Lost Vacation

Justin Logan

The next day, I found myself in a floor lenght mirror in my room staring blankly to the image in front of me, wondering. How can someone be unfamiliar with her own shadow? But that's the case. I look different from everyone here. My skin colour, my hair, even my height.

This morning I woke up in gasp, just like every other day. Waking up from a nightmare that starting to get me on my nerve. My guts tells me that's not just a dream. It's a glimps of a memory, even if its came in piece by piece. Right now I don't know if I have to be gratefull for the lost memory or I should regret it. 

However, if the memory is pieces of my memory, why would I want to revisit it? That were not a normal life after all. Maybe I was a part of a gang or something. And maybe my gang got slaughtered. And then I successfully escaped. Here I am, in a foriegn country with no memory.

This possibility is bigger than any teory I made in my head. I could drive in a solid trafic without crashed, well..at least that was maddie's analog, not mine. The fact that I was the one aware of the danger lurking in the corner? Not so good combination. And that's explain why I don't have any ID with me too.

" Hey Justin, come on" Maddie came out of nowhere without warning made me jump. 

" Damn it, Mad. You scare the hell out of me" I glared at her.

" Don't cuss, kid. Or I'll tell daddy. Come on. I brought your letters. So, you can drive me to school tomorrow and we can hang out after that. I'll introduce you to my friends. You'll like'em." I followed Maddie to my bed as she speak. 

" You gave me your uncle's family name? not yours?" I confused, after scrutining the letters Maddie spread on my bed. My name is Justin Maia Logan. There's ID, driving licence,pasport, etcetera.

" That's my mother's sure name. And uncle Lo is my mother's little brother. You know, I'm not supposed to call him Uncle Lo, because it's rude to call someone by his sure name, but I really love Logan the badass wolverine from x-men, and beside Uncle Lo don't mind. Well, by the way daddy said it might be safer to tell people you're my cousin, and that your parents met an unfortunate fate, and then we adopting you, and you want to keep your sure name"

I laugh a little, Maddie's stupid sometimes. How can I be her cousin, we look nothing alike " Uhm Mad,you missed something important. And what about my look? We looks seriously different" I said waving my hand to myself.

" Well, we can always say one of my mother's brother married to an asian woman. My mother has 6 brothers, no one will notice" She said before grinning. I nod, don't really know what to say.

" Great!. And besides, no one will ask anyway. I'll leave you to rest. This is late. I'll see you tommorow" She kissed my cheek before left and closed the door behid her.

I tried to close my eyes. But honestly the possibility to have the same nightmare is chasing the sleep away from me. After a while I got a headache. I got up from my bed to find the kitchen. The house is still in sleeping mode. For there's no one around. No sign of Mrs Hudson roaming around the house. No light from Maddie's room meaning she's in a deep slumber. I reach the refrigerator and pouring orange juice in a glass and bring it the kitchen table.

Ah, there it is. I got a pen and paper from Mrs hudson's rack that said grocerys. And then sit on my chair thinking while sipping my juice. So what did I get?

1. Amnesia dan luka sobek dikepala ( Amnesia and scracth in the head)

2. Insting akan adanya bahaya ( Awareness of danger)

3. Mengemudi mobil dengan baik, oh! Dan kata Maddie motor juga ( Good driving skill, Oh wait! Maddie said it was motorcycle too)

4. Mimpi tentang pembantaian ( m******e dream)

5. Aku orang asia ( I'm asian)

6.....

What else? I think that's it now. If I got any clue later i'll put it in.

Got scared yet? Yes. The list is not any good. Why would I want to find out who I am? I'm scared of what I might found. Why not just forget it? I could lead a new life. To be Justin Logan, be a good person, and start over.

Am I brave enough to do that? What if thing's are the opposites? What if the scene is about my family that got slaughtered in a robbery? What if there's someone I love looking for me out there? They must be worried.

" That's quiet a list. Are you writing down your clue?" 

" Anjrit!" I almost jump out of skin. Maddie show up reading over my shoulder while sipping her mineral water. I don't even heard any sounds of her incoming "You scaring me to death" I know I'm shouting now

Maddie rolled her eyes " Not my fault you don't pay attention. What a foreign words. What are they in english?"

" Uhm..., amnesia, dreams that always came, good driving, asian things, etcetera etcetera" I deliberately don't say the whole thruth

" Dreams. What dream? You never mention 'bout it" she looks concern now.

" I can't remember the detail or it's plot, but it's always the same" I lied ofcourse. I can remember the detail even if it's came in pieces. But I don't want to make her worried.

" There's a sound of people around me, fighting I think and then..."

I haven't finish it yet, and maddie cut me off...

" That's not a dream. It's a memory. I've been telling you over and over and over again. As we both know, but you don't believe me"

I rolled my eyes "Oh Yeah, How can I forget it. Fighting muggers to save your ass. Was there a cute guy we've been molested?" I tried to distract her. Maddie laugh. It's easy to make maddie sway. But that's good, because that's mean she won't ask again.

" Hillarious. That's real, you know. What are you doing, wake up this early? Get back to your bed. We have a few hours before school" she said

" You go back to your bed. I'm good"

" Justin...Remember what uncle Lo says...don't push your self to hard. That'll makes you stress, and stressing will hold your recovery. Trust me, Uncle Lo is a great a doctor, he knows what he says. Oh Justin, I almost forgot, Uncle Lo said he has a friend that is a good shrink. We can visit him if you like. Maybe he can help you out. Just think about it"

" I'm not. Don't worry. And I'll think about visiting that shrink, but I'm not so sure, Shrink equal mental, and I'm not that mental, you know" I said smiling. I don't know if I tried to convince her or myself.

Maddie smile back, throwing her bottle to the bin she sasay away to her room " I'll see you later. I like your cuss" she said over her shoulder.