I've never felt so embarrassed before. Tears wet my hair because my head is thrown back and my eyes squeezed shut like I want to pretend this isn't happening, but at the same time I don't mind so much because this is Jude. At this point, this guy has opened up to me so much that I feel confident to open up to him... even though I didn't have to be so fücking literal.
Maybe before today I wasn't ready to take the next sëxual step with him, but I definitely feel comfortable with him in that regard, after all he's the only guy I've gone to second base with. And I still love him, even though he hasn’t shown much romantic feelings towards me.
I throw my head back even more and move my finger faster, seeking more pleasure. More, more, I need more. It feels good, but not as good as if someone
