hands and without thinking I had stepped towards her and taken her hands in mine, "I'm sorry for coming on to you like that. The thing is..." I looked deep into her eyes and I knew I should tell her. Everything in me was screaming at me to tell her that we were mates but then I had a sinking feeling, what if she turned around and decided she wanted to reject me. We all know what happens to low born mates in this pack. Knowing Selena, she wouldn't want that and I'm not saying that I would do that to her but that is the reality of our pack. "What is it Ethan?" She asked, disrupting the intrusive thoughts in my head, "it's- uh.. I like you too." It was all I could manage and I'm not sure if it even sounded convincing. She had pulled her hands from mine, "wait-" "Ethan, what is it that you want from me?" She asked, she had c****d her head to the side waiting for an answer but I was speechless as I was captivated by her cuteness. "Nothing! I swear!" I rambled anxiously, "I'm sorry if I upset you, I am just new at this." At those words, her face seemed to soften, "how so?" She asked, I had piqued her interest again, "well, my relationship with Alice wasn't exactly real. I never slept with her or had anything on a physical level with her... well, we kissed once but I avoided it." She was smiling now, almost like she found my whole confession funny, "wow! I knew you were a quiet guy but I didn't think you were that quiet!" She was laughing now and I loved the way her cheeks shined when she smiled, "I'm being honest," I said and she continued to laugh, "I know, I can usually tell when someone is lying but a part of me says that I shouldn't believe you because the way you kissed me held a lot of experience." I was smiling now too and in a second I was up against her and she was against the wall, "you mean like this?" I asked and her eyes trailed from my lips up to my eyes as I watched her tongue lick her bottom lip in anticipation and again, we were making out and I could feel her responding to the mate bond, she might not know what it is but I don't believe a girl like Selena would ever submit to a man without there being a higher power involved. I bit her lip playfully and she moaned involuntarily. We both froze and looked each other in the eyes before continuing to ravage each other, I had removed my shirt and she had removed hers, we both wanted this and I wondered if she was feeling the same kind of hunger for me as I was for her, she must be because she was devouring me with the same kind of a ferocity. A knock on the door made us freeze and stare at each other. Our eyes mirrored the same question, who could that be? She rolled off the bed, clutching her shirt to her chest as I ushered her into the walk in closet and shut the wardrobe doors. I brushed my hair back and pulled on my shirt, making sure nothing was out of place or looked like I was making out with anyone in my room. They knocked again. I opened the door partly and looked out annoyed, "Ethan, please can we talk." It was Alice and she was dressed in a silk with lace night dress that left nothing to the imagination. Where she got the confidence to walk around like that, I'll never know. "Alice, it's late. I just got off patrol. I don't want to do this." She had started up the water works again and conveniently her strap slipped off her shoulder to reveal her bare skin. I stared blankly at her, her seduction techniques had no effect on me. "It's just Isaac told me that you- you didn't care that we were sleeping together and-and" she was stuttering now as a single tear rolled off her cheek and I sighed in exasperation. I was itching to get back to Selena and now I was stuck here listening to this mess.